Academic Victim Era

get out of the house. visit museums. go to open air festivals. go to concerts. meet new people in the park. use apps to meet people with common interests. try new things, try hot yoga. try pilates. try rock climbing, try a new gym, a new trainer. attend a public event, a yoga class, aerobics class, join a book club. get a professional massage, have a full day of spa activities. read a life changing book on selfcare, mental health and wellness and implement it daily. make new friends that you actually hang out with physically, frequently, that you have lunch dates with, coffee dates with, sleepovers, that you heal and laugh and grow with day by day, friends that are friends in every sense of the word. be open to opportunities every day for anything that brings you joy and sunlight and adventure. life is meant to be lived, tasted, experimented, savored to the last maddening drop. life is not a neat little checklist put away on your shelf for when you feel ready to tackle them. life is here. life is right here right now. what are you waiting for, a magical tomorrow to give you permission to live the life you want? you already have permission, all you have to do is decide it. it's in your hands. now, in 10 years, in 30 years, in 50, the choice is yours. the only thing standing in the way of that reality and the current one... is your actions.

15.05.22 // Lumen's diary

You’re responsible for your own development. You don’t have to wait until others forgive or validate you. You don’t have to hold yourself to an impossible standard to ‘prove’ that you’re a better person. All you have to do is decide that you are and back that up with actions, because what truly makes you a good person is the fact that you care about being one. Not others telling you that you are.

i love you ugliness i love you obscenity i love you monstrosity i love you decay i love you horror i love you grotesque i love you

girls be like “im fighting demons” and the demon is a degree they chose for themselves

16.11.2021

studied some english linguistics at the library and continued to read A Journal of the Plague Year by Daniel Defoe for my literature class at the coffee shop today. could've been more productive but at least i worked a bit. ended up failing my english grammar test though but i can retake it at the end of the semester so i'll have to work on what i didn't understand on the first shot to get a better grade on my next attempt.

sometimes i have to remind myself that failing a test is not the end of the world, it still feels like shit but i'll get through it and you will too! 🤎

can we collectively agree to not come study as a couple at the library? or at the very least not to be all over each other snuggling and talking and kissing (which by definition implies to take your mask off) if you are a couple??? some of us want to be able to study without having to bear with your disgusting pda and your giggles.

thx for coming to my tedtalk.

my heart is a ripe fruit rotting in my chest

you don’t need perfect conditions to start. you just need to start. five minutes of focus is better than waiting for motivation to come.

she would actually end up taking the exam not the next semester but during the summer and flunking that goddamn exam but at least she passed and got it over with. (spelling to sound is my nemesis)

chaotic academia is deciding to not pass my english spelling to sound rules exam two days before the due date because I've been studying this shit for a week and a half now and still don't understand shit.