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Vent Ish - Blog Posts
TW: Vent
I dislike/despise when I'm trying to exercise and I hear the dreading alarm of my device ringing telling me to eat something so that I don't pass out/collapse from hypoglycemia. Like I'm trying to have some fun while losing my weight. I don't need to be reminded that I'm not like other people who can exercise just fine without the risk of low blood sugar. I'm already frustrated enough that it's hard for me to lose weight from my PCOS. I don't need to be reminded of the two things that make my life a bit more harder than other people.
Sorry I just needed to get this off my chest...
why is it that so many people equate having sex to being a good relationship? like we have sexual trauma and are also asexual, and for the first time in three years have decided to actually respect ourselves and not give into to the idea that you need to have sex to be happy and we feel so much better about ourselves because of this.
and yet anyone irl were interested in just expects it to be a thing. and refuses to be partners until we have sex with them. i just want to be loved. why tf do i have to have sex to be loved? it doesnt make any sense
i might not be a saint but i sure as hell don't deserve to be treated this way
You ever feel like you’re just not as connected to anyone like you were previously?
Like you’re close with a certain set of people in the sense that you’ve known each other for so long and you’ve been through a lot with them, but you aren’t close with them in a sense that you can have a conversation and not let it die within a minute of talking.
This is how I feel everyday.
My friends, family, everyone. I feel connected to no one anymore, and the loneliness is actually starting to kill me deep down. Each day that passes, I feel myself becoming more and more clouded and desperate to feel at least a little closer to someone.
I’m tired of having these fantasies and other delusions that I am famous and loved and accepted like I want to be.
In fact, I’m hopelessly scrolling through stupid dating apps silently praying that I can get a connection with SOMEONE and maybe feel something other than numbness and guilt, but so far I’ve had no luck.
The internet is all I have, and if I were to lose that.. I think a part of me would die.
