Wait For Me Iguchi "Spinner" Shūichi, My Dr Is Not Too Far Away

Do you guys have that one song that never fails to remind you of someone in your dr? Well, I have multiple songs that remind me of multiple people, so I thought about making a little post about one of those!! (for my main bnha reality)

I'll surely make more of these posts because they give me lots of motivation. But unfortunately for you something that strangely motivates me a lot is All For One's death, so in this post I'll be talking about a song that reminds me of him. I hate this fucker so much, it's not even funny.

Unfortunately my playlist, which was started WAY before I started scripting this dr, is full of songs that remind me of him. So maybe I could do more posts about him.

Usually when I see people talking about someone from their dr it's always a s/o, a family member or a friend, but I guess I'll be talking about my worst enemy!! One of the reasons why I find myself thinking about him a lot is because in the present of my dr (thank fuck it'll change in the future) this bastard is basically a role model to me, someone could argue he's supposed to be a father figure, so... yeah- I can't wait for his death!! :D

And since I'm talking about All For One of all people, supposing you know who he is (if you're still reading this then I assume you do), then don't expect anything pretty out of this post...so warning I guess? Also reminder that in my main bnha reality I'm Shigaraki...so it's even worse!! :D

As I already said, my playlist has lots of songs that remind me of All For One. Some remind me of certain scenarios that will take place in my dr, some remind me of him in general, while some remind me of more specific things about him.

"All Eyes On Me" by Bo Burnham never fails to remind me of how self centered he is. He's a complete narcissist, his god complex is unmatched. This song reminds me of the war, specifically when he'll be literally possessing me.

I don't know how to explain this, but all I can hear when I listen to this song is a dialogue between me and him- although he's the one who ends up talking the most. So to better understand what the fuck I'm talking about, here's the lyrics of the song! The blue text is supposed to be my dr self and the red text is All For One. I suggest you keep in mind the fact that I said this reminds me of when he's possessing me, it just hits different-

BUT WAIT!

The song starts with "Get your fuckin' hands up", but if you look down here I've written 'off' instead of 'up'. I know it says 'up', but I genuinely cannot hear it, even if I think about it and try to hear it. I really can't. For me it always has been and always will be 'off'. So please play along and pretend it's 'off', because every time I listen to this song my brain thinks 'off' and goes "hehe, it makes sense for your dr!"

Also when it says "Get on out of your seats" I always hear "Get 'em out of your seats". I always interpreted this as "applaud me" like...I don't know- you're in a crowd, get your hands off of your lap and applaud someone on stage or something.

But those are not the only things I can't 'hear properly'. In fact I changed another part. It's when it says "Heads down, pray for me" and "Heads down now, pray for me". I genuinely cannot hear that, I always heard and will always hear "Hands down — Pray for me" and "Hands down, now — Pray for me". It doesn't make sense, I know, but with the context I've given (it being a dialogue between two people – me and All For One – and the fact that he's literally possessing my body) I promise it makes sense!! So please play along-

...AND YOU GUESSED IT- ANOTHER THING: "Got it? Good, now get inside" I always hear it as "Got it. Good, now get inside". So instead of "did you get it? Good..." it's like "ok I got it. Good...".

“What's the point of the post if you changed the song?” I didn't change the song. The song says 'up', it says 'on', it says 'heads down', it puts a question mark. What I'm doing is making it so you can hear what I hear. Because every time I listen to this song (like while writing this post) I hear it like this- it doesn't matter if I know that it doesn't go like this, it doesn't matter if I'm reading the lyrics, I can't hear it any other way. Which actually makes me appreciate it more to be honest- especially since I've kind of connected it with my dr.

So yeah, sorry- I'll shut up now-

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Are you feeling nervous?

Are you having 'fun'?

It's almost over

It's just begun

Don't overthink this

Look in my eye

Don't be scared, don't be shy

Come on in, the water's fine

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody, oh

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Ay, come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Are you feeling nervous?

Are you having 'fun'?

