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I know I've been pretty inactive (that should change in about a month or so) but just-

Thank you guys so much

What should I do in celebration? (If anything)

I really really appreciate all the support and patience

sometimes a family can be an old man with a shady past and a weird kid that he just found

Woah!! You deserve every follower and more, your art is so amazing!!

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Raffle when we hit 2500 guys =v=b

Thank you so much for all your support over the three-ish years I’ve had this blog!

the suffering never ends

Reblog if it is okay for people to randomly pop into your ask with questions about your fanfic(s)

If you’re ever worried about whether your writing is too self indulgent, I just want you to remember that Sharknado had 5 sequels. I’m only partway through watching Sharknado 6: It’s About Time, but already they’ve traveled through time and ridden a pteronadon into a Sharknado so they could use the magic teleportation portal inside of it to travel forward in time to King Arthur’s time, where they are currently battling a Sharknado full of fire-breathing dragon sharks with Excalibur, which is a chainsaw sword that calls lightning. You’re fine. In fact, be a little more self indulgent if anything, because I am having a BLAST watching this specifically because I can see how much fun the writers were having.

Nagito and Mikan with a depressed s/o

Word count: 907

Authors notes: small content/trigger warning for mentions of suggesting (non-specific) medications in both. I do hope you enjoy!

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Nagito:

The days just blended together, night and day full of wishing you could do nothing but sleep.

Of course Nagito noticed very quickly that you were staying in bed longer each day. 

He also noticed your lack of  energy, regardless of how much you slept the night before

I personally believe that Nagito is also depressed but hides it fairly well, aside from his self-deprecation

He may also feel fairly hopeless (I feel like that’s the reason he looks so hard for hope everywhere around him, so maybe he’ll start feeling more hopeful and feel better-) but you’re important to him

He doesn’t want you to also go through that

He’d be conflicted between making you get out of bed, or letting you stay in bed for longer

He’d settle for having you get up, because he knows that laying in bed won’t make you feel better, you’re just more comfortable

“Love, it’s time to get up..”

“..I’m awake.” 

“Can you at least stand up and give me a hug?”

He knows you’d stand up to cuddle him, which he hopes is enough to make you feel even a little bit better

But if you feel bad enough, he wouldn’t hesitate to get you a good therapist

Only if you’re comfortable talking to one, that is

He doesn’t want to force you, but he’s got plenty of money so he doesn’t mind paying high prices for the best in the business if it means his partner can feel better about themselves

At the very least, he would remind you that you can always talk to him about anything

He also tries to tell you how much you mean to him and how much he loves you so you know that he cares about you

If he’s taking any medications for depression, he’d offer them to you, if you’re willing to take them

Like with his therapy offer, he doesn’t want to force you so if you tell him you don’t want to take meds, he’d completely drop the suggestion

If you *do* take the offer, however, he’d make sure to set reminders and get you a glass of water so you don’t forget to take them

If you’re feeling up for it, he’d take you on walks to  give you some sunshine and hopefully serotonin from the fresh air

If you were less energetic, but still wanted fresh air, he’d take you for a drive with the windows down

On really bad days, he’ll do his best to make you feel better, but will also give you alone time if that’s what you need

He still brings you water and food throughout the day, because he knows you will probably neglect those necessities, even if you want to be alone

At night he makes sure to hold you tight so you know he’ll do his very best to keep you safe from every- and any -thing, including your own mind

Overall, he would do anything to help you feel better

Mikan: 

You don’t want to worry her, but you’ve been feeling pretty down lately

She would also notice pretty quickly.

She’d see that you’ve been taking care of yourself less and that you don’t seem to be as upbeat as usual

Because of her medical knowledge, she would try to suggest medication, and would even give you a breakdown of how the meds work and how each one helps with different things

If you deny medicine, she would heavily suggest a therapist, instead

Honestly, she wouldn’t want you to know, but she cried when she found out that you were depressed

She often suggests you two should go out to get the mail or water the few plants outside just so you can both get a bit of vitamin d, without you having to overwork yourself to do so

If you asked her to do anything, she’d do it if it makes you happier; even if it’s just for a minute

She would take you to go see friends whenever you feel up for it, because she knows the social interaction might boost your serotonin levels

“Hey S/o, I know you said you have more energy today, would you, maybe... Want to hang out with Chiaki and I today?”

