*looks Around For Cameras* You Need To Stop Spying On Me

i'm more like ohhh strange meme pics to send my non existent friends like these:

obsessed with the concept of pinterest. like oooooh pretty pictures let me sort you into little boxes and get unrealistic amounts of joy from it

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lorde lyric parallels (that i've noticed) throughout different eras:

stoned at the nail salon; solar power:

"oh, make it good"

ribs; pure heroine:

"we can talk it so good, we can make it so divine"

stoned at the nail salon; solar power:

"got a memory of waiting in your bed wearing only my earrings"

the louvre; melodrama:

"half of my wardrobe is on your bedroom floor"

california; solar power:

"oh, the hotels and the jets and i'd pay it all again"

still sane; pure heroine:

"i still like hotels, but i think that'll change"

mood ring; solar power:

"you can burn sage, and i'll cleanse the crystals"

royals; pure heroine:

"i've never seen a diamond in the flesh"

the path; solar power:

"now i'm alone on a windswept island"

royals; pure heroine:

"jet planes, islands, tigers on a gold leash"

writer in the dark; melodrama:

"i am my mother's child, i'll love you 'til my breathing stops"

love club; pure heroine:

"my mother's love is choking me"

writer in the dark; melodrama:

"i'll let the seasons change my mind"

the path; solar power:

"caught in the complex divorce of the seasons"

sober II (melodrama); melodrama:

"you asked if i was feeling it, i'm physco high"

mood ring; solar power:

"we can get high, but only if the wind blows"

liability; melodrama:

"they're gonna watch me disappear into the sun"

the path; solar power:

"i just hope the sun will show us the path"

green light; melodrama:

"i'm waiting for it, that green light, i want it"

solar power; solar power:

"acid green, aquamarine"

big star; solar power:

"but every perfect summer's gotta say goodnight"

hard feelings/loveless; melodrama

"it's time to let go of this endless summer afternoon"

im experiencing jealousy but the kind where im not even sure if its actually jealousy. i dont know whether its longing for how things used to be, or being happy that they've changed. ive spent so long convincing myself to consider them a stranger with who i shared some memories.

so why do i feel myself burning when i see pictures them with other people, why-whenever i see them having fun with other people-do i feel the need to have my friends beside me just to prove a point. i feel like such a middle schooler because opening up ig to see pictures of them at parties and stuff makes me..jealous? angry? sad? bcoz its like those pictures and captions are targeted at me. they're an indirect way of saying i moved on, and im over u. so why am i still not?

why do i feel the need to go to the mall, buy clothes i shouldn't be wearing and take pictures with guys i shouldnt be hanging around with? i thank well, thats exactly what she's doing, i'll just move it up a notch. but despite it all, im still thinking about her. whether its jealousy, anger or sadness-maybe all at once-it's all because of her. and i hate her. but i feel like such a goddamn whiny child. i cant help it.

are you actually reading for fun or is it to distract your mind from the current state your life is in and to keep you in a blissful fantasy where all the monsters could be slayed and problems could be solved with simply the turn of a page?

"I've been having a hard time adjusting I had the shiniest wheels, now they're rusting"

"They told me all of my cages were mental So I got wasted like all my potential"

"I was so ahead of the curve, the curve became a sphere Fell behind all my classmates and I ended up here"

this song perfectly sums up what im feeling atm

ⓘ this user wants to scream fuck the patriarchy

hot bitches read depressing romance books & listen to taylor swift

when olivia said “kinda wanna throw my phone across the room, cause all i see are girls too good to be true with paper white teeth and perfect bodies, wish i didn't care”

i thought “kinda wanna throw my book across the room, cause all i see are types to hard to be learnt with F, B and sin and electrical tubes, wish i didn't live”

No offense but the internet gives you the most wrong and fucked up idea of helping people because people get mad if you don't care about disasters happening in 72 countries, meanwhile the people in real life that are doing the most good picked one VERY SPECIFIC thing to care about and care about it REALLY HARD