It's almost over

It's just begun

Don't overthink this

Look in my eye

Don't be scared, don't be shy

Come on in, the water's fine

You say “the ocean's rising” like I give a shit

You say “the whole world's ending”, honey, it already did

You're not gonna slow it, Heaven knows you tried

...Got it. Good, now get inside

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows, everybody knows

We're goin' to go where everybody knows

Everybody knows

Come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Hey, come on, get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seats

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

I said get your fuckin' hands off

...

Get up...get up

I'm talkin' to you- GET THE FUCK UP

Get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

Ay, fuckin' get your fuckin' hands off

Get 'em out of your seat

All eyes on me, all eyes on me, yeah

Come on, hands down — Pray for me

Hands down, now — Pray for me

I said get your fuckin' hands off

Get- HAHA

All eyes on me, all eyes on me

So that was something-

Now that you read (or listened too, that would be dope) this...do you see what I see?

And have you noticed how All For One gets progressively more and more aggressive? That's exactly how he is- especially in the war.

The All For One in my dr (like in canon) constantly puts up this patient, nice and welcoming yet still villainous persona. But in my dr, under that mask, he's actually the total opposite. His patience quickly runs out and his anger issues? Don't get me started on those! He quickly loses his temper and isn't afraid to get physically violent. You can see he's getting really mad by the way he speaks- and you're gonna know when you're in deep shit when he starts using a more vulgar vocabulary and, before you know it, he's literally trying to kill you. Luckily for him (and unfortunately for literally everyone else) he's a great fucking actor and he's willing to suppress 'the real him' if it means achieving his goals. In the war, while he's possessing me, he tries to keep the fake personality to manipulate me, sees it's not working anymore and completely drops the act, revealing his true nature. I JUST KNOW HIS LAST WORDS ARE GOING TO HURT- can't wait for his death either way to be honest-

"Get 'em out of your seats", as I said earlier, reminds me of applauding someone who's on stage- and followed by "all eyes on me" is just...so All For One! I remember that in canon (but I'm not 100% sure- it definitely happens in my dr though) All For One ends up killing the Light Baby because he was jealous that people weren't paying attention to him instead...so those lyrics are EXTREMELY fitting. Because, as I said, he's extremely self centered, a complete narcissist- IT'S THE SAME GUY THAT CALLS HIMSELF THE DEMON LORD BY THE WAY!!! (I know it's because of a comic he read...but still- damn- edgy teenage dr me could never-).

"Don't be scared, don't be shy — Come on in, the water's fine" NOT HIM TRYING TO MANIPULATE ME MORE- THIS BITCH

And in the part "Got it. Good, now get inside" (and what comes a bit before it) just seems like me speaking my mind and him just not caring at all. Because what I think doesn't fucking matter to him- so he's like "ok got it- now fucking listening to me because I'm right, you're wrong and you must always listen to me."

"Hands down — Pray for me" through all of this song what myself says the most is 'hands off'. Obviously this is because he's literally possessing my body, so...yeah- but him saying "pray for me"?...GIRL GET OUT- HIS GOD COMPLEX- WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, YOU LITTLE SHIT??

HOLY FUCK- THIS SONG IS SO HIM IT'S ACTUALLY INSANE-

HANDS OFF FOR REAL- BECAUSE WHAT THE FUCK IS THIS????😭🙏🏻

(wish me luck guys🫡)

symbol of fear: main bnha dr !!

(WORKING ON NEW VERSION)

This is my main bnha dr!! I consider this to be a pretty personal desired reality because of the reasons I want to shift here.

This is probably the most intense reality I'm shifting to. In fact I've thought about it for literally 2 years before deciding to start scripting. This is the dr I'll talk about the most in my blog, so keep this in mind!!

