Your Mental Health Is More Important Than Trying To Get All Your Desires In The Physical World.

When I look in the mirror, I can't immediately drop that it's not me, it feels so real 😭. I have desired to be my desired appearance but I realised this too. I can't change the current appearance because there is no appearance but how can I experience anything? Also how to drop the sense and feelings of I 🥲...

There is no “quick fix” it just becomes natural by observing and detaching over and over again. Look up Sunny Sharma meditations on YouTube to practice detachment from thoughts.

How to see through the illusion of memories? I can't seem to drop them

You don’t need to force them to go away, just don’t identify with them when you see them and they naturally fall away from your awareness. Identification is always a choice.

Follow your Self

Don’t rely on the teachings of others to change your life. Only you exist and only you can change your life by whatever means you see fit. All these different teachings are just pointing you back to yourself, that’s why I don’t care if I use dualistic language because I don’t follow Non Duality like the Bible I refuse to adhere to any concept 100%. I just take what I resonate with from different concepts (we live in a conceptual world it’s impossible to avoid) and leave the rest. If you don’t resonate with a teacher that doesn’t mean you’re doing something “wrong” just follow what feels right to you. In the beginning it’s easy to see seemingly enlightened people as your savior and if you just follow in their footsteps you will become enlightened too, but your idols are actually just a creation of your mind. Notice how people only put the people they don’t know on a pedestal 🤔. Okay bye 🤪✌️

Earlier I was feeling anxious while out in public and I silently asked myself “who is anxious?” and I realized no one was there to be anxious, and I felt calm. The rest of the time while I was out, the person blended into the background, it was just part of the scenery. Emotions may arise, but they are happening to no one. Events may arise, but they are happening to no one.

Your latest post was very eye-opening because since forever i have been a very possessive person with just about everything in my life: objects, people, even concepts. So to think that i own nothing and everything at the same time is very freeing but also very scary because of my extreme attachment to my things. I feel attached to my appearance, my circumstances, the stuff i own, everything. Sometimes, i catch myself wishing things were permanent and indestructible because just the thought of losing that attachment is dreadful. Now, i know thats not a me thing, i know everybody has at least a little bit of this possessiveness in them, but i really go to extremes. i have had multiple professionals tell me im way too attached and dependent on external things. And all this is to tell you that when i read your text, i really understood why im so persistent about not going within, and im very grateful that you posted it. Thank you, and sorry for rambling 😵‍💫

Omg I was just thinking of answering asks what a coincidence I finally got one! I get what you mean I used to be possessive too always trying to win people over and keep them around, desiring to be perfect physically and mentally and worrying what “other” people thought of me, which is funny now because if people are judging me it’s just them judging themselves. Don’t be hard on yourself if you still have the habit of desiring just remember separation doesn’t exist. 🫶🏼

Yes I’m also hitting myself with sticks when I play the drums 😬

So if everything is brahman, and you’re also brahman, does that mean every time you eat, you are actually just eating yourself?

✨cannibalism✨

https://www.tumblr.com/seraphic555/747563825080025088/if-you-were-asked-to-describe-just-notice-it?source=share

You answered it very well

I got we don't need to realise since we are it already so why is this illusion so indulged in this illusory searching? 🤔

And all these doubts and the questions about " ", is nothing but " " it seems so hard to drop 🥲

I know it seems like you’re struggling but that’s because you’ve probably become obsessed with trying to drop something. I had to completely stop consuming ND content for like a month to stop being obsessed. Take a break and you’ll realize that you were always at the finish line and the journey was an illusion of the mind.

https://www.tumblr.com/seraphic555/747575222187753472/is-everything-really-possible

Yeah but flying is happening? Bc I saw a blogger say that we think it’s us who’s walking and talking but walking and talking is just happening no one’s doing it

I said “I’m not a person who’s flying or not flying.” It’s Brahman experiencing Brahman. Is Brahman flying or is it just being itself? Flying is an illusion. I’m not that blogger anyway so my interpretations will be different.

I stepped away from tumblr for a while to really seek my Self fully and put into practice what I knew because I was tired of constantly re-identifying with the body. You can’t experience it a few times and ruminate over it 10x more than you experience. It’s only simple when you experience, NOT when you think about it. You have to experience it as many times as you need until it becomes your permanent identification instead of getting swayed by the body/mind again. So anyway I started doing guided meditations to release emotions first. Now I don’t really feel the need to do a guided meditation I can just acknowledge and release an emotion as soon as it comes up. Now I am more so focused on abiding in Self, consistently returning home, because when you return to your Self all the emotions and thoughts leave, even if just for a split second. Now when I start getting invested in storylines I’ll automatically snap out of the hypnosis and it’ll go quiet lol. And even when my mind doesn’t automatically go silent, I can just consciously observe it being noisy. It’s funny when you step back and observe, you realize the mind is like a tape recorder, just looping the same thoughts again and again, usually about the past or the future. When you realize the thoughts are just an observation and you are the observer, it really sounds ridiculous, like a broken record. Remember the end goal is complete surrender and death of personal identity.

What do I mean when I say “illusion”?

I’m not saying you are hallucinating as if you were on drugs or you need to stop seeing things, it’s more like one of those drawings where you can see a rabbit or a duck, but in reality it’s just ink.