A prophet of worm worshippers. (Definitely not a guy with athetosis!!)
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Latest Posts by andr3yvishn3vsky - Page 3
I want to commit suicide.
WHY CAN'T I FUCKING CUT MYSELF?? WHY CAN'T I SLICE MY SKIN AGAIN LIKE I USED TO?! I'M GETTING FUCKING TIRED OF THESE DISABILITIES, SEIZURES AND OTHER SHIT. I JUST WANNA BE HEALTHY OR ALLOWED TO MUTILATE MY BODY. I WANT TO HAVE THE CONTROL I LOST.
you seem cool :3 doing ok ?
Thanks!:33 To be honest I'm something in between relapsing and feeling apathetic, haha... I guess I'll just wait a bit until I feel better instead of cutting
Fuck recovery. I wanna cut.
I want to kill myself because of being disabled. I'm a fucking mess right now. I feel grief, frustration and hopelessness. I wish I could cut myself again.
Trying to dump my sufferings to feel healthy again. I can't bear it anymore.
!!READ IF YOU'RE STUDYING JAPANESE AND HAVE EPILEPSY!!
There's an app called "Memory hint", and please, don't download it if you have photosensitive epilepsy or at least consult with a professional, because there's "Kanji catch" mode that could POSSIBLY trigger a seizure, at least if you won't lower speed. I almost had a seizure because of it.
Please, be careful with apps and videos you're watching, because sometimes there's no TW!
People's honest reaction when there are MUCH more physical diseases than infections ones or breaking your limb
I'm so fucked up with these diseases thing. Everyone is taking in my disability first instead of my personality. Everyone wants only to discuss my disease instead of my new hobby. Maybe I'm really just a code in ICD... Ehh... Why can't I throw away my feelings and just accept the fact of me being a living movement disorder.
"But my ribs are hurting too, so help me!!" No, you're saying that just to force me to do something you don't, while I just want to curl up in my bed with this stinging pain in my ribs.
"Diagnosis isn't an excuse!!" Then what is an excuse for my uncontrollable movements, huh?
It's always "we will represent disabilities!" Until it comes to dystonia/atethosis/chorea/etc. Until they see a REAL seizure, not when a person just shakes on the ground. Until when they see how a person can't get up to go to the toilet due to fatigue. Until they see how a person suffers from pain all over their body, although they ate BUNCH of pain killers. Until disability ISN'T aesthetically lay in bed and sit on the internet. Until they see how a person can't go out on the street without someone who could help them, so they are forced to bed rotting all the time. Just please, if you speak about disabilities, talk about REAL disabilities, not "aesthetically" laying in the bed while everyone is pampering you.
How to explain to people that there's NO NEED in restraining a person when they have a seizure, like bro, just put them on their side and count time, and if the seizure doesn't end or lasts more, call the ambulance. NOT RESTRAIN a person, because either you either them will end up with a trauma.
WAR IS OVER
If you're interested in c.ai, and have some cool plot/character ideas, but can't release them for a some reason, then you can send your request on my second acc, and I'll try to do it!:)
Just accept the fact that flash warning doesn't count as a warning when it appears on a 0,1 second with a small font in the bottom of the screen. I hate it when people can't take a minute to make a good tw.
The fact that something could go wrong, and I'd have committed su!c!de already, scares me shitless. I have no fucking idea how I managed to not commit with constant su!c!dal thoughts, but I've managed.
Why can't I just give up and stop visiting doctors and let myself rot until it's too late? I feel like I'm already starting to decompose, just leave me alone, so I can rot
Some people are just: "we're tolerant! we would never bully or laugh at anyone!"
And then they see a disabled person, and start to laugh at them, or say "you're just pretending!" shit
When people are saying that I'm sick, I don't really want to admit it. I don't feel like I'm suffering enough, like, c'mon... Isn't the word sick means just something more hard to bear? I'm literally doing nothing, but laying in bed and complaining about how hard my illness is, while I still can walk and do some things... Jeez, how tired I'm of these physical conditions...
1000 or at least 100 or 50 likes on this post, and I'm buying him
Having a serious disease is just like:
"Oh, that's just an illness and I don't need to feel guilty because of it, because I can't control it"
And then:
"FUCK, HOW MUCH I HATE MYSELF, I CAN'T DO BASIC THINGS, I'M ALWAYS ISOLATED, MY DISEASE JUST BECAME A MEME, WHY DO I HAVE IT??? JUST WHY?? IS THAT I DESERVE??? WHY I SHOULD I LOVE MYSELF WHILE EVERY FUCKING SECOND I'M WASTING AWAY??!"
People who have any physical issues, I've created a discord server for you all! Hope that you'll have fun!
https://discord.com/invite/MgU9nvnK
People with physical health issues, what do you think about making a group of us, to support each other? We could also make some representation to spread awareness about our illnesses! Just tell me where you'll be comfortable to chat! And also, there's no matter which diagnosis you have, because we'll represent every physical health issues!
why does nobody represent physical illnesses?? I mean... Most people don't know what cerebral paralysis, epilepsy, etc are, and in the end laughing at it, or saying stupid and disrespectful things about it. I think we should spread awareness about physical illnesses, because they're hard to deal with alone, and also could lead to a mental illness. Please, someone, spread awareness about physical health...
ALT ADAM MURRAY HAS A PAD ON HIS FACE...?!!!???!!!😱😱😱😱
HOLY HELL, FINALLY A MONTH WITHOUT SELF-HARM, DEPRESSIVE THOUGHTS, AND URGE TO SU!C!DE, INTERESTING, WILL I GET 2 MONTHS???
SOS, WHY DOES ALT ADAM IN VOL 5 LEAKS LOOKS SO GOOFY YET CUTE, I MEAN I WANNA SQUEEZE HIM SO TIGHT HE'S TOO SILLY
I hate drinking meds! It makes me so sleepy...I mean... I just wanna read a book, not sleep!!.·´¯`(>▂<)´¯`·.
HELL YEAH!! FINALLY 18 DAYS WITHOUT SH, GONNA GET A MONTH WITHOUT SH SOON🔥🔥🔥‼️‼️‼️🔥🔥💥💥
