Sorry For Being Depressing - Blog Posts

God's most rotten angel..

Indeed.

the future is terrifying

when you cannot remember the past.

when everything's going good and then it starts to feel like you don't deserve food again

Hey guys sorry for my absence I took a tumblr break so I won't go crazy. Here's an update

I've been trying g to get better mentally but it's not really working I've made up with alot of people even tho I don't really want to I'm just tried of worrying about getting harassed all bay but my friend imma call A has been ignoring me for her boyfriend and won't stop be sexual to me and about me and I don't really know what to do I just miss my best friend with all my heart

Great news I got a girlfriend Monday

But she broke up with me

I will never get to have my special someone

Love having only 2 friends 😍😍😍(everyone else left me and talked shit about me instantly)

Ok can you guys tell me in the comments but am I a bad person for not reporting my friend to a teacher like I know I would hate it but I really care for my friend and I don't want to go back to school and them not being alive because of me i just feel like a shit friend and I don't know if I did the right thing.

My friend told me he was gonna kill himself I've been crying since lunch I just left school and he told me if he's not there Monday then he did it and it worked.

My whole life is crashing down around me I'm not ok right now

I was telling you about how school is so draining that I dread getting up in the morning but you yelling at me to "clean my room"and"try harder"

What if the next time you see me I'm covered I'm my own blood with pills all around me would you tell me to "clean my room:

Hey so I'm not dead (yet) but I was wondering if anyone would want to hear about my greek goddess oc I'm asking cus my page doesn't really match that lol just wondering if anyone would care about it

Gettimg a random burst of energy but I still wanna kms is so weird cause wdym I'm jumping around and acting silly but in my head I wanna die like what 😭

All I do is bleed

I bleed for you

I bleed for them

I bleed for her

I bleed for him

I bleed for me

All I am is a bleeding bloody mess

I feel my time is running out

I am the most unlovable unlikable person in the world and don't say that's not true cause everyone who say that leaves me

An suddenly my heart has been ripped out of my chest and sat neatly infront of me

I've lost everything

I've lost my spark

I've lost my world

Trauma messes you up I can remember the most horrible gut wrenching thing yet I can't remember faces and the full picture

I'm like a corpse I sit and decay

I rot away all day

Vent since I'm pissed

Tw sh

My one friend is pissing me off so bad she told me something and I said ok and then said "don't go telling anyone I know you like to do that" and all I think is how she told me a week ago that are whole friendship was built off her using me for homework and I'm the backstaber. Like I feel like she's a bad friend cause she made me so upset I relapsed and I can't even say anything cause she will make it about herself and I know she will cause when I told her I self harm the next day she came to school waving her arm in my face showing me her cuts like were twins now and it makes me feel like I'm the asshole for self harming in the first place.

If anyone actually read this thank you for listening and if you have any advice please share if you want I honestly don't no what to do