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does anyone else ever feel too numb so they purposely trigger themselves to feel something? I know it’s not healthy but it’s one of the only ways that I feel anything right now.

The longer you’re clean the worse the relapse

Hey, reblog this if you’re ok with mutuals messaging you and stuff!

Asking for my sanity :]

I could have a knife in my back and the first thing I'd do is make sure you're okay

You hear singers and guitarists with your ears but you hear bass lines with your heart so don’t go telling me bassists aren’t important

a hug would be nice but not waking up would be better.

Are you normal or do you have hypervigilence problems because you always had to be aware of your family members moods growing up in order to deescalate situations before the arose

so i started to think about some stuff. never doing that again.

I feel this way a lot, especially as someone who never thought I was gonna live to be 18. But it’s crazy to me realizing that I was 13 and 14 when I really thought that way, honestly I still do feel that way. And the only thing keeping me going on in this shitty country is that it would cause a whole lotta problems for my family if I did die, especially this far along in my life.

sometimes the feeling of wanting to unalive myself are super strong, other times it sneaks up on me- especially when someone says something that might not seem so big to them, but actually really hurts me, happens and next thing I now I’m suddenly super quiet and thinking that they would be a lot happier if I wasn’t in the picture-.

sometimes i just get hit with the feeling

i wasnt supposed to make it this far

also what do i do now

That's a fact