The reason why I decided to start this blog, aside from helping me and hopefully others with motivation, was because I really wanted to talk about this dr. I needed a place where I could talk about it freely, but my notes app wasn't really doing it for me. So here I am!! And also who knows, maybe I'll find someone with a similar dr too!!

before reading: why do I want to shift to this dr? Where do I begin? Well, I absolutely hate this reality. Everything is going to shit and I really want out of here, plus I really don't like myself- but this could apply to my wr and other drs as well. So why this one in particular? In 2019, while I was making my first ever script, I immediately thought about a flawless world. Then, in 2020, I went on a 4 year shifting break. After two years, in 2022, I wasn't done with my break but I was trying to pick up shifting again. That's when I looked back at my script. Coming from an extremely flawed reality, the idea of shifting to that perfect world seemed…underwhelming. I'd feel like a coward, hiding away in a perfect world instead of fighting for a better life- I know there's nothing wrong with it, in fact my wr is some kind of perfect world, but it wouldn't be as gratifying as I'd like it to be. I absolutely hate the society I live in and I feel completely useless here. I want to go to a reality in which I serve a purpose and things actually get better. That would be a satisfying reality to go to.

So this is basically what this dr is about. A reality in which I serve a purpose, a reality in which actual justice will be served, a reality in which society at large will learn and grow from its mistakes, a reality where everyone will feel heard and have a chance at life. A reality in which the world will change into something beautiful and life will begin to feel like it's worth living, like it should.

But why bnha? Because not only I've been hyperfixating on it for an extremely long time and I'm really attached to it, but also because justice and society are really important topics in canon, so I was really drawn to it when I decided to script and go to a reality such as this.

summary of contents:

my dr self • plot and main events • important people • miscellaneous

last update: january 25th 2025

← previous [main wr] || next [???] →

my dr self

If you read everything until now, you're either thinking that I'm a pro-hero/hero student or you're doubting that because of the name I gave to this dr and the picture of Shigaraki at the start of this post. Well, here's the most 'controversial' part of my dr:

In this reality I'm not a hero. I'm a morally ambiguous villain.

And if you happen to have seen the post about my wr you might be wondering why I didn't put a picture of my dr self at the beginning of the post like I did in the other one.

I actually did. That's me. In this dr I'm Shigaraki Tomura.

A morally ambiguous villain that, at least in my dr, ends up actually doing something amazing.

→ “Moral ambiguity: a lack of certainty about whether something is right or wrong”

→ “Morally ambiguous refers to situations, characters, or actions that do not have clear ethical implications and can be interpreted in multiple ways.”

→ “Morally ambiguous characters can start off with good intentions and then be driven to evil by others or by society, or they can start off evil and come to redeem themselves. Alternatively, they can remain ambiguous and complex throughout the whole narrative, and leave the reader to make up their own mind about them.”

This is the most difficult part to explain about my dr, but I'm going to try my best to make it understandable:

I always find myself relating to Shigaraki in one way or another. If you knew me in real life, I'm sure you could kinda see the similarities.

When I first started to script this dr I tried countless times to basically make an original character to insert myself into the bnha universe. But it'd always, and I mean always, end up being really similar to Shigaraki, like some kind of bad rip-off- it was just uncanny, really. I'm one of those people who whenever they start hyperfixating on a series they attach themselves to one character...so this kinda explains it- but that aside, as I already said, I relate to Shigaraki, a lot. I'm genuinely not surprised I couldn't come up with something original in this case.

And then it just kinda…made sense- it made more sense for me to shift to a reality in which I'm him instead of trying to insert myself into the bnha universe being a cheap copy of him.

I really don't know how else to explain it, but it just feels right for me.

So yeah…Shigaraki Tomura from the Shigaraki Tomura series-

I don't have anything to say about my dr self, really. He's Shigaraki Tomura, that's it basically- according to my interpretation of the character, that is!!

plot and main events

When I first shift to this reality it'll be the 4th of April 2124, my 19th birthday. I'm still confused on when bnha is set canonically, I keep hearing it's in the present or an hypothetical future, so I picked future. In 2124 the class 1A students are going through their last year of middle school and in 2125 they'll be in the first year of UA and I'll turn 20. I decided to shift a year before canon events to kinda get used to a new reality- I know that once I get there it'll feel absolutely normal, because it is, but I'll do that anyway. Also because I don't want to shift and immediately be forced into utter chaos…and because I want to spend time with Kurogiri without worrying too much about being caught!! (since after the USJ Attack the public will know the LOV is a thing)- for context: he's not 100% like he is in canon, go to the "important people" section for more info!!