“Yeah. I guess we could do that. Chiaki’s pretty calm, usually.”

She would try to buy you small things like a few more plants to take care of, just so you don’t get bed sores from laying in bed all day 

(On a side note, please tell her you appreciate that she’s trying to help you feel better because she really just wants to see you be okay)

Even though she isn’t a therapist, she’d try to help you work out what might be causing you to be so down; whether that be something that’s upsetting you, or just a chemical imbalance, and do what she can to help accordingly

She’d make sure to remind you to take care of yourself and to remember how much she loves and cares about you

She would also hug you, sit on your bed and just rub your back on really tough days, letting you cry on her shoulder and vent it all out

And afterwards, she would always have a glass of water for you so your throat doesn’t hurt

She’d also let you cuddle with her for a bit, and maybe even take a nap together, afterwards

REBLOG IF ITS OKAY TO TALK TO YOU.

Please.

Some might say it's foreshadowing, I say it's the fact that he needs validation and needs to feel seen so he drops so many 'hints' about his life.

Saeyoung:

I’m so mysterious nobody knows anything about me

Also saeyoung:

literally has a username titled “Hacker God”

It is a known fact by the entirety of the RFA that he hacks shit for a living when he could easily pretend he has a regular (((legal))) IT job but noooo

Claims everything to do w his job is a secret but will constantly drop hints about how dangerous it is and will even go into story tangents about his various adventures whenever he feels like it

Talks about a hacker group that constantly chases him, making it very clear that he does ILLEGAL SHIT

Hell even invites them to the party

Openly only uses cash

Speaking of cash, makes a shitton of it somehow

Again, he openly admits he’s a hacker!!! Hackers don’t do that!!! They say they’re a techie for some random firm, or something else entirely!!!! They’re not this open!!! If saeyoung were really so secretive, only V would know mfs a hacker and everyone else would think he works at some start up or something

Makes it very clear hes not in a normal work environment? Pls it screams “illegal secret agency” omg

Admitted to running away from home and having a brother the moment someone asked him

Will tell you his thinly veiled allegorical dreams about his origin story whenever he feels like it (mother cat and brother cat dream, the pirate ship and planet one, etc.)

“Why didn’t you feed us, mother cat? Oh well, if it weren’t for that, I wouldn’t have gone on so many adventures” pls

After playing all the routes leading up to his, the only surprise in his backstory would probably be the prime minister thing and his name tbh

On November 21, 2019, I had written in my diary, "I wish to glow up".

Watching girls that look like the soft winter snow falling like breadcrumbs, with faces that would put Aphrodite to shame- I wanted that; hair flowing like the quiet river when it's about to meet the sea- I wanted that. Because all my life I was taught to want that.

The magazine covers that lay around, stacked on top of each other in the drawers of my heart, had these women. The movies that I was in love with, advertisements and billboards, made me feel like I was stuck in the hour, physically so far- could never meet the bar. I saw myself as a ruin, a battlefield of scars, an abandoned city- yet filled with ghosts. A city that badly needed reconstruction.

So I took the 'before' photos because we have learned to divide life into pieces- before this and after that, as if life is big enough to be divided. And every Monday I said to myself, now is when you begin, start now. But I could never be like those girls- girls that feel like the morning dew, like sunshine breaking through the forest, those girls that fall like the soft winter snow. I was still the city, the ghost town that badly needed reconstruction.

But, did they ever teach you about the ruins of Giza, Coloseum and Konark, how the Great Wall is falling apart but is still Great? Tell me how beautiful the river looks when it's slashing through the mountains, not caring for beauty or grace, how her conviction is what makes her beautiful. Or how Aphrodite was never really the goddess of beauty. All she believed in was love and her love is what made her beautiful.

I did not worship my city until I realised that for hundreds of years, they have been trying to find the lost cities of Atlantis and Dwarka. I finally realized that I never needed to glow up. All I needed was to love myself and my beautiful city.

And so do you.

-Ritika Jyala, transcript from Don't glow up

I had written this piece when I was 15 and my poetry style has evolved a lot since then. But it's good to pay homage to my earlier works and learn how I can grow further. Last year, I posted a short video for this poem on my channel, here's the link if you're interested.