Any Other Late Diagnosed People Relate? 😅

someone is appreciating the new blanket :-)

me: hey do you think i could do this work

adhd: hmmmm no :) you’re going to plan an entire novel in your head and think about nothing but how excited you are to write it :)

me: okay well i finally have some free time now, so do you think i could write the novel:

adhd: sorry i forgot to mention, you’ve just forgotten every thought you ever had :( also your motivation is dead now lol

" all I can do is take drugs and lie down " 😭😭😭😭

I had a good day yesterday knowing that today I’d be in horrible pain. Well today is here. I cannot sit without severe back pain and that means I cannot work. I don’t deserve this. I just want to be a productive human. My back hurts so badly. 😭 all I can do is take drugs and lie down.

Executive Dysfunction but make it Hunter x Hunter

So here's an analogy ( Spoiler alert if you haven't seen heavens arena arc )

Know how Gon and Killua can't pass the corridor when they reached the 200th floor because Hisoka stop them from crossing? When Hisoka caught them with his nen, the boys knew that they needed to move away. They desperately want to move away, they even thought that if they stay any much longer they were sure they would die. But no matter how much they tried, they can't. They're just stuck there, unable to do anything except to just wait until it's all over.

And that's how executive dysfunction feels. It's exactly like that.

No matter how much you want to do something, whether its a fun activity, maybe a hobby or a very important thing that you have to get done you just cant. Your brain decided to stop you from doing anything and it fucking sucks. You're just stuck in silence and you're forced to wait until its over. Executive dysfunction is clearly not about having no will power or not enough motivation. Just like how Killua and Gon desperately wanted to get away from Hisoka but they can't, because they're stuck. It's like that.

all the memes about when you need to be at somewhere at a certain time but you need to get coffee or something so you need to get ready like 15 or 30 minutes earlier but for someone who's time blind watching it is like " how the fuck youre so sure that you need to do it 15 minutes earlier- h- how do you know its gonna take 15 minutes?????? what if you get motional or need more mental preparation to do it??? " i cant tell the time so shit is mega vague when i planned for something it sometimes goes like Must be at A at 13.00. the travel will take around an hour to get there. better get B before im at A. so that means i must go at fucking 7 in the morning just in case time goes extra fast or i am just extra slow or if im getting a bit sad and dumb... but then leaves at 12.15

executive dysfunction sounds like a fucking lie, even the ones who suffers from it think it's just some stupid excuses they make for not putting enough efforts, and the whole thing doesn't make any sense either!

" I can't do thing because brain stops me from doing it "

LIKE WHAT. WHO WOULD BELIVE THAT

The beautiful fantasy themed artworks of Lei Min - https://www.this-is-cool.co.uk/the-beautiful-fantasy-artworks-of-lei-min/

the sun mourns in vain for the white-throated rail: a comic about disability and the unwanted able-bodied grief for past selves.

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Page 1: The sun holds a white-throated rail, a bird with a red head, a gray body, and a white throat, in its hands. The sun speaks in a tone represented as sorrowful pity through a drippy speech bubble.

Sun: Looking at you makes me sad!

Rail: What?

Page 2:

Sun: Looking at you makes me sad!

The sun stands with a hand clutching its face.

Sun: How miserable it must be to be flightless! Don’t you yearn for the skies? Don’t you wake up grieving you’re still on land?

Page 3: The white-throated rail looks down in frustration in the hand of the sun.

Sun: (speaking off screen) I’d simply perish if I were you!

The rail speaks, looking down. Pink flowers bloom towards the bottom of the page, petals and pollen blowing in the wind.

Rail: Why do you put your words in my beak and your grief in my feathers? Am I not beautiful?

Page 4: The bone of a white-throated rail is positioned against a colorful galaxy dotted with flecks of stars.

Rail: Am I not adaptability in action? Am I not evolution in motion? Do you mourn the days you weren’t a star? Do you mourn when the sky was cold, how unbearably hot you must burn to keep embracing it every day?

Page 5: The sun looks at the viewer.

Sun: Why would I? That was then, this is now. I am content to be in this state.

Page 6: The rail looks up at the sun off-screen.

Rail: Well…So am I.

Dhampir hunter — your mother was human, but your father was a vampire, and you’re betraying his ancient blood. Your human self is your weaker self. Humans are nothing more than livestock.

VAMPIRE HUNTER D: BLOODLUST (2000) dir. Yoshiaki Kawajiri

A snippet of the new song “Alone in the Night" in which Sondre Lerche collaborated with AURORA, posted on Sondre’s instagram