Everything will be like canon bnha, but there are some changes. For example the War Arc is almost completely different, consequently the Post-War is not even close to canon. The war will start like canon, but there will be no hero or villain deaths. After the war society will begin to change (in a good way) and me, the LOV and people like us will finally be able to actually have a chance at life. Does this mean there's zero criminal/villain activity? No, but it'll be significantly reduced and will be dealt with way better than it was before. There are other changes, but those aren't as important as the ones I already mentioned.

Another thing I feel like I have to mention is the fact that, as I said earlier, I'm an ambiguous villain who commits ambiguous actions. Although more than half of everything I do is not my fault (All For One), that doesn't mean that I won't be responsible for at least some of those actions. I'll be accountable for the acts that are exclusively my fault (so there's no proof of them deriving from All For One's influence- or maybe I just straight up admit it), but not for the ones that derive from All For One's manipulation and grooming. But neither me or anyone in the LOV will be given life in prison or a death sentence. We'll spend a lot of time in the hospital, unsurprisingly to absolutely no one- but not just any hospital, it'll be like a prison's hospital, so regular civilians aren't treated in the same building as us. After that we won't be immediately free, we'll probably be staying…somewhere under surveillance- I don't know- and then we'll be under probation and then finally we'll be completely free!! Is it realistic? Probably not for this reality, but that reality is different and society will undergo a massive change too, so it makes sense to me.

...also after all of this I'll be spending my life with the LOV and my s/o- me when I can find love as a ex-criminal in another reality and I can't pull anyone in the cr: 🤡

Once I shift to this dr I'll forget about what I've scripted and the plot (only when I'm in this dr- so when I'm in my wr or any other dr I'll remember everything)- EXCEPT: I shifted, I can't and won't die, I can't get traumatised in any way, it's going to end well, other safety things like that.

important people

I absolutely love everyone in the LOV, but I'm not going to talk about everyone or this would be an endless post. I'll talk about three people for now: the first is basically a family member, the second one is my future s/o (we'll be together after the war) and I can't wait for the third's slow and painful death.

Kurogiri !!

In my dr, Kurogiri isn't 100% like in canon, but he isn't too different either. In canon he basically lacks a mind of his own, bound to listen and obey All For One's commands and whatnot. He's a highly intelligent nomou, but that's just so he can better assist All For One and all. In my dr there's still a trace of that, but he's quite different.

In the early phases of 'testing', so not too long after he was created, a certain event took place that influenced his 'programming'. He began to progressively act less and less like some kind of machine and instead acted more like a normal person. But never in front of All For One (and heroes once canon events will begin in my dr). Not only because he wasn't completely independent and still couldn't disobey him, but also because there could've been consequences (he could've been 'reprogrammed', losing the progress he's made, or worse). All For One would've probably done something about it, but he noticed this once it was way too late.

Canonically Shigaraki has been staying with All For One since he was 5 and he's now 20, in my dr it's no different. And Shirakumo was killed when he was in his second year of UA, so he was probably around 17. If you consider Eraserhead's age, since they were in the same year, then this would make Kurogiri 30 years old, his age in my dr. If you do a little bit of math: when Kurogiri was killed at 17, I (and canon Shigaraki too) was 7, I was already with All For One. In my dr it didn't take too long to make Shirakumo into Kurogiri, it took around a year. We met when I was 8 and he was 18. So we've known each other for a really long time.

After the event that changed Kurogiri's programming, we began to properly bond. All For One couldn't just change or get rid of him, losing Kurogiri would have affected me greatly. That could've impacted his plans for me. So as long as Kurogiri 'doesn't do anything funny' he's free to stay the way he is. Little does All For One know that he'll continue to get more and more independent until, after the war, he'll be truly free to be himself.

We bonded especially when I was around 14, when All For One died to All Might (and then got revived by Garaki). Since All For One wasn't in the way, Kurogiri had a little bit more freedom and that was absolutely amazing!!

He's my older brother. The best older brother there is.

He took care of me, he taught me stuff, he gave me company, he listened to me, he made me feel better whenever I felt miserable and so much more. And he still does. He, alongside the LOV, is the main reason why I'm so determined to shift to this reality.

