New Rules Just For Me:

⭐️ving motivation!

Why let a moment of comfort get in the way of your dream,Remeber why you’re doing this.

Nothing tastes as good as skinny feels

I know you crave perfection,

and it’s not built through comfort and giving in its built through pain,hunger,and sacrifice!

quotes to live by.

starving is a gift, not a punishment.

hunger will always feel better than the sickness and guilt that follow eating.

hunger means it’s working.

to be empty is to be strong.

to be light is to be perfect.

eat to live; do not live to eat.

if you must eat at all, let it be just enough to keep your secret safe.

& nothing tastes as good as skinny feels.

Best for fasting are: lots of work, lots of water and lots of sleep. And my muts supporting me and my bff.

Eastern was not good. Fuck holidays. But now on track again. One meal every second day.

Happy not to eat and feel I never want to eat again

New

36 hours without food now, running 10k every day. Feels good. My body disappears. Disturbing things: sleep is not good and I am freezing all the time (here is still winter). BMI 20.4 now.

quiet rules for quieter days

– choose discipline before desire. let control be the first bite.

– brush your teeth, then once more. mint tells hunger to wait outside.

– cold water fills the places where want once lived.

– chew until your thoughts dissolve, not the craving.

– let the scent satisfy. the will to say no is the real indulgence.

– move your limbs until the noise fades. burn to remember you’re alive.

– stand beneath cold water. reset. rinse the need from your skin.

– scroll the still bodies, the soft lines, the quiet frames. become the goal.

– let bitter coffee kiss your throat. green tea if the silence needs steeping.

– curl into the ache. breathe through it. you’ve done this before.

– remind yourself: it’s not about food. it’s about becoming less.

I am not accepting anymore that "3d" stands for a disorder. It is not a disorder for me. It is my personal way to growth, discipline and pureness. Therefore I will in future see "3d" as "eating dharma", a spiritual way to grow. Like so many enlighted humans have done in religion and spirituality

Today is again a day where the world seems unbearable. My family demanding and preoccupied of their emotions, demanding adaptation to their egocentric needs, the world like a pile of rubbish, people exploiting people, people killing people. I am not depressed, but simply want to become less, being invincible, my body should be halv the body i have now. I want to be a shadow only.