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Would Anyone Care

Leo x Depressed Suicidal Reader x Donnie

Warnings: Attempted Suicide, Depression, Self Harm (Do not read this if it triggers you, you have been warned)

Song: Would Anyone Care by Citizen Soldier

Notes: Uhm yeah this is a real banger, kinda cried in the middle of making this one because its to close to home. I suffer from Depression myself and it tends to get worse over time. I rely alot on my friends to help me out and I'm so thankful for each and every one of them. If you suffer from Depression know this, you are not alone and not the only one suffering with it. You are cared for and loved by everyone and anyone and don't ever think that you aren't. Please take care of yourself, not just for your sake, but for others. Also side note uhm, sorry if it seems like its all over the place lol, kinda rushed this one. Also again while reading listen to the song as it will definitely not make you cry. 😢

Days turned to weeks, weeks turned to months and months turned to a year. Yet nothing has changed for the better for Y/N.

Aside from meeting them.

The turtles.

Y/N has to thank her friend April for meeting them, it was an accident of course.

An ugly one at that.

(Would anyone notice?)

(If tonight I disappeared?)

April decided she was gonna introduce Y/N to her friends, seeing that her friend was lonely and quite frankly it worried her.

Y/N was always alone if not being bullied for being a bookworm, but on top of that she was also shy. April however never judged her for who she was and managed to befriend her.

(Would anyone chase me)

It wasn't enough however, after that fatal day, everyone was a bit on edge.

April managed to convince them to come meet her friend and they obliged. What they didnt expect was that they all had walked in on Y/N cutting into her skin, blood running down her arm as it dripped onto her apartment floor.

Everyone was panicking as they rushed over to Y/N to asses the self injury.

(And say the words that I need to hear?)

This lead to being introduced to Donatello or Donnie, the tech savvy turtle in purple, he seemed arrogant, prideful, and rude at first but he's actually alot nicer than you think of course. He's also a certified bad boy or so he claims he is.

He stepped closer to Y/N, as he tapped away at his wrist watch as he ran some vital scans.

She doesn't even rememeber what he said, it all was so blurry to her. Then again she knows she hasnt eaten in a couple of days and hasn't drank alot of water too. So perhaps that would explain her blurry vision but she wouldn't know she's not a doctor.

(That I'm no burden)

(Not so worthless)

She does remember watching the blue banded turtle step forward, as he started to fix up her arm. His name she came to know was Leonardo or Leo for short. He called himself the face man, the star of the team he claims he is. He is as tactile as he is annoying, well only when he says his one liners. Which Y/N enjoyed very much, much to the brothers disappoinment.

She should have been paying more attention when it came to everything going on around her, but at the time all she focused on was the blue and purple turtles.

Donatello and Leonardo captured Y/N's interest from that day on.

Time passed after that day, and for the better?

As she got to know the turtles, things got easier and better for Y/N. She started to come outta her shell (heh) and began opening up to the others.

(Bent so much that I might break)

Y/N really was getting better.

(All consuming, so confusing)

(The questions that keep me awake)

I mean she did get into a relationship with Donnie and Leo. Which at first shocked them both from her startling confession of the two, to which they at first weren't sure how to go about this relationship.

Things worked itself out eventually, and for the better.

Or so they thought.

(Would anyone care)

(Would anyone cry)

At first they took to keeping an eye on her, due to past experiences she either talked about or their first meeting with her...they would rather not talk about it.

Eventually they were able to trust her by herself.

Which in itself should have been a good thing, but it wasn't. Y/N took advantage of her alone time and wound up hurting herself due to not being enough.

Not being good enough for Leo and Donnie.

She would constantly put herself down and think negatively, and it would always lead to her cutting herself or trying to end her life.

Leo found a noose in her bathroom at one point which scared the shit outta him. After that you never seen it again, which he was relived of.

Unfortunately this lead Donnie to researching her symptoms and it alarmed him.