I've never shifted there before but I miss him greatly.

Spinner !!

I don't have a lot to say about Spinner actually. He'll be my best friend (I say 'will' because when I'll first shift there we won't know each other)…and my s/o after the war!! When I first started scripting this dr I wasn't thinking about having a s/o, it didn't really seem to fit. But as time passed I started feeling more attached to the people in my dr and whenever I found myself thinking about him…I don't know, scripting him as my s/o just felt right- everything in this script is based on a 'it feels right for me' feeling!!

So yeah: acquaintances to friends to lovers I guess LMAO!!

Also, a little fun fact: in the cr I have a necklace with a little gecko!! The base is silver and it's divided into 4 sections. In each one of those sections there's a (fake) flat gem. Also I got extremely lucky because on one side it's more green, on the opposite side it's more light blue and in the middle the two colours kinda mix together in a cool gradient. Me when green = Spinner and light blue = my dr self-

All For One. . .

Alright, what can I say about this man?- the term 'man' doesn't even suit him, this is a fucking monster- thank god I can script whatever I want and I scripted lots of things for safety!! Most of those safety things are related to this guy- they apply to everything, but mainly him and his actions.

I still have to register the fact that for a long time (until the war starts) I'll consider this man my ally- like- the one that saved me and shit- god damn-

Anyway-

PRAYING FOR HIS DOWNFALL🙏🏻‼️

Can't wait to kick his ass!!😘🥰😍

(I don't know what else to say actually-)

miscellaneous

...

ALRIGHT, MON-CHAN IS HERE!!! :)

Here's the princess!!

Figuring out how to make my microphone work for the emulator was hell, but I managed to turn it on, teach her her name and how to sit and immediately gave her food and water. Here she is in all her glory!! I didn't get any screenshots of her on the first day and I found out that closing and reopening the game makes the game think a whole day has passed, even if that's not the case. On the first day I ordered a different room style, I closed the game and immediately reopened it (to see something with the microphone) and suddenly the date changed and the room was done. So...yeah- here's Mon-chan!!

Also if you're wondering how I could immediately afford to purchase a room style...I used cheats to have infinite money- I want to spoil her rotten, ok?😭🙏🏻

And here she is on a walk!! On this walk we met a dog named Angel. They didn't become friends, but Mon-chan seems interested in them, so hopefully we'll meet them again!! On another walk she found a red checkered bow. I'm not the biggest fan of bows, but it's cute nonetheless!!

She really likes her tennis ball- me and her used to play with a tennis ball a lot in my dr, so I really enjoyed playing with it together!!

AND LOOK AT HOW SILLY SHE LOOKS HERE!! JSHSBSHBBSUSBS I LOVE HER SO MUCH!!

I've had a DS emulator on my phone for a while and I haven't used it much recently. Today I opened it and remembered I downloaded Nintendogs, I still haven't adopted my first dog.

And you can bet your ass I'm adopting a corgi and calling her Mon-chan.

MON-CHAN MIGHT NOT BE WITH ME IN MY MAIN BNHA REALITY, BUT MY BEAUTIFUL PRINCESS WILL NEVER BE FORGOTTEN!!!!

(I'm definitely not scripting I also play Nintendogs in my dr and have a corgi named Mon-chan after my childhood pet)

"Make a height comparison chart for your dr people" they said…

"It'll be fun" they said…

Sometimes I forget that this bitch is so tall-

Also bonus Kurogiri because I love my big brother!!

Note: Kurogiri's height is based on the top of his physical head, not the highest his mist gets when not manipulating it- because yes, I thought about how he looks like without the mist in my dr!!

(also the heights probably aren't 100% accurate, but it's a more or less-)

I'm tired as fuck and I feel like I just spawned here,

These are some goofy ass options, dayum💀

Challenging you all!

Put your music library on shuffle, then list the first five songs that come up in a poll to let people vote for which one they like the most!

Then tag Tumblr friends to keep the game going!

