Latest Posts by andr3yvishn3vsky - Page 2

When the pain hits THAT hard that you need to work while laying down

The doctors had been neglecting me for more than a year, and the day after yesterday I casually had tremors, though I needed to stand up. It wasn't too hard, though I walked like a soldier, cuz my legs were too stiff. And yesterday and today, I noticed a glue-like feeling in my joints, as if some liquid was there, plus it's SO FUCKING PAINFUL to bend it... It starts to hurt, burn and the glue feeling gets worse.... I don't know what to do... Looks like I ended up damaged due to the malpractice of doctors!

I'm sure that I'm an agender, but suddenly I started to want to become a guy, yet still want to dress feminine and cute. What am I?

I want to tell someone about my OCs so hard, LIKE DAMN, I FEEL LIKE I COULD YAP ABOUT THEM FOR HOURS....!

I hate how expensive genetic tests are. Like what do you mean I should pay 1000-2000$ and wait for half a year to get a proper diagnosis? And if only my disease was simple to see on MRI or EEG... This thing is only seen on a few scans and mostly you need to take a genetic test. BUT THEY'RE SO FUCKING EXPENSIVE... Please, someone, buy me this test, and I'll kiss your legs

the man in stripes and glasses, marketland, one weird tip, angry people are kinda underrated. Like... I always see people talking about touch-tone telephone, cabinet man, amnesia was her name etc. not like it isn't deserved, like these songs are amazing (cmon, I listen to spirit phone everyday on repeat) but daaaaamn... I've never seen people talking about the man in stripes and glasses, marketland etc...

I've never thought that I'd listen to the lemon demon, I used to think that it was some boring and lame music with aggressive fans, but right now.... I CAN'T STOP LISTENING TO TOUCH-TONE TELEPHONE AND KNIFE FIGHT, HELL, I LEARNT THE WHOLE TTT LYRICS IN 2 DAYS, AND I'M LITERALLY WAKING UP TO IT EVERY DAY (Ig my neighbours already hate hearing "I TRY TO CALL YOU EVERYDAY, I'M REHEARSING WHAT TO SAY" every morning) BUT DAAAMN, I DIDN'T EXPECT FOR LEMON DEMON TO BE THIS GOOD

I CAN'T HELP IT, I ABSOLUTELY LOVE TOUCH-TONE TELEPHONE IT'S.... QHSHAHHDUSHEHSUS I LOVE IT, IT SOUNDS SO POWERFUL SOMEONE HELP ME–

How much did my art improve?

(The one in the green was drawn in February, the scientist was drawn a week ago)

(btw, me and @feburra are the same person! It's just for my art, while this one is for my thoughts)

Kinda want to post my art here, but I got shadowbanned, so I don't really see the point in it.

I'm so tired of feeling nothing. I'm not sad nor happy. It's just... Emptiness?

It's kinda interesting, how Tumblr randomly stopped recommending my posts. Kinda feel useless without likes, lol

Tried drawing Joel. He looks cool, I think

Had to use ibis paint to make the paper white, not yellowish. I still like this art, though. Maybe, I'll draw him in a digital one day

Proud of you! Wishing you a fast recovery and a long remission! Hope, that everything will be okay!:)

I've had my surgery, so I'm recovering right now. I'm lurking around here. And I'm now cancer-free🥳

Am I disabled if I have to be homeschooled because of my chronic illness? Asking out of curiosity.

I still don't get why so many people like Cesar. Like... Isn't he just a bland image? We literally know nothing about him, except the fact that he's friends with Mark and he's well... Somewhere. Literally, everything we saw is his alternate! Although people still like him and believe that he has a "canon" personality. Hell, even Thatcher is better than him! Even though, I'm not a fan of Thatcher. I dislike him, but even like that Thatcher has more personality than Cesar

LITERALLY, THE NEED:

Hope that someday he'll be available, so I'll be able to buy him... Or at least he'd have a normal and cute bootleg... I don't really care about plushies being bootleg or not, as long they're looking decent.

I finally bought him! He's a bootleg, but I still like him though!:)

1000 or at least 100 or 50 likes on this post, and I'm buying him

I wish I was hated in all my social media, so I could cut myself, not thinking about that someone is caring for me.

YABABAINA, BUT IT'S ALEX KISTER WITH MARK HEATHCLIFF AND JOEL HAYES!!

No. My epilepsy is NOT a disability. Why though? Because it doesn't prevent me from doing ANYTHING. It doesn't affect me all the time. Yeah, someone could say "B-but seizures are a disability!!!" Yeah, they could be. But, have you read the criteria to get disability with epilepsy? No? Okay, I'll list.

– Frequency of seizures. If they are too intense and happening too often (for example a few times per day.)

– Decrease in intelligence.

– Mental issues.

– Impaired ability to move.

– Developmental disorders.

So, that's why epilepsy doesn't make you automatically disabled, it just makes you ill. So, I prefer to use the term "sick, but able-bodied." Instead of disabled. Y'all should accept that disability is a status given by law. So, if you're getting money for your disability, and you have this status in your documents – you're disabled. Or at least if your disease is affecting you most of the time like POTS, fibromyalgia, arthritis etc. you're disabled.

But even if chronically ill means being disabled... I still prefer to be called able-bodied. I'm not disabled. So I don't deserve to be called disabled. Leave space for someone else, not me.

I'm waiting to be hated for my opinion. I don't mind anymore. I don't want to call myself disabled and bury myself in my illness. If I'd be hated for that, but I'd still be able bodied, I don't mind. You can call me like you want, and call yourself a disabled if you have epilepsy, because I'm talking about MY CASE not YOURS.

Thanks for reading. Stay healthy.

DAMN, I WANNA TELL TO SOMEONE ABOUT MY AU SO HARD LIKE... PROJECT SEKAI × VITA CARNIS!! This is actually the first project I've been working on enthusiastically...

I understand everything. But y'know what? I'm still able-bodied despite being chronically ill. Yeah, I have some diseases and yeah sometimes they affect me. BUT. I'm not like this for the whole time. I'M NOT THE PERSON WHO DESERVES TO BE CALLED DISABLED. I'm sick, but able-bodied.

The sudden urge to delete all my disability related posts, so people won't see and won't like it, so it won't remind me of being sick>>>>>

To be honest, I feel kinda remorseful for making posts with hashtags like "disabled" and others. Why? Because thinking about my diseases constantly only worsens my mental health. I literally was about to go back to cutting or mutilating my body. Plus, I don't really think that I'm like... Disabled? Like my symptoms aren't enough to be called disabled or something... So, I think that I won't be making posts like this anymore... Or do them rarely. Hope y'all will understand. Thanks for being with me in those times. Take care of yourself.

And yet again nobody cares about my hobbies or how I feel. I'm just an ICD code. Right. Just forgot.

Invisible disability is still a disability. Even if you don't see it.

I wish I could vent to someone... Or at least be hugged. I can't I'm turning into a whimpering mess, all covered in snot, tears, saliva and feeling nauseous. I hate myself

Hey it’s okay. I just went through your blog. I was upset. It’s not your fault, just please be more careful web tagging. There’s minors in the tag. I hope you feel better, genuinely. You seem super nice. I truly hope things get better.

Thanks!! Next time, I won't use tags that could trigger something! And, sorry once again if I made you feel bad. I didn't mean to...

Please stop posting in the cripple punk tab about self harming it’s triggering as fuck.

Oh, okay! I'm sorry if I triggered someone, I didn't want to... Hope you're doing okay!