Y/N had Depression, severe Depression at that.

The first thought that ran through his mind was if she was on medication, and if she was taking it.

The answer was no.

(Would anything change?)

(Would you all be just fine?)

Of course Donnie told Leo about this startling information and it bothered Leo tremendously.

Which led Leo to telling Donnie about the noose, and god did it freak Donnie out. Leo had never seen Donnie act so outta of it before, unless it came to his tech.

So from then on both tended to be by her side...well as much as possible after finding out about her Depression.

('Cause I need a reason to not throw the fight)

They made sure she was taking her men's once she got them, along with making sure she was eating and drinking properly.

(It might just save my life)

Things were going so well, until now that is.

Today was their one year anniversary of dating, both the turtles thought it would be a good idea for a dinner date up on the roof at night.

Only their was one problem.

They couldn't find Y/N.

(Would anyone want me)

(If they knew what was inside my head?)

(Would anyone see me)

(For the person that I really am?)

(I won't lie so hard to hide)

They checked her apartment on arrival only to find nothing but a recently used bloody razor on her bathroom sink. Then they checked her bedroom, Donnie found her empty depression med bottle on the floor.

With closer inspection, Donnie found all the pills were emptied out into her trashcan.

(I've never felt worthy of love)

Y/N wasn't taking her meds!

(I would give up everything I have just to feel good enough)

"Leo! Has Y/N been taking her meds like she's suppose to?" Donnie asked his twin with a slight quiver to his voice.

"I think so...why?" Leo ask with hesitation only for Donnie to wave him over as he points to the trash can. Leo's eyes widen as he lets out a gasp.

"She...she hasn't been taking her...why?!" Leo slams a fist against the bedroom wall in anger, not at her but at himself for not checking in on her even more.

"Donnie where do you think she is?" Leo asks his twin, as he eyes the hole in the wall he made himself.

He'll fix that later he reminds himself.

Right now the only thought running through both there minds is where Y/N is at.

"The roof!" Both say is unison.

(Would anyone care)

(Would anyone cry)

(If I finally stepped off of this ledge tonight?)

Witht that they rush outta the apartment and ascend up to the roof, seeing Y/N standing by the very edge.

"Y/N!" Both Leo and Donnie yell out, watching as she slowly turns around to face them both.

('Cause I need a reason to not throw the fight)

"I'm sick of being alive!" She yells out, making both flinch at the tone of her hoarse voice.

Y/N's been crying. They can see her puffy red eyes from where there standing.

"Y/N don't do this!" Donnie yells, as Leo nods in agreement. "We love you Y/N please...keep fighting through the pain!" Leo says as he starts to cry.

She takes a step back, wobbling slightly as she's getting closer to the edge.

(Let me in, let me share in your pain)

(From my lungs through the dark)

(Spoken straight from the heart)

(Let me give you a reason to stay)

"Y/N!" Both yell, there eyes widening as they themselves try to get closer to her.

They need to think of something fast or else they might loose her.

"Mikey's gonna miss how passionately you get when you share your stories that you write!" Leo shouts out, startling Y/N as her eyes widen.

Wait...does he really like my stories? She questions.

"Yeah! What about Raph? You share his same worries over all of us, the both of you make sure were taken care of and we love you both for that!" Donnie yells out, knowing what Leo is trying to do. He'll thank his brother later for the quick thought on this.

They continue to tell Y/N how much they mean to her and how many broken people their would be if she left. They can tell its starting to get to her.

Y/N starts to cry at this.

"Most of all, we love you for being you. You loved us when we never thought anyone could ever love a mutant like us." They both say, making Y/N cry harder. "Come back home Y/N, you can talk to us about how you feel, hell you could move in with us, I'm sure dad wouldn't mind." Leo says a bit rushed.

Y/N stops crying as she stares at the both them, small smiles adorning there face as they hold out their hands to her.

She can't do this, they deserve so much better than her.

