I love writing characters who think they’re fine but are actually walking emotional house fires with bad coping mechanisms.
They stop doing the things they used to love and don’t even notice. Their guitar gathers dust. Their favorite podcast becomes background noise. Their hobbies feel like homework now.
They pick the path of least resistance every time, even when it hurts them. No, they don’t want to go to that thing. No, they don’t want to talk to that person. But whatever’s easier. That’s the motto now.
They’re tired but can’t sleep. Or they sleep but wake up more tired. Classic burnout move: lying in bed with their brain racing like a toddler on espresso.
They give other people emotional advice they refuse to take themselves. “You have to set boundaries!” they say—while ignoring 8 texts from someone they should’ve cut off three emotional breakdowns ago.
They cry at something stupidly small. Like spilling soup. Or a dog in a commercial. Or losing their pen. The soup is never just soup.
They say “I’m just tired” like it’s a personality trait now. And not like… emotionally drained to the bone but afraid to admit it out loud.
They ghost people they love, not out of malice, but because even replying feels like too much. Social battery? Absolutely obliterated. Texting back feels like filing taxes.
They stop reacting to big things. Catastrophes get a blank stare. Disasters feel like “just another Tuesday.” The well of feeling is running dry.
They avoid being alone with their own thoughts. Constant noise. TV always on. Music blasting. Because silence = reckoning, and reckoning is terrifying.
They start hoping something will force them to stop. An accident. A missed deadline. Someone else finally telling them, “You need a break.” Because asking for help? Unthinkable.
i raise it, hold it in front of me. show you, through someone else, a peek inside myself. a keen eye can see through it—but cutting words glance off at an angle. it's not me, just a reflection. and isn't that the point? vulnerability, by proxy. i trust you not to hurt me as far as i can reach into the mirror.
(For those subtle moments when “he frowned” just isn’t enough.)
Tight-lipped — Mouth pressed closed, often from restraint, anxiety, or irritation. Jaw clenched — Tension from anger, fear, or self-control. Eyes narrowed — Suspicion, doubt, or intense focus. Brow furrowed — Confusion, concern, or frustration. Lip twitching — On the edge of a smile… or a snarl. Eye roll — Dismissiveness, annoyance, or teenage energy. Lip biting — Anxiety, hesitation, or suppressed emotion. Nose scrunch — Disgust, confusion, or mild sass. Blinking too fast — Shock, overwhelm, or trying not to cry. Staring blankly — Dissociation, distraction, or emotional overload. Smirking — Confidence, mischief, or sarcasm. Avoiding eye contact — Shame, discomfort, or guilt. Looking down quickly — Vulnerability, embarrassment, or attraction. Shoulders rising slightly — Insecurity, fear, or defensiveness. Forced smile — Pretending, hiding, or surviving the moment.
It's not about how long you've known someone, but about who walked into your life, said 'I'm here for you,' and proved it."
Yours Astrum.
If You Were a Poem
By Astrum
If you were a poem,
I would read you in whispers under candlelight,
tracing every syllable like a secret I was never meant to know.
Your laughter would be italicized,
soft and leaning into the edges of midnight.
Your sorrows?
Those would be bold —
unafraid, unapologetically beautiful.
I would fold you into the corners of my journals,
tuck you beneath my breath,
and let no one but the moon know
how deeply I have memorized your lines.
You are the poem I never dared to write,
and yet somehow,
I’ve been reading you all my life.
The picture in your mind when you think of art;
The artist on his pedestal place,
Dabbing his brush in paint,
Sweeping all his worries away.
The picture in your mind when you think of art;
A careful mix of colours and hues,
A careful tinge of another shade,
A story that never fades.
The picture in your mind when you think of art;
A bleak landscape of monochromes,
So very little tint,
A figure standing all alone.
The picture in your mind when you think of art;
Lush green landscapes,
So very simple,
A doorway to escape.
The picture in your mind when you think of art;
The artist on his pedestal place,
Painting a scene so lovely,
Whose model is as sweet as honey.
> come closer, but don’t flinch when you see the places I’ve bled quietly. I am not soft in the way you expect — I am soft like wildfire, like midnight rain that forgets to be gentle. I love like this: with cracked palms, shaking breath, and a heart too heavy to float but too stubborn to drown. if you want me, know this: I won’t promise easy, but I will promise real. raw fingertips. unhidden scars. midnight confessions no one else has ever touched. come closer. and if you stay— I’ll hand you everything I’ve ever buried under my ribs.
HI ! I'm Astrum, 41 Aries, and I go by he/him pronouns. I like all things art/culture: music, film, painting, poetry, fashion, literature, so feel free to ask about anything of the sorts, I'd love the chat!! I listen to all kinds of music mostly jazz, folk, classic rock, or anything pre-2010s so feel free to ask about anything like that i LOVE the beatless, like seriously it's insane! I enjoy writing letters, notes, poems, as I believe everything is poetry if it comes from the soul I love hiking/camping, long drives, Parties, and other outdoor activities as well I enjoy reading fantasy and romantic fantasy books. My favorite book that I've read recently was The Cruel Prince by Holly Black. My favorite trope is enemies to lovers (I like the idea of someone seeing all my flaws first and still managing to fall in love with me. I also just love the banter between the enemies). My favorite colors are wight, wine red, blue, black, olive, I like all types of wines. I want friends, you are my lifeline, and I do have a lot of things that I enjoy.
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ABOUT ME: Hi! I'm Astrum I go by He/Him. I don't really mind what you call me, as long as you're respectful and treat me like a person. My interests have been listed below but here's what I like to do on a broader scale. Poetries Poems Reading Writing On my blog, you'll mostly find Poems, Thoughts, Brainstorms. Hyperfixation in reading, writing in English, poems, thoughts. IMPORTANT: Feel free to reblog any of my original posts! Please be respectful when interacting with me. I joke around a lot, and would appreciate some patience. Being polite goes a long way! If I have reblogged one of your posts and you don't want it reblogged, please ask. I will take it down, no questions. If you're disrespectful, and I call you out on it, that's your queue not to interact. If I stop responding, you've probably been blocked.
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