Mom Won’t Let Me Watch Conclave Again (for The Third Time Today) ((autism)) So We’re Watching The

I'm writing that story where Spock has to struggle with a devastating and overwhelming crush on McCoy, while his childhood bullies are on the ship and it's so much fun. The characterisations I've come up with for the bullies kind of rule ngl and like not to brag but they make sense as bullies. Especially cos a feature of it is that McCoy doesn't clock the bullying so Spock is devastated. But like, they're interesting and friendly and more affable than Spock and all their bullying is very Vulcan so a human wouldn't notice it.

Like, one of them doesn't say the call and response for live long and prosper correctly which is super rude of him but what he says is also polite so the humans in the room don't clock it but Spock is just writhing in discomfort from the insult.

This is great and I think I should bully my characters more

And I got a great late reveal idea for one of them that's not a twist exactly but is a cool canon tie in that I'm really looking forward to. And it makes her mindless dislike of Spock make sense in the world, even tho it's obviously not reasonable. At least she's consistent lol

Spock's gonna have a terrible time in this story. McCoys already upset with him before the Vulcan bullies board.

I'm used to writing whump where it's physical injury, but emotional injury is a lot of fun. And I don't have to research healing times or allow for a character being a medical doctor! I can just keep piling the next thing on til he cracks!

Godspeed, Captain.

Chapter 8 is officially out!!!

No pope yet but there will be another chapter tonight 🙏🙏

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65218507

If you like Vincent angst,, may I present my Vincent POV fic?

Focuses on how his time in war zones impacted him, with undiagnosed PTSD, food issues and general angst.

Also he’s in love with Thomas🙏

https://archiveofourown.org/works/65218507

"He didn’t feel like he fit in with the polished marble buildings, and despite not having access to a mirror, he could guess that his dirty clothes, bloodstained shoes and unwashed hair didn’t quite seem fitting of a cardinal."

or

Vincent arrives at the Vatican sleep deprived, hungry, and with a feeling of wrongness. He doesn't realise how used he has become to war.

I know everyone's disappointed about an American Pope but I think it was a tactical choice. It makes it easier to return to the US in order to complete his first mission as Pope:

To avenge Pope Francis and take out JD Vance

"Did Christ, a carpenter's son, smell the wood of the cross and think of home?"

Yes, and Vincent hears a tourist speaking Pashto, and thinks of home-

and lights a candle to pray when the power goes out, and thinks of home-

and is served Kabuli Palau by a sister who thought he might appreciate a familiar meal, and thinks of home-

and he can never go there again. just FYI!!

I HAVE CONCLAVE MOVIE THOUGHTS

so, unlike every single other cardinal, when Vincent arrives, he’s dressed simply. He’s not wearing those freaky church garments, just jeans and a shirt and jacket. Right from the get go, his costume is telling us what he will say later ‘the church is not tradition, the church is what we do next.’ Vincent only cares about whether he can help people through his faith, and is uninterested in all the other parts of being a cardinal. Right before his announcement as pope, we see him dressed simply again- even after gaining the highest post possible in the Roman Catholic Church, Vincent’s priorities haven’t changed. They never will.

But he’s not the ONLY cardinal we see wearing normal clothing…because we also see Lawrence wearing normal clothes. In his case tho, it’s in private, and it only happens once. It’s also shown during a scene where Lawrence is frustrated with the curio and with his managerial duties. Lawrence is also, in some ways, only concerned with his moral duty- but unlike Vincent, for Lawrence his moral compulsions also include maintaining the cardinals and the sanctity of the church. And when he’s frustrated and disillusioned with this work…we see him outside his cardinal garments.

Either way. The only cardinals we ever see outside that robe and cross- are the only ones in that council with integrity and a drive to do what’s right before doing what’s right for the church. Ain’t that something.

I will have you know that I am rotating your conclave fic in my mind 24/7 and i'm obsessed with the way you write characters and use symbolism. it's all very tasty and hurts extremely nicely. vincent is a delight and i want to give him a good nap and a nice meal and a kiss from his crush that doesn't occur in an active trauma dream.

i am also here to do my sacred duty and let you know that if you want another piece of media with heavily autism-coded characters who are unreliable narrators and fantastic people with immense trauma and unhinged types of fealty, i highly recommend The Hands of the Emperor by Victoria Goddard.

Ooooh my god I cannot even explain how this makes me feel,, I’m genuinely so thankful that people are enjoying my work! I screenshot every comment I get and send some to my friends wondering how it’s possible that people are So kind!

I definitely plan to let Vincent have a nice nap and a warm meal at some point, God knows he needs it (and God does in fact KEEP TELLING HIM that)!

Thank you so much for your kind words and for the recommendation, I will definitely check it out once I’m a bit less hyperfixated on conclave! I’m always looking for new books to read!

Once again, you can’t imagine how happy this message made me (I dropped my phone to happy stim by flapping my hands from joy) Have the best day anon ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️