Thanks for hanging out with me! Was I cool? did you like me? What do you think of me in detail? Do you hate me?
might be a bit sensitive but it annoys the shit out of me when people throw the word anxiety around and don’t really mean it. Like when something annoys them and they say “it gives me anxiety”. No. Because you are not having anxiety okay having anxiety is when after you make any and every decision your chest gets tight and you feel sick to your stomach and immediately regret that decision and your head starts going ekekwkfbwijdfhjwdnfnidksjdfjsknddj. it’s like a clamp around your head. It’s not synonymous with disliking something.
Bpd culture is your fp talking to someone else and you feel so incredibly unloved and abandoned
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they said that if you’re procrastinating then rest one day and just plan everything out and start working the next day but now I’m procrastinating the planning so what do I do now smack my head into a wall or what.
a delusion does not mean a person should ever be dismissed, brushed off or disregarded.
delusions are beliefs that are extremely hard to shake regardless of how self aware we are.
a delusional person is not quirky, not rambling nothingness for the sake of attention, they are serious.
from believing youre dead or dying (cotard's) to believing your halucinations were real, these things are terifying for us. theyre real for us.
just because you know its not true doesnt mean we're making it up. we deserve to be heard, listened to and helped just like you and your issues.
delusional is not and should never be nor should it ever have been an insult. its a serious issue. take it seriously.
bpd culture is "I love you and it's killing me"
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I hate how I want him to miss me.
Can’t feel anger without physically punching walls or holding in the intrusive violent urges so much that it makes my arms physically burn and hurt
Can’t look at someone who’s even moderately attractive without desperately falling in love and imagine a whole life together
Can’t feel “happy” or moderately excited without feeling like my chest is about to burst and the only way to get it out is to literally vibrate and yell
Can’t feel sad without spiralling immediately into just wanting to stop existing
Can’t feel nervous without teeth chattering chest burning about to throw up
Or just don’t feel anything at all when (apparently) I am supposed to
bpd culture is wishing you could feel emotions normally
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To avoid the sick feeling I get from talking to people about my feelings I am vomiting them out here, enjoy.
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