With her last ounce of energy she shoots them a small smile, giving them hope that would quickly be taken away.

(Would anyone care)

(Would anyone cry)

(If you finally gave up and turned out the light?)

With that she leans back as she lets herself fall off the ledge of the building.

"Y/N!!" There eyes widen as they both rush forward to try and grab her but they miss.

She stares back at there horror stricken faces through blurred eyes.

The rush of the wind around her feels nice as she's falling to her death.

They deserve better she reminds herself as she allows another smile to grace her face.

Just when she thought she was about to hit the ground a new pressure is being wrapped around her waist?

She opens her eyes that she didnt even know she closed, to see Donnie had grabbed ahold of her, him using his jetpack to save them both. To save Y/N.

Donnie guides them both back up top as he holds her in shaking arms. Leo sees this and comes rushing over to embrace her as well.

"Y/N please...please never do that again! We love you! We don't wanna loose you, you mean the world to us both. You mean the world to April...she sees you as her sister...if you had died...she'd be devasted." Leo says in between sobs as Donnie hums in agreement as he too is crying.

"Let's go home...Donnie can make you stronger meds, and I'm sure your hungry too so Raph can order the pizza. Oh! Mikey can play some of your favorite music that calms you down!" Leo rambles on as Y/N is left alone to her thoughts.

They do care, they do love me, they really would miss me if I left...but I didn't because they saved me.

(Tonight is the night, you take back your life)

(Take back your life)

(Take back your life)

(Take back your life)

"Let's go home...my real home boys." Y/N says as a geniune smile graces her face as both boys kiss the side of her head.

You Wrong

Donnie x Female Cheating Reader

Warnings: Mentions of sex and swearing and cheating

Song: You Right by Doja Cat

Notes: I would listen to the song as you read, makes it stand out more lol.

(I got a man but I want you)

(I got a man but I want you)

(And it's just nerves, its just dick)

(Makin' me think 'bout someone)

Donnie should have known better, he should have seen the signs.

He is an intelligent man afterall, or so he thinks.

Certainly smarter than his dumb dumb brothers of course but...

This isn't what he expected.

He thought everything was perfect...well as perfect as it could get but yet here he is, standing in front of Leo's room, music playing in the background...has he heard this song before?

Faint moans can be heard coming from it, not that it wasn't outta the norm.

Leo tended to be a horn dog and was pretty upfront about it, and so having guests in his room late at night was nothing new (cough, Usagi, cough).

Yet, what bothers Donatello is the fact that the moans coming from Leo's room sounds just like Y/N's.

His girlfriend.

He doesn't want to believe it, he refuses to and yet...

All the signs are there in front of him.

He doesn't know when this all started between his twin and Y/N.

(You know, I got so much to say)

(I try to hide it in my face)

(And it don't work, you see through)

(That I just wanna get with you)

He should have known better, especially when they asked for Leo to take them home if he was too busy.

Or when they started hanging around his twin more often.

Or when they started talking about him in front of Donnie, without realising it.

He scowls at this fact, not knowing who he should be mad at.

Leo knew Donnie was dating Y/N, they have been together for at least eight months now...well. Have they? He isn't really sure anymore at this point.

He should walk away right now, pretend he saw and heard nothing...and yet he can't.

Why?

What does Y/N see in Leo thats enough to cheat on Donnie for.

He's smart, amazing, talented, he's good at making gifts (minus the gifts he made for his brothers when fighting Meatsweats, they had a small talk about it), he's a good listener, he's patient (only for Y/N however), and so on!

(And you right)

(You Right, I)

(Got my guy)

(But I,I)

(Can't help it I want you)

Another moan can be heard as it knocks him outta his trance.

He frowns in disapproval, realising maybe she left him for better sex? No no no...she would never do that right?

Donnie know's he's in denial but he has every right to be yeah?

Only way to find out, is by learning the hard way.

