Teachers Are All DONE!!!

Good news sports fans! Getting back into Undertale and Deltarune, expecting more art!

Noelle had a lot of fun with this

So apparently I have OCD. I have known my ADHD for a while, but confirming OCD wasn’t what I was expecting on this years bucket list.

:)

Does anyone have a link to a back-to-basics article about good fanfic practices, like standards of content and chapter length and such (speaking as an old fart who only wrote a couple of shitty one-shots back when lemons were a thing)

Susie is not even this big I just naturally drew her like a large dog 😭💖

the stats spiral

That's what I call it when I start obsessing over the numbers I get on fics or posts. When I refresh AO3 every five or ten minutes to see if I've got more hits or kudos. When I keep my tumblr activity page open in a tab to see new notes as soon as they come in.

It's not fun. Not really. Even when I sometimes tell myself it is.

You see, it starts out exciting! I've put a thing out there and now I get to see the reactions to it! I'm like a kid on their birthday who can't wait to see their presents. What are people going to say? Will they like it? Will they talk to me about it?

I'm lucky enough that I do get notes on tumblr posts and I do get comments and kudos when I post on AO3. But depending on how excited I am about the thing that I made and depending on how uncertain I am of whether it's any good, I want to get a lot more attention than I end up getting.

I know that that's a normal feeling. I know it's even a rational one! I've put a lot of effort into making something, or I've made something that I think my community will like, and not hearing back like I'd hoped can sometimes feel like rejection. It can be a huge disappointment that makes me doubt myself, my abilities, my connection to my community.

That's why I say it's not fun. Because even though 'engagement' can give me a really high high, it can also give me a really low low.

When I finally realize I'm in one of those lows (and it sometimes takes me a while to realize that I am), that's when I know that I need to step away.

When it's really bad, I just stop posting until I'm in a better mental space. For me, I now recognize that those feelings are often coming from me wanting a connection of some kind. The need for attention is coming from a feeling of loneliness or isolation, and so I need to counteract that by reaching out to people I know and care about to have a chat or a meal or just some time spent doing something communal.

When I can catch it early, then I force myself to close the activity tab here on tumblr and hide whatever stats are making me spiral on AO3. I've learned to recognize that I'm looking to those metrics as a way to feel important or special or cared for in some way and that I need to figure out where I'm feeling insecure in my life and how to get some reassurance - because strangers on the internet won't be able to give me what I need.

If you're currently spiraling, first of all lemme give you a hug ❤️ I hope you can take some time and figure out what it is that you want those stats to tell you about yourself or what it is that you think those stats will give you that you're not getting from somewhere else.

And if you haven't heard it lately, I'm glad that you're in this world - no matter what kind of numbers you have on your posts.

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Thank you for your patience with me. I'm happy to be posting again! This is something that's been rattling around in my head for quite some time, and with my recent return coinciding, more or less, with the reveal of Chapters 3 and 4's release date, I think that it is time I unveiled this idea I've been pouring over. I've always enjoyed making OC's for the things I like, and really trying to make them 'fit' into the setting without disrupting the flow, usually in the form of a continuation of whatever world or story I'm obsessing over. This is such a thing. I hope you enjoy the images, concepts, and characters to come.

Imagine if you will, a DELTARUNE completed, a world SAVED, and a Vessel that was never remembered. Just something thrown away, right at the start, all so YOU could find... someone else.

A Vessel, who can only feel the absence of what was stolen from them. A Doctor, driven mad by the prophetic whispers of his own reflection. An experiment, left to run out of control.

The Dark Worlds are closed, peace is restored, and the heroes go back to their small town life... until a new student is enrolled in their class by an eccentric scientist who just moved to town.

And the balance begins to shift once more...

Her name is

~Flora~

And she’s a gardener!

insomnia scribbles

let's delta this rune