“Enemies Such As Greed And Hate Lack Hands And Feet And Other Limbs. They Are Not Brave, Nor Are They

Vardges Petrosyan, Years Lived and Unlived (translated by metamorphesque)

main character energy, but from a dostoevsky novel.

art will save you, being unreasonably passionate about something niche will save you, letting past sources of joy show you the way back to yourself will save you, earnestness over composure will save you, the natural world will save you, caring for something bigger than yourself will save you, daring to be seen will save you, kindness not as a whim but a principle will save you, appreciation as a practice will save you, daring to try something new will save you, grounding will save you, love will save you, one good nights sleep will save you

dostoyevsky kinda ate with “your worst sin is that you have destroyed and betrayed yourself for nothing.”

― Anne Carson, Plainwater: Essays and Poetry

i fear i may have been built from special pieces i have learned how to unscrew and i will always reassemble to fit perfectly for you or anybody who decides that i’m of use

This too shall pass but like holy fuck

“We are all unused to living, we are all crippled, each one of us more or less. We are so unused to it that we straight away feel some kind of loathing towards real ‘lively life’ and so we cannot stand it when we are reminded of it. We have indeed reached such a point that we almost consider real ‘lively life’ to be labour, almost like service, and we are all agreed among ourselves that it is better left in books.”

— Fyodor Dostoyevsky, Notes from Underground