15.04.2025 (tue)

15.03.2025

Didn't do much today— just attended my live class on which I have yet to make notes on. Will probably do stuff for school if I have any left b4 I head to bed . Just so tired lol :(

Anyways,

MWAAA

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27.04.2025 (sun)

Day (18/30)

Ypt hrs ≈ 2:10 hrs

Ecology lec 1 + studied it

Math hw

Kinda read through phy notes for tmrw ??

Today was a pretty meh day study-wise. Went out on a scooter ride with my cousin and it was so much fun—took a bunch of pics too. Later, when I tried to sit down and study Physics, I could feel an incoming mental breakdown, so I called it quits. Probably not the best idea, but I was seriously exhausted at that point.

I’m pretty unprepared for my Physics test and there are so many tests piling up—it’s getting overwhelming. Planning to mentally map out this week until I calm down a bit.

Toodles ~~

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May 2 & 3

friday

woke up at 11, got ready, went out for lunch and ended up roaming around a bit—reached home kinda late

saturday

spent the day at a water park and it was SO much fun. 10/10 would do again =D

Update : Not done with stuff but f it I'm heading to bed early 🤡

11.03.2025 (Tues)

thought today was monday wth

Went to bed at 2 AM today and still couldn’t finish my chem notes or review the bio lecture (ughhhhh). Also ended up sleeping instead of studying before school, so that’s fun.

Anyways, here’s my to-do list for the day: bet ya can't tell how much I love to-do lists

Rev bio lec

Finish up chem notes (finally) and study it.

Watch lec 2

Live class

Math,chem,eng,bio hw

Manifesting productivity... or at least, survival.

Hope y'all have an amazing day ahead !

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Didn’t study lec 4 and couldn’t complete todays bio lec notes cuz i wanted to get at least 6 hours of sleep tonight (its 12:30 rn and i gt wake up around 6:30 ish). I was pretty sleepy around 7-8 but eating dinner helped me stay awake ?? I was planning on sleeping early lol Like, the math ain’t mathin 🤔

Gn babes <33

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24.03.2025 (mon)

Hey chattt ;)

The plan for today :

Rev bio lec 1 n 2 + reader

Live lec

Chem lec 4 + notes

Live lec notes + complete Z notes

Complete phy notes cuz I forgot my nb 2 days in a row fml

complete eng notes

Lec 5 ? a lil ambitious but—

Might nap after revising bio till my live lec. If I can, I’ll try not to so I can sleep early—idk. Woke up at 6:30 with ≈4 hours of sleep, but I was weirdly awake and full of energy (which apparently annoyed my friends who got more sleep lol).

Whatever routine I have going rn is working, but idk if I can keep this up when I go back to waking up at 5 AM for school (bus comes at 5:40, ugh). I kinda wanted to make 4 AM wake-ups + 10 PM bedtime a habit, but I legit haven’t followed it for even a day—

Anyways, hope y’all have an amazing day ahead !

MWAHH

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Staying consistent even when it’s not immediately rewarding is where the shift happens.

Update: Took a nap right after my last post because I was dead tired and thought it’d help me stay up later. Well... that nap turned into 3 hours, and then I went straight into my favorite hobby: procrastination. Actually started studying around 10:45 PM and only managed to touch chem.

Tried revising today’s numericals, which should’ve taken me 30 minutes tops, but it ended up taking almost an hour because I was struggling with basic multiplication (and also why are so many decimal shits). Like, why am I like this? F you, CBSE, for not letting us use calculators—but it’s not like I can use them in entrance exams either, so guess I’m stuck suffering in silence.

Honestly, I’m so mad at myself, but I’m too tired to even spiral into a self-hate session or breakdown. I’m just here, floating through my regrets. Thinking I’ll try to squeeze in physics during the bus ride tomorrow because time? what dat ?

The OG plan was to finish Lec 2 & 3 today, do Lec 4 after school tomorrow, and attend Lec 5 live.

Reality check? I’ll just do Chem Lectures 1-3 tomorrow and 4-6 on Friday because right now I’m tired down to my soul. Like, this is exhaustion on another level. fml I’m crashing for the night.

Let’s hope tomorrow-me has her life together *sigh*

GNNNNN

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Study time ~ 0:55 hr

12.03.2025 (wed)

Just got back from school and honestly, today’s been lowkey trash. Couldn’t focus at all and zoned out for the entirety of physics—like, my brain just went NOPE. So now I have to relearn everything from scratch 😭. I’ve been trying so hard to be consistent, but it’s days like these that really test me. So yeah, gonna lock in and grind to make up for it.

Today’s To-Do List (aka the battle plan):

Chem - Revise numericals.

Chem - Study Lec 1 (it’s been haunting my to-do list for a week now) + Lec 2 & 3 (I’m not going to bed until these are DONE.)

Phy - Relearn today’s class (because clearly my brain took a day off.)

It’s me vs. my procrastination today, and I’m NOT losing.

Toodles ~~

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14.04.2025 (mon)

(2 of my many many handwritings lmfao)

day (5/30) of DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hours ≈ 4 hrs

💤 ≈ 5 hrs + 20 min power nap otbrh 💤

The eng test went pretty okay :)

Studied for my chem test

Completed random notes of eng & phy

Math hw

Phy lec 1

Would've liked to do one more but I was sleepy and wanted to get at least 6 hrs of sleep (per night is the goal lmfao). My head kinda hurts too hehe =D

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Also, my watch which I'm very emotionally attached to kinda broke today— like the thingy that holds the straps ?? Anyways I'm so heart broken cuz I got it for VERY cheap and it lasted like 3 yrs or smn atp 😭 I'm still wearing gonna wear but 😢

05.05.2025 (mon)

Day (26/30) DOP COLLAB CHALLENGE

Ypt hrs ≈ 2:10 hrs

💤 5:30 hrs + 20-30 min nap 💤

Lec 4 & half of lec 5 of org. and ppn.

Not the most productive day but at least I came up with a study plan b4 I could spiral again lol. Gt cram my speech and read through topics in bio I have a test on tmrw morning as usual :P

BYEEE

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I want to be completely honest.

There are going to be people who are better than you.

There will be times when someone is going to get ahead of you

And there will be times when you worked hard, and you didn't achieve it.

And yes, it is fine. Completely fine. You are allowed to be disappointed. You are allowed to be sad. And you are allowed to get pissed.

It's the brutal truth that you may not get what you want all the time. And you should learn to be okay with that.