I Miss Being A Kid - Blog Posts

Hey it has been a few days since I last posted. Child prison aka School has been keeping me busy from the moment I wake up to late at night. And this has been my therapy.

So anyways, meet my OC, Momo. I’ve absolutely love fnaf ever since my older brother showed me markiplier’s first ever fnaf episode when the first fnaf game came out. And Ballora has always been one of my favorites, because she reminded me of a dream I had when I was younger. Before I discovered my love of writing stories and drawing, in elementary I loved ballerinas! I remember buying a ballerina costume for Halloween one year and wearing it year round until I outgrew it, and I remembered watching the ballerina’s dance on the TV and attempting to awkwardly copy the ballerinas on the screen. I never got any ballet lessons. But after I graduated from elementary school, I had surgery on my spine, but after I recovered I wasn’t as flexible as I was when I was little. So after I kept failing, I eventually just forgot about it. But once sister location came out, Ballora became my instant favorite, and she reminded me of what I loved doing when I was little.

Gosh dang it! How many times am I gonna accidentally hit post?! 🤣

Anyways! Sorry! I get off topic sometimes 😅. Back to my character! This is Momo. And unlike all of the other people, following the lore… I am not a normal person! So I am gonna make this based off of my au! Momo, is the soul who possesses Ballora. Things are different in this au, almost every single animatronic has a soul of a dead child inside. It’s either that, or because the object has suffered a lot in it’s existence. (Aka, the current agony theory about remnant).

I am so proud of this! This is probably one of my best works yet!

Momo was originally just some Ballerina ghost oc of mine I had to haunt some theater where her boss/toxic and possessive boyfriend murdered her. But soon enough, I got really attached to her. I had so much fun with this and I may even make an ask comic for my au! So, Go ahead and swarm me with asks about my fnaf au!

*shaking six year old me by the shoulders* YOU WERE RIGHT! YOU WERE RIGHT ABOUT SHARING IS CARING AND FAIRNESS AND TREATING OTHERS HOW YOU WANT TO BE TREATED AND BEING NICE TO PEOPLE AND LETTING THE LITTLE THINGS GO AND ASSUMING EVERYONE IS GOOD. YOU WERE RIGHT. THE ADULTS WERE WRONG. IM SORRY THEY TOOK THAT AWAY FROM YOU. KEEP BELIEVING IN SANTA AND THE FAIRIES IN THE TREE IN THE GARDEN. IM SORRY THEY EVER CONVINCED YOU TO FEEL SHAME. NOTHING IS EVER "JUST THE WAY IT IS". YOU ARE PRESENT IN THIS WORLD. YOU WERE RIGHT.

I’m crying over the stupidest thing rn.

I saw a yt short of a flipnote animation with the fucking grandma episode from SpongeBob as the audio, and IDK why but it just broke me.

I miss being a little kid so much. Maybe things weren’t the best per se, but it was the happiest and sweetest and most innocent and hopeful I ever was.

I miss my old room back in my grandmother’s house and the balcony. I miss those days where she’d make me oatmeal and we’d go do things outside like picking berries. I loved being on this little hill that I think was made of sand.

I just.. I miss it all. I can’t describe how much I do.. I’d do anything to relieve those moments again if I knew how bad things were going to get for me.