Haikyuu Character Sugawara As Your Boyfriend

I’m watching My Demon for the plot

The plot

How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

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Now that we have identified his 2 personalities let's go back a to where all the trouble started.

Kim being surprised that an experienced bodyguard like Big was replaced with a newbie due to his injury. The more he learnt about the preferential treatment Prosche received from both Kinn & Korn, he immediately smelled something fishy. So he decides to do the background check Korn deliberately didn't.

When he discovers Porchay is Porsche's brother he doesn't hesitate to take advantage of his fanboy. He never intended to be cruel, he considered it an exchange for the time he would invest in tutoring.

Disclosing that Kim & WIK are 2 sides of the same coin was a calculated move. He knew that the Kittisawads & Theerapanyakuls' fates would only get more intertwined in future. (Also notice how Kim mentions "sad love song" to Big in their conversation. Could that mean he knew about Big's feelings for Kinn without anyone telling?) However, he is not subtle in ways (lucky Kim that Porchay was too näive to suspect) possibly due to lack of social engagement.

Kim's only miscalculation was his budding feelings for Porchay. He is barely in touch with his feelings to be able to do something before it's too late. We see Kimhan smiling only when he discovers Chay fanboying over him (the texts & his room wall) or when Chay is singing. So it is not Kim, but WIK the artist & tutor falling for Porchay.

So in essence, Kim asked him to write a song on Porsche but WIK fell in love with the song. WIK asked him to write a love song & WIK fell in love with Chay.

Kimhan doesn't even realize his feelings until he can't help but smile at the song dedicated for him. (Let's just take a moment to appreciate it 🤭)

He acknowledges his feelings for the first time when the thought of Porchay clears his creative block. After all, for an artist, you know you're in love when they become your muse.

He is well aware that he has to stop seeing Porchay so that both their feelings don't get hurt. But WIK takes over Kim when Porchay shyly confesses. (Seriously, as if he wasn't cute enough already - Porchay reveals he promised God he would risk confessing to his celebrity crush. How could someone NOT melt at that innocence)

For the first time in the series we see Kim follow his heart over his head like most humans. Considering he let himself feel happy despite his overly practical self. It goes a long way to highlight the intensity of his feelings.

Like a well crafted character his personality doesn't change overnight. His original habits resurface very soon.

He stares at his own hand in happiness mingled with guilt. Yes he would love to vow to protect Porchay's innocent sunshine smile & teenage dreams. Forever. But he hates himself. Because he can't. Nothing can help him escape his reality. He's a Theerapanyakul. He's a threat to anyone he loves. He's not allowed to love.

He feels unworthy of someone who says "I love you" without expecting anything in return. He hates himself for letting himself be happy & forget all this worries. He would have left Porchay with a note that day if not for the mishap.

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How Kim & WIK were 2 different people until Porchay came along.

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No thanks to Tawan for kidnapping Chay to use him as a pawn, it does in a way solidify the fact Kim hasn't & will probably never love a person like he loved Porchay. (And rightfully so)

He now sees no point in saving Porcahy from himself. (Considering Porchay's own elder brother is now Kinn's boyfriend so he's now inevitably linked to the major family & at risk for the rest of his life) This was exactly the situation he was trying to avoid in the first place. But now, it still occurred for different reasons. So he decides to do the next best thing. Follow his heart & fight for his love.

Note how Kim risks coming himself? Despite having professionals who could have done the job for him? It's not only his life that's in danger. He's risking Chay discovering his lies. He's going back to the life he tried so hard to avoid.

Kinn doesn't hesitate to shoot at Vegas, his own cousin. He came with one clear objective. Rescue the love of his life & kill everyone involved in harming him.

Kim is successful in not only saving Porchay but also in protecting his identity from him. He seems to hate confrontation & would rather ghost than dump somebody (which frankly makes him a big jerk but it's a show about criminals so)

Once Kim learns some ugly truth (which I think hasn't been completely disclosed as of ep12) & the fact that Porchay is now living in the main house; he is assured Porchay is going to be safe from physical harm. So he chooses to focus on his plan. He's still a little gentle in turning down when he could've been snarky & ended it sooner. But he's still a jerk :))

What happens next is interesting. While Porchay starts losing his innocence owing to heartbreak (He's Good boy gone bad y'all!!! Any MOAs in the house?!!) Kim stops separating WIK from himself.

It's like they're apart, but they're still growing together. Porchay is learning that love is not just roses but also the thorns while Kim is realising the rose's beauty & fragrance is worth the blood & thorns.

