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Fun perk of tumblr: everytime ao3 goes down and you're like, "is that just my internet or is something wrong?" You can immediately go to the ao3 tag on tumblr to see other people screaming in agony

ok, just so we’re clear, these people need to be called out:

abusers (of any and all kinds)

pedophiles

white supremacists

aka people who are legit scumbags

these people do not need to be called out:

kids who obviously had no malicious intentions

people whose only mistake was poor word choice

people who said crappy things in the past but have clearly changed

aka people who obviously didn’t mean to hurt anyone

February 21st, - 7:00

My family finally told me what's wrong with my father. We don't know for sure but his doctor thinks it's highly possible. We don't have the date yet for his important appointment but we should get it later today. I'm scared. I need to pray tonight for him. Please keep my dad save and healthy. I can't lose him. ~Anon

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February 16th - 20:24

I flushed my razors and threw away my cigarettes. A new start, I don't think I'll be needing them any more anyways. ^^ ~Anon

Mon, December 5th - 18:13

It hurts you know.  Those aren’t words you’re meant to hear coming from your mother. 

“I’m tired.  I’m giving up.”

Knowing she is talking about giving up on her family.

“It’s the same thing over and over.  I’m not doing anything with my life and I can’t stand it.”

It’s to much for her.  She can’t handle taking me to school anymore.  She can’t handle any of this.  I’m putting to much on her back right now.

“I’m the same way mom, I can’t even shower without thinking about hurting myself.”

My sister is not allowed to think like that.  She’s C.R.M.  shes not allowed.

Her poor son isn’t happy anymore.  He’s only 9 and he’s so depressed. 

My dad is being over worked.  I know he’s thinking about leaving.  We’ve talked it through.  He misses his old house, I can’t say I don’t agree.

My sisters life is falling apart.  She’s been crying every night.  She’s been struggling to keep going.

it sounds bad right now but it was just as bad 3 months ago before any of these problems.  Every time we fix our problems more ones come around.

I’m so tired of everything.  I’ve hurt myself again.  I never really stopped but I went awhile without the thought of a blade and when it came back to mind I always found a way to stop myself.  Yet this time I didn’t.  I am getting so bad i’m cutting with everyone still awake because I’m dying for a release.

I’m having issues with food, but its okay.  So is everyone else in my house.  My sister hasn't eaten in a week other than half a sandwich.  shes so skinny she can fit into my jeans.  I think shes anorexic with the way she talks.  My mom says shes not hungry but she hasn’t eaten in three days.  for the last two days my sisters son hasn't touched any food and on his birthday Friday he would even touch his cake.  my dad is the only one eating and hes working so much he doesn't have time very often to even make himself food, so some nights he skips dinner.

My sister is angry.  She yells a lot and gets med to easily,  My mom does too.  I can tell my dad is done with it.  He gives me that look that says hes tired of it.  I know hes on edge.

I’ve started smoking again.  K.R.  got me some cigarettes from some kids at school.  I have about five left before my pack is empty.  I’m going to steal some from my sister. 

I have to share my room now.  My sister is sharing with me.  My moms getting rid of half my stuff and we are buying a bunk-bed.  I need to clear a lot of room for that though so im getting rid of my desk, posters, fairy lights, TV, and other things. 

I’m starting to think it’s just to hard to keep going.  What’s the point? my own mom gave up can’t I? 

I know I said I wouldn’t, but I’m still thinking of moving schools.  It’s to hard on my mom to keep doing all this.  Plus my grades are so bad, I’m not doing any better.

I  missed school again today,  I can’t go back.  There isn’t anything there for me.

There isn’t anything in this world left for me.

~Anon

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Mon, Nov 28th - 04:54

Hello, I'm back again. Alot has been happening lately and I've been terrible at keeping my blog up to date to the point it's so out of place and hard to read. Sorry about that. First things first. I hope everyone had a good thanksgiving, and if your not from the us then I hope your Thursday was good. It's now the time of the year we all freak out because it's Christmas time. I won't lie, I'm happy too. Christmas can be very fun if you spend it with the right people. Secoundly, I got to see my grandma again. I went to her house Thursday on thanksgiving and spent it there. If you don't know about my grandma she's been having some problems lately with her heart and memory. When I went to see her I was scared she wouldn't remember me. Luckly she did, but it was hard to talk to her. She kept forgetting everything and repeating herself. I know it's because she's getting older, I mean the woman is 88 years old, but it's just not what I'm used to. I still live her and everything though, she's still grandma. Next, I got to see my friend D.R. again for the first time in literally 3 months. I missed him and he got to spend the night for two nights. I was so happy to have him over. Also, I broke up with my boyfriend. I don't do good in relationships and I don't like them. I just never really have. Honestly, love isn't for me. I don't know why. And lastly, I've been down again lately. It's busy here at home. My sister lives with us now, and my parents are having some issues. I have been stuggling slightly more than usual because of these things and also because of my mind has just been messy. I've been thinking some completely not positive things and I need to clean up my mind alot. Thank you if you've actually read this far. I'll try to be positive in my next post. I hate being so grim, it doesn't help. I feel the need to get this all out somehow though and this blog is always here so I've opened up alot about my problems on here and I know tumblr isn't a place to post sad stuff because I'll probably trigger someone else. I really don't mean too, I just need to vent somehow. Anyways, I gotta blast. ~Anon