I Am Not Jealous. Not At All. I Am Completely Okay And Normal Right Now. I Am Clearly Not Gutted With

Me: writes heart felt lines as a way to cope with the pain of heart break that has never gone away even after 7 years. On a blog that no one knows about so my feelings don't get revealed.

Also me: Tiiiitssss

Me: like sexy coz plays cause it's something I want to adapt into my art style

Also me: hasn't drawn anything for 3 months

Me: Want to write and make posts about lesser known book series that I love

Also me: doesn't

I fell in love with you and just like that I was  

       no longer perfect

Yaaas

I'm on Words of Radiance right now and I gotta say,

I just love Kaladin, like he has a mysterious past that he isn't interested in talking about, and he has like no respect for anyone who hasn't personally earned it, and clearly wants to be left alone forever. But he sucks at getting people to ignore him.

Like first of all, he looks everyone in the eyes, even people so far above his station. He has an impeccable posture and presence at all times, even without considering the whole stormlight thing which apparently can make you look prettier/more saturated in the world. He has slave scars marking him as dangerous and just pretends that he's basically of a station to light-eyes. And he barely even remembers to call the King 'your majesty', it's an afterthought at best and if the King believed that he actually had authority Kaladin would probably be dead. (Of course if the King was a stronger personality than maybe Kaladin would have shown him respect).

He wants to be left alone to die but has such strong sense of honor and empathy that he ends up caring about anyone that ends up in his vicinity for more than 5 min if they need help in anyway. He adopts Renarin grudgingly likes/respects Adolin even when Adolin drives him absolutely insane. He does his absolute best at any job he is given no matter how hard it makes his life or how many toes he steps on.

And he cannot hide his skills to save his life. So far, about half way through the book he's not terrible at hiding the stormlight, except that he is and the people around him just have more to worry about (like dying) when he has to use it.

He's a very very good surgeon even though he didn't actually have the chance to formally study, and when literally anyone calls him on it, he's just like 'I learned field medicine' - sir, you think field medicine is a good excuse for knowing more about epilepsy than the light-eyed noble that HAS the epilepsy??? Really?? Like are you even trying anymore? You're using words that no one else has ever heard of and you are teaching everyone around you field medicine.

He will literally never be able to blend in ever in his life.

I love him.

One day

I will wake up and not

Ache for you

But today is not that day

I wouldn't be surprised if this turns out to be the case with us.

I feel like a part of my soul has loved you since the beginning of everything. Maybe we’re from the same star.

My longing for you makes all my close     

       friends angry. I don't blame em.

When I prayed I didn't think God would listen. Now she is taken from My dreams. Damn. Where do I call to rectify this?

I dream of you every night.

Every morning I lose you.

Everyday I pray to God—Either stop her from invading my dreams or don't wake me up.

When you saw a pic of a kitten and kissed it. The beast purred, wanted nothing more than to be domesticated.

I know house and cuddy's ship isn't exactly liked but When house said to cuddy something along the lines of: beingwith you makes me a worse doctor. It will cost lives. You are worth it.

I felt that

When being a doctor saving lives was the only thing that kept house going. Yet he gave up everything to be with Willson. Knowing that Willson will die leaving him all alone. Still he did it.

I felt that

I made myself sad again

Raises hand ✋!!

raise your hand if you’ve sworn an Ideal/ spoken a Truth through tears at 2 AM *raises hand*