Where Every Scroll is a New Adventure
I wanna give up daydreaming so bad. I’ve been doing it for 6 years now and I feel like I’ve missed out on so many things. I would lie and say I felt sick when my parents and siblings wanted to go out and do things just so I could be left by myself so I could pace around my room without being interrupted. When all my friend where having sleepovers I would decline the offers because I wanted to be by myself so I could daydream without the fear of them judging me. I use to throw a tantrum whenever my headphones broke and I could not get new ones right away. I would skip out on band practice just so I could get a few more hour in. I’ve caused myself so much stress because I would rather daydream than do my homework/study. I just graduated high school and I almost missed my graduation because I wanted to stay home and daydream. I use to think it was no big deal that it wasn’t interfering with my life that I was not missing out on anything, but now looking back I realize that I’ve missed out on so many things. I loved that I had the ability to go and pretend to be someone who was popular, confident, selfless...everything that I wanted to be. Even when everyone else my age had stop having imaginary friends. I mean I can’t describe the feeling of daydreaming. I love doing it so much but when I stop at the end of the day and I realized all of the stuff I could have done if I was had not spent all day running around my room (I have to paint my floor every other month because I’ve walked so much the paint has came off). I feel like a complete idiot for wasting my day like that. I am starting college next spring and I’m planning to intern for NASA next summer so I need to stop thinking about my imaginary world and who I am there and focus more on me in this one. But everytime I try to stop i can’t because it’s just to hard. The longest I’ve went without daydreaming was a week and that was because I was stuck in a hotel room with my siblings, but even than I would daydream when I was in the shower, in bed, or the car. I just want to try and stop for good or at least where it stops interfering with my social life.
Spending literal days in certain situations in your own reality. Nights even.
Making faces and moving lips when imagining stuff, then realising and hoping no one saw it
Having heated arguments by yourself in your room.
Spicing up everything you do with your imagination. Learning? Your suddenly a professor and have to explain that stuff to your students. Cleaning? Your comfort character is watching you while you hum songs while doing it.
h o r n y
Either not being able to watch the show/movie your reality is based of without stopping every five minutes and acting out a scene or obsessively watching this and nothing else.
Trauma
Creating whole musicals and music videos to your favourite songs in your mind
Watching something from the show/movie your reality is based on and thinking "this is so wrong. This happend differently. I live here, I should know"
Either sleeping in with your comfort character next to you every night or just imagining scenes.
Sudden conversations that make no sense to anyone but you
Weird or really violent imagination (torture, being captured and abused ect.)
Not often dreaming about your own reality even though you practically live there every day (or is it just me?)
Googling "imaginary friends at age [...] normal?" in your teenage years
Thinking they be gone soon but here you are, maladaptivly daydreaming your problems away.
Improving your character and your story so often that it's now so detailed you could write literally about ten to twelve books about it. Fuck.