I did not sleep too well last night but that's to be expected, since I slept in suuuuuper late yesterday. Tomorrow is my thyroid biopsy, which I'm looking forward to. Want to know for sure that this isn't cancer (all of my symptoms line up with Hashimoto's, not cancer). I have an appointment with my PCP at the end of the month so I'm trying to remain positive.
I just want a fucking diagnosis, man.
Monument Valley
the epic highs and tragic lows of literally just being in my head on a perfectly normal day
firm believe that not everything happens for a reason, sometimes things are just cruel. and they shouldn’t have happened and it’s not supposed to be a lesson because we never deserved such thing.
I think we’re all so brave for making it through every day
godddddddd I'm so done with today. I'm so exhausted. So ready to go home. UGHHHHHHHH I'd give anything to have a normal level of stamina again
Video captions: And stop trying to show your ex what they missed out on! Stop trying to teach your family a lesson for not believing in you! Stop trying to shit on your haters! Do it for you! Do it because you deserve it! Do it for YOU! Water your dreams with love! Don’t put no hate and resentment, and try to — “oh Imma fucking show them, Imma show” — FUCK THEM! Fuck them, do it for you! They don’t matter! They NEVER mattered.
I think I could sleep for a month straight at this point.
I'm so exhausted. I took sick leave yesterday and I thought I was better but goddamn. Every time I think I'm getting used to my level of fatigue it changes. I just want to be able to get through a day without feeling like I'm dying. I suppose on the bright side my joints aren't as sore today, so that's something.
I just fucking wish that I could work from home without an ADA request. I'm the only person in office full-time, which wouldn't be an issue if I didn't have mysterious chronic illness b.s. affecting me on a daily basis. I've genuinely never taken this much time off of work at any job before this one.
Sunset to sunrise...
another solo trip to Joshua Tree is calling me.
ohhhh I get it now. I'm meant to subvert outdated/useless societal standards with my own flavor and prioritize growth and contentment.
a lump sum of money is on the way to you