MLP DR SLAYYYYYYYYYYY ‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️‼️

IXBSSHHSSVSHGSVSVS-

LITTLE ME ALWAYS WANTED TO BE FRIENDS WITH THE MAIN 6, IT'S INSANE-

So don't mind me shifting as a cute, little pony and be a new element of friendship-

BUT I'M SO UPSET BECAUSE I DON'T KNOW HOW I WANT TO LOOK LIKE IN MY DR, I SPONTANEOUSLY COMBUST EVERY TIME I TRY TO THINK OF SOMETHING GOOD, HELP😭🙏🏻

Yesterday I randomly found something that really reminded me of Kurogiri from my main bnha reality. I was tired so I didn't think too much about it, but I took a screenshot anyway.

A few minutes ago I was in my gallery, thinking about my dr and all, and I saw the screenshot.

"I'm not crying, you are!" that's what I would say if I wasn't crying- I'M CRYING-

I MISS MY BIG BROTHER SO MUCH- GET ME THE FUCK OUT OF HERE!!

↑ this was the thing I saw by the way. If I don't shift tonight and I don't get to hug Kurogiri for AT LEAST an hour straight, I'm going to make it everyone's problem-

FOR THE ASK GAME <3333

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

IDENSHSBWBD THANK YOU!!! <3

I'm answering for my main bnha reality!! The questions come from this ask game!!

𐔌 . 🩳 ⋮ SWEET LIFE ֹ ₊ ꒱ what are the sweetest parts of your relationship with your s/o? all the not sugar-free, tooth-aching sweetness you two share. is your dynamic as simple as grumpiness vs sweetness or is it something more complex?

IDDBDHHSVSHS SPINNER!! THAT MAN IS THE DEFINITION OF PERFECTION!! "But perfection doesn't exist" HE ISN'T PERFECT, BUT HE'S PERFECT TO ME- if you get what I mean :)

Not gonna lie, I'm not 100% sure how to answer this, but fuck it we ball.

In our relationship, some of the most important things are mutual respect, equality, loyalty and love- oh, so much love. I'm obsessed with him in a healthy way and he's obsessed with me in a healthy way. Does that make sense? I don't know, but it does to me.

We love spending time together by doing whatever: chores, work- literally anything we can do in the same room we do in the same room.

And don't get me started on cuddles- It's literally the best part of my day- HE'S SO GENTLE WITH ME- AND THE WAY HE HOLDS ME?? I ASCEND TO HEAVEN EVERY TIME!! And speaking about holding, usually when I'm the one holding him he's basically a weighted blanket. I love that feeling when I'm relaxing, so having him on top of me is my favourite way to hold him- even though it doesn't really sound like holding- but he likes it, so we really don't care.

But one of the things we absolutely LOVE to do is just being nerds together. We share quite some interest and sometimes we spend entire days just talking about our favourite things. And when I say I love hearing this man yap about the things he likes, I mean I love hearing this man yap about the things he likes. Like yes!! Please tell me about the Sonic lore, I'll tell you about Earthbound afterwards!!

𐔌 . 🥂 ⋮ SUPER RICH KIDS ֹ ₊ ꒱ is there something in your desired realty that we would think is fantastical or unheard-of but is completely normal there? do you splurge thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl? or fly around on a broomstick?

Well, this is a bnha reality, so the first thing that comes to mind is quirks. If we don't count those, because they're to be expected...it's difficult to think of something different actually.

If we take a look at the postwar, me and the lov will literally have infinite money (and despite this the economy won't be affected negatively), so I guess 'splurging thousands of dollars a day like you're in gossip girl' applies to my dr pretty well LMAO-

But other than that, still in the postwar, I'll have permission to go anywhere I want without needing to go through any kind of security. Not only will I need this to properly do my job (dealing with All For One's allies, which are scattered all around the world- although I'll keep others informed about my location), but also because...just because- so basically I'll be able to go anywhere, whenever and however I want. You know how we see All For One flying multiple times? Yeah, that'll basically be my main way of travelling. Does this make sense for this question? I don't know actually-

Oh yeah- and me and the lov (and maybe class 1a too, I'm still thinking about it) are literally going to be immortal...so yeah- it'll be strange at first, but then everyone is going to be super chill about it.

