Spectrespeaks - 🥀

mutual did not see the post i reblogged specifically for them. 13 dead, 65 injured.

How do I kill myself without making anyone sad?

Someone please tell me this isn’t an original experience.. do you ever get so insanely infatuated with someone (who you don’t necessarily know super well/like that much) that you crave validation from this person to the point that if they look at you wrong or say one wrong thing you convince yourself they hate you and start deeply hating them and any little thing they say can send you into a mental breakdown ?? No just me?? Ok.

Nothing makes me feel more valid than anonymous strangers on the Internet validating my feelings.

me when masturbating doesnt fix me

FUCK sex let’s plan our double su!cide

None of this would’ve been an issue if I just killed myself at 16

A.I. may be able to paint pictures like an artist, but it will never overdose on heroin like an artist

craving the kind of intimacy that requires surgical tools

having bpd means ur the only one not allowed to have negative feelings or else ur the monster