He knocks on Leo's door, opening it as he takes in the sight before him.

(I can't stop and look the other way)

('Cause I know what could be, babe)

(And you'd never feel the same)

Leo's on top of Y/N pounding into her at rapid speed, moans coming outta her mouth as she opens her eyes for a quick second to see Donnie standing in the doorway.

"Donnie it's not what it looks like!" She yells out, but it only falls on deaf ears.

Donnie's pissed but he already knew, all the signs were laid in front of him.

He slams the door shut as he marches angrily back to his lab, effectively locking his door so no one can come in.

He walks over to his chair, sitting, before he slumps down in it.

What did he do wrong?

(You'd be thinkin' 'bout it every day)

He runs a hand across his face, groaning as he's unsure of what to do. Should he break up with Y/N or be mad at Leo for doing this?

"Dont believe in fairy tales Donatello, they dont always get the haply ending they deserve." Donnie says to himself, rather bitterly he might add.

He desperatly tries to swamp his mind with new inventions to make, hoping it would in some way distract him.

It doesn't.

All he can think about is what he just saw.

Leo on top of Y/N, her clinging onto his shell for dear life as he fucked the life outta her at rapid speed. Moans pouring sweetly from her lips, her face red as sweat drips down her forehead, but yet when her eyes had opened she looked to be dazed and on cloud nine.

He wouldn't be suprised if his twin fucked her with good ole doggy style.

Was sex ever that good between them?

Donnie was a gentle lover when it came to sex, so naturally he would treat her like a proper queen. Now that isn't to say he wasn't down to expirement

(Tryna be all through your sheets)

I guess she wanted more, he mused to himself.

(Have you all on top of me)

(Actin' like its not that deep)

A hurried knock can be heard from his door as he turns to look at it, wondering who it could be.

"Donnie baby please...can we talk!" Y/N yells out.

(I can't tell no one but they all knew)

He scowls at the door, wondering if its a good idea to her in.

He sighs as he figures he should hear her out at least, if she tells the truth of course.

Donnie gets up outta the seat as he makes his way over to his door, overiding it. Y/N thanks Donnie as she walks into his lab, him following behind as she stops and turns to face him.

"I'm so sorry Donnie, Leo tricked me into having sex with him! I never wanted to do that with him, only you! She cries out, startling Donnie at first until he scowls at her.

(I try to hide it in my face)

(And it don't work, you see through)

"Tricked you? How funny and rich coming from you Y/N, since you seem to love tricks, but I don't buy this fake get up your pulling right now." Donnie says through gritted teeth and her eyes widen.

Bingo.

"You've been spending more and more time with Nardo then me! Your boyfriend!" He seethes out.

(Girl, I want you like you want me to)

(I feel that energy...oh, yeah)

Y/N begins to back up as Donnie takes a step forward, his step matching hers. "Don't think I havent noticed the subtle glances you through his way when looking at him, or how you always seem to light up more when Leo enters the room! Let alone when he comes back after taking you home, only to come back in a goofy dazed out way, the same look he gets after SEX!" Donnie says angrily as he backs Y/N into the corner.

"Donnie..." She quivers out, lips trembling as tears stream down her face.

He's had enough...he's heard enough. He got the answer he was searching for.

"Go be with Nardo, cheater." He hisses out as he walks away from a crying Y/N.

(I got a man but I want you)

(I got a man but I want you)

(And it's just nerves, it's just dick)

(Makin me think 'bout someone else)

He leaves his lab in hope of finding someone, or anyone at this point.

That is until he runs into Leonardo.

"Woah D, why you in a rush?" Leo says casually as Donnie just scowls at him.

"I dont know, why dont you go ask your little girlfriend!" Donnie yells out, startling Leo as he pushes past him to go to Mikeys room.

What donnie didnt see was the bewildered look on Leo's shocked face.

(And it don't work, you see through)

(That I just wanna get with you)

(And you right)