𐔌 . 🎹 ⋮ BAD RELIGION ֹ ₊ ꒱ what or who do you turn to when you need a safe space? do you turn on your favorite album and sit alone in your bedroom? do you have a friend you know will always be comforting ear? perhaps you take solo walks around your neighborhood?

It depends on what's bothering me and how upset I'm feeling at the moment. However, you also have to keep in mind that in this reality I'm Shigaraki, so I'm probably going to be feeling shitty most of the time over things that are completely out of my control (heroes, the system, etc.- and don't get me started on trauma), so the negative feelings are constant, I can only distract myself and hopefully make them feel less intense.

When it comes to who I can turn to, then I can always count on Kurogiri!! He's basically my big brother and I don't know where I'd be without him. We tell each other pretty much everything and he's always there for me. He knows he can count on me too, if he ever needs comfort and support, I just hope I do a decent job at least, I'm not that good with people.

And I just know that my dr self, in the present of my dr, would also turn to All For One if he was ever given the chance. It's upsetting to think about, not gonna lie.

When the league becomes a thing and we start bonding, I know I can count on all of them, really. But I'll probably stick with Kurogiri, especially because I've known him way longer than the others and he somehow always knows what to do to make me feel better. Also I don't want to bother the others too much. At least Kurogiri doesn't need an explanation on why certain things might upset me, he knows how I am. In the postwar I can count on Spinner for sure, he's going to be my boyfriend so...you know, it just makes sense.

When it comes to what I can turn to...well, there's a few things I do that usually make me feel a bit better.

So first of all: videogames. Keeping my mind occupied with something else and immersing myself in a different world (one reason why I prefer RPGs) usually does the trick. As much as I would like to call this a hobby, it's more of a form of escapism, in fact I tend to use videogame terminology in real life mostly to make myself feel in control of the situation- but yeah, also a hobby because I genuinely like videogames and I don't play them only when I feel upset.

Another thing I love to do is to go on long walks. Usually I go where there's lots of people. I guess you can say one of my hobbies is people watching. Walking helps me get some energy out (sometimes when I'm upset I find it difficult to stay still), I get to reflect on what upsets me so much and how I could deal with it and watching other people...I don't know, sometimes it makes me feel a little better. Maybe it's the illusion of being a normal member of society amongst other normal members of society that kinda makes me forget what's bothering me so much. Or maybe it's the pressure of trying not to get caught that makes me bottle everything up and 'act normal', which often results in me feeling and acting worse when I'm not in public anymore. Or it's an attempt to 'not waste time' and 'be productive', coming up with ideas and trying to find new ways to trick people into thinking I'm someone I'm not (basically observing normal citizens to understand how I could act if I'll ever find myself interacting with them- you know, to not get caught). But I don't know, I just do it anyway.

I also really enjoy music, but I tend to not listen to it when I'm particularly upset. Yeah, I get my emo, edgy and mysterious moments while listening to depressing music when I'm not feeling well, but not when I'm (close to) hyperventilating and trying my hardest to not make a mess out of my neck.

Speaking of my neck, worst case scenario I don't find a good way to deal with my emotions (which is a common occurrence), I close myself in my depression room and you see me get out of there with blood on my neck and under my fingernails. I'll just leave it at that.

Why do I have the urge to remake my intro post?- LIKE GIRL YOU ALREADY REMADE IT ONCE!!

IT'S BECAUSE IT'S TOO LONG- my original idea was to put as much information as possible in one post, BUT IT'S TOO LONG AND IT'S BOTHERING ME-

Anyway, if y'all need me I'll be in my draft working on it💀

Actually I'll either be in my drafts or I'll be working on my Notion script- you can never be too sure- I HAVE SO MUCH SHIT TO PROPERLY SCRIPT IT'S INSANE- MOST OF MY SCRIPT IS MADE OF LITTLE NOTES BASICALLY AND IT'S BOTHERING ME SO MUCH-

But yeah, I'll be in my drafts :)

And now that I finally posted the intro to my main bnha dr I can post stupid memes like this-

:D