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Thinking about how this poem referenced in Hometown Cha Cha Cha perfectly suits KimChay.💔 Quite literally 😔 considering their interactions happen near entrances 🥺 not to mention they were each other's muse 😭😭😭😭

"The Gatekeeper" by Kim Haeng Soon (tr. David Bowles)

It’s my job to say, “You can’t do that here.”

It’s my job to deny your objective.

It’s my job to deny you the next day, too.

It’s my job to wait for you the following day to deny you again.

It’s my job to wait for you the day after that and fall in love with you.

So it’s my job to deny my love.

“I won’t cry over my vocation,” I wrote.

But while writing in my diary,

I sometimes wept.

The sincerity of this just punched me in the gut. Dayeol is not even mad about the poor treatment he received from Taehyun.

He rather sees the boy with trust issues and just wishes that Taehyun learns to open his heart one day.

As if that isn't pure love right there. To understand and try to move on, while wishing them the best. With genuine intentions.

Dayeol had every right to be angry but he chose not to.

no one talks about how difficult it is to never settle. they just say "never settle. you are the icon. yay. slay." no. one. ever. talks about how difficult it is to decide that it is not worth it.

bcs more often than not we are not even sure if we are passing something that is the best we can get. sometimes we are not sure if we are even being reasonable when asking for more. the confusion whether we are actually not settling for less or having unrealistic expectations. the constant battle in our head between waiting and trying for better vs taking the easy way out of putting up with the first good-ish thing offered to us.

sure, one should never settle for less but no. single. person. ever. fucking. talks about how confusing it is to decide between high standards and delusion.

Vice Versa ep 9 predictions

What did you wish for? For me to be in this universe as long as possible

Puen allowed himself to fall in love because there was no paparazzi, toxic fans or any invasion of privacy in Pakorn's life unlike his own. There could be other reasons (perhaps a scandal that could negatively impact his career?) he never dated before. Being Tess & Tun is nice. They get to work & party together. They're practically inseparable most of the time.

I'd like to know Tun's life in the other universe

Talay knows the honeymoon phase will end. He is determined to go back. He is not going to be in this if temporary. He wants to see if he can maintain his relationship even after they return. They will have different jobs, schedules & unfulfilled dreams to chase once they go back. He doesn't want to be unprepared in case their relationship is unable to withstand it all.

Trust me. Your life won't be the same.

(This is very vague without context but going with the flow of this post) Talay knows it's going to be demanding & challenging. He knows being boyfriends as Tess & Tun is easier than being Talay & "Tun" aka Puen. He is still going to enjoy it while it lasts, because it's smooth sailing here. They will only be met with storms on returning.

Talay knows it might not work out. They don't have anything but memory & attachment to hold them together in the real world. Here they have work & common friends (Fuse x Aou ship yayy). Top it all there will be other external obstacles. Talay let himself go with the flow because he didn't have to proactively chase dreams as Tess. He was living the life of a spoilt brat. The Talay in the real world has his aspirations as priority. This is a bittersweet acceptance of "it was good while it lasted"

Once in your lifetime, you had me

They will return to the real world without Talay knowing who "Tun" is. They will miss each other. Talay will try to compensate for a lingering presence. An echo. He has shared songs, tastes & smells to keep him company. Puen on the other hand knows EXACTLY who he is looking for in this world. But how will he look for him? For someone who fell in love with his clingy vulnerable ass when he himself didn't show enough self love. He was too scared to accept his identity to a romantic partner, the most intimate relationship of his life. He was scared his identity will ruin things. No one can ever love him like that. Talay loved him like the sea (his name lol) . Fierce like the tides yet calming like their sound.

They will never open their heart again. This time, because it has no room for anyone else. They will try to live with memories, fail to move on, and desperately look for each other once the yearning gets unbearable.

Episode 11 | “Have you ever thought that I might be worried? Please understand how worried I am of you.”

A round of applause for Fort please, please. This is probably the first moment that I really felt heartbroken for Prapai. He’s so goddamn worried. He still doesn’t know fully what happened to Sky, so all his assumptions are based purely on his own imagination. He was worried, but also immensely hurt, but he also cares too much about Sky to make him feel guilty about it. So you can see how conflicted he is in this moment, trying to reign in his emotions. He’s angry out of concern, but he doesn’t want to take it out on Sky in the slightest.

Not to sound nihilistic, but I feel like the best works of fiction with kid protagonists are almost always the ones with a key understanding of how strange, helpless and even kind of crushing childhood can really be, not the ones that see those years as pure innocence and nothing else.

If you want to leave, you know what to give me// Whatever you want, take it

Sky & Prapai (love in the air, pilot x official trailer)

You know what? If you want to leave, you know what you need to give?// Whatever you want, take it.