Election Night Really Feels Like A Shitty, Stressful Adult Version Of Christmas Eve. Gathering With Family

My thoughts exactly.

I swear, this feels straight out of a hurt/comfort/angst/whump fic.

why is Winston torture scene so oddly intimate?

Literally 1984

”pdf file” “unalived” “grape” “corn” what if i killed myself right here right now

rb if you’ve heard of/read watership down im trying to see something. it was such a big part of my childhood and still lives in my heart

people will clown on me for this because he killed two people but I just love how sweet Rodya is. He is so cruel and mean and uncouth a lot or even most of the time, but then he does things like constantly thoughtlessly give the last of his money away to anyone who needs it more than him, cries when he’s in his psychotic episode and can’t remember who Razumikhin is, has that very sweet and tender moment with Polenka, begs the police to get a doctor for Marmeladov and says he’ll pay for it despite having nothing at all himself. At the same time he is capable of terrible things and is often terrible specifically to the people who love him and want to help, and oscillates wildly between the two. It’s that juxtaposition that holds so much of the interest of the narrative itself for me. A lot of people focus on how awful he is and while that is also honestly such a fun part of his character, that alone is not what makes him compelling to me. I have so much tenderness for his character despite what he’s done because he is just so mentally ill and has been through and been witness to so much hardship. He is not easy to love or understand but it’s so beautiful and sweet that Razumikhin, Sonya, his family and his other friends love him so dearly anyway. I truly think the suffering he is constantly surrounded by is the thing that has driven him to psychosis. Specifically I think of when he goes to the police station in part two and says he has been “shattered by poverty.” In these little moments of sweetness and lucidity towards others, even in the depths of his illness, we can still see the little boy in him who so desperately wanted to help that poor horse.

broo this fucking sucks i'm gonna [remembers suicide jokes are bad for my mental health] murder an old pawnbroker with an axe, act like the most suspicious person in all of st. petersburg while wrestling with my guilty concience, confess to it all within like 72 hours, and be exiled to siberia.

"democracts always say that this election is the most important one yet" yes because we're in the flaggy bit of the history book that could either end with "end of american democracy, lead up to war world iii" or "tensions fizzle, beginning of post trump restoration" depending on how you vote. like every election since 2016 has been "the most important election yet" because trump won in 2016 and trump has made his desire to be a dictator clear.

in fact, i don't think 2008 or 2012 were given the same weight of "this is the most important election ever" because we were not living in the dangerous time of a dictator literally trying to take over the united states

Smth about Winston Smith from 1984 is so squishable. I want to hold him in my fist and squeeze really tight. I have absolutely no idea why. Is it just me?