there's a difference between father and dad. one is a title, the other is a bond.
the way people on tiktok talk about a little life is genuinely so infuriating like the book was obviously not meant for you and reducing it down to the sequence of events is so fucked up... it's very telling that everyone in the comments of any tiktok mentioning a little life is like "i just read the wikipedia summary and now i have full authority to talk about this book and its quality/morality" literally just say you've never read anything besides ya and fanfic just admit it
When Fiona Apple sang, āHow can I ask anyone to love me, when all I do is beg to be left alone,ā and when Mitski sang, āyouāre growing tired of me, and all the things I donāt talk about,ā and when Julien Baker sang, āitās not easy when what you think of me is important, and I know it shouldnāt be so damn important, but it is to me,ā and when Elliott Smith sang, āIām alone but thatās okay, I donāt mind most of the time; I donāt feel afraid to die,ā and when the Front Bottoms sang, āsometimes you get sad when weāre together because youāre not sure if youāll miss me when Iām gone,ā and when
(suicide cw) (a little life spoilers) I habitually go back to the last portion of the book. As I read it the first time, I was only dimly aware this was the ending. I could see the number of pages, sure, and the repetitive title of Lispenard Street was ominous enough that I shouldāve known - after all, why else would you bookend it like that?
I think it didnāt hit me initially, though, because for all the arduous buildup, all the scares, this is all we get of Judeās death.
We get the aftermath, of course (and naturally I sobbed through it) - but this is the tragedy weāre led to anticipate the whole book through, and so, aware of its inevitability, Iād expected all the magnitude of Judeās suicide attempt, of all the tragedies that followed. But Judeās life gets 800 pages and his death gets two sentences.
The story doesnāt end on an ending. It ends on Lispenard Street.
This is what Harold leaves us with: kindness, and a father and his grinning son reminiscing; and of course thatās how he would tell Judeās story, of course thatās how you would speak of someone you love, after: with all the kindness of eternity. People arenāt endings. Judeās life wasnāt a stopgap, it was the story.
I can see how A Little Life might be read as a gruesome, cobweb veiled backstory to a suicide to many. Thatās certainly how Jude would see it, at times, I think; but thatās why Harold is the narrator. (Harold, to whom Judeās life was so precious, who treasured it so wholly and selfishly, as parents often do.)
And so, as weāre taken back to Lispenard Street, I canāt possibly read this story as anything other than a love letter ā from a father, to his sonās life.
Elliott Smith invented coquette core šāØ
Gerard Way releasing new comic series, "Paranoid Gardens" part one (of six) in comic shops on July 17.
forever floating in the space between āi donāt forgive you, but please donāt hold me to itā and āi feel no need to forgive, but i might as wellā
how do people read a little life and come to the conclusion that yanagihara is saying that if youāve experienced trauma, you should just give up? excuse me but thereās approximately 700 pages that say the complete opposite did we read the same book?