⁺  𝐖𝐈𝐙𝐓𝐀𝐆𝐑𝐀𝐌   @jina5  .

u know that scene in jennifer's body where megan fox puts foundation all over her face in a desperate attempt to look like even a semblance of her old self whose picture she has hanging next to her mirror so she's reminded of the appearance she's lost and she gets a little unhinged during the process and just starts smearing it everywhere? womanhood

mmjunsu‌:

it was funny how things could fall into place so easily; how things could pick up from where they left off, without any thought of the circumstances prior.

(like how he’d shared an uncharacteristically emotional reunion with his sister; and then he was sitting at the kitchen island moments later, stuffing his puffy face with breakfast as she slipped back out into obscurity. don’t mention it to anyone just yet, she’d made him promise, but it seemed like the idea was already obliterated as he burned his tongue on seaweed soup).

and things went back to normal, like always.

maybe he should’ve taken it as a sign, when he walked into the apartment and was greeted with absolute silence— like the calm before the storm, it lulled him into a false sense of security as he kicked off his shoes comfortably and left a trail of his belongings on his way to the rec room.

maybe he should’ve been more cautious when he found a full, unopened bag of shrimp crackers and pepero sticks— a rarity in the kwak household— and it seemed like the stars were all aligned for him when he opened the fridge and his favourite banana milk was stocked on the top shelf.

(ahjumma must’ve gone shopping, was what he had thought, when he should’ve realized: ahjumma had bought him his last meal).

the alignment of the stars were clear now as kwak junsu took a fistful of shrimp crackers as he paused his video game, and the doorknob twisted open to reveal the grim reaper.

junsu could easily recognize the stages of kwak jina’s wrath, but the look she gave him from the threshold as he stared back at her with doe-eyes wide open and mouth agape, was positively lethal.

it felt like an eternity as he wracked his brain for the things he could’ve done wrong, a single  cracker from the bunch in his fist falling down into his lap.

(after quickly assessing and reassessing his memory, kwak junsu found that he didn’t know what it was his sister was staring at him like she would kill him for, but after sixteen years of being the youngest, he quickly moved on to his second option: run).

“noona, hold up—”

the shrimp crackers all fell to the floor as kwak junsu tossed the game controller to the side, jumping up onto the couch and stumbling as he tripped over his own lanky legs. he tripped over the edge and quickly shot back up as he hid behind the couch: his only line of defense from kwak jina’s blazing stare.

𝐓𝐑𝐔𝐓𝐇 𝐁𝐄 𝐓𝐎𝐋𝐃, jina has two different type of aggressions. it wasn’t out of norm for one of them to be tickled on the daily. that one didn’t involve the throbbing of a vein against the very shell of her forehead, it didn’t include the rush of adrenaline into her bloodstream nor did it reap of deadly intentions. 

no, that one was harmless in comparison to the aggression she felt swelling against her conscience. the one telling her that poor, innocent junsu looked scared to death. that perhaps, he didn’t deserve jina whatever jina had in store for settling whatever had set her off today.

of course her conscience was an idiot.

and jina full-heartedly believed whatever intentions she had in mind were rightfully just. especially when she was mad.

but no, jina wasn’t just mad -- she was pissed. 

she, of course, was fair in her approach. far more than she thinks she should have been. maybe she was feeling merciful, or maybe she just enjoyed the way her little brother seemed a second close to shitting himself. she didn’t enjoy scaring him, but the fear in his eyes did give her a different type of high.

for now, she feels every type of emotion welling up within her. remnants of her conversation ( if you could call a screaming match in the middle of the courtyard a ‘conversation’ ) with jihye still fresh on the skin. the tears she had cried a dried up path to where blurred eyeliner and smudged mascara lay. the obviousness of her distress a second contender for the anger that blazed in her eyes was much more prevalent, obvious in the way she stalked into the rec room; fingers pushing the door open further to make her way inside. 

“why are you backing up, junnie?” she blinks, voice a notch softer than it should be; coupled by the innocence dripping from her tone and the nickname she hardly uses, jina tilts her head. the venom in her expression says enough to warrant the activation of the fight or flight instinct, this she is sure -- watching his expression react in comparison has jina taking another step closer. “did you do something wrong?” 

she takes one more step, fingers reaching out to grab the discarded controller, tinkering with the buttons, a single glance made to the device before her glare returns to him. 

“don’t you have something to tell me?” timbre is soft, a false sense of security lulled into her voice as she takes another step closer; grasp tightening against the controller with each step before stopping just short of the couch he hid behind.

if he wanted to run, she’d give him a head start. 

REPERCUSSIONS

All texts for your new papa 👊

   ●   a morning text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  06:12  ›   오빠 i know its early but do you know where i can get jabberknoll feathers?

   ●   a angry text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:45  ›   야 !!!!! 오빠 !!!!⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:46  ›   THE LEECHES YOU GAVE ME WON’T COME OFF⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:46  ›   they fucking look like hickies !!!⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  18:50  ›   HOW AM I GOING TO EXPLAIN THIS TO 언니 ?!

   ●   a drunk text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:01  ›   오빠 you’we lik e my Dad⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:01  ›   i shfold call you 아빠⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:02  ›   아빠 !! 아빠 !! 아빠 !!

    a vague text    

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  23:59  ›   are you going to leave me too?

   ●   a worried text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  20:00  ›   오빠 i don’t know who else to turn to⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  20:07  ›   if you’re gone i don’t have anyone else⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  20:10  ›   please tell me what i did wrong

   ●   a text not meant for you     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  00:01  ›   do you ever get the feeling of disappearing?

   ●   a sassy text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  15:27  ›   for fuck’s sakes, it’s either gucci or nothing else

   ●   a long-winded confession text    ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  24:10  ›   thanks for being here 오빠

   ●   a misguided advice text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  14:49  ›   i don’t know? you should just punch them to shut them up

   ●   a  desperate text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  13:02  ›   오빠 !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  13:03  ›   PLEASE ANSWER IT’S URGENT⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  13:05  ›   DO YOU KNOW WHERE I CAN BUY THE NEW MIU MIU F/W2020 LINE

   ●   a congratulatory text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  12:05  ›   congratulations on being the only person on earth with a brain, 오빠⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  12:06  ›   everyone else are a bunch of headasses 🙄

   ●   a  text that should have never been sent  ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🔫오빠.  ›  01:39  ›   can you be my new 아빠?

BUDDING PARALLELS

similar but not quite the same, virtually so; but frankly, not enough. see also: jina and @mmyuanlan before the peace treaty, the glo-up, and insert the manic one on one competition between the two smartest girls in their cohort. CIRCA 2017

𝐀𝐓 𝐒𝐄𝐕𝐄𝐍𝐓𝐄𝐄𝐍, you want to be better than the rest. 

you read books until they’re practically imprinted in your mind. you close your eyes and your mind still runs a mile a minute, keep up, keep up -- they taunt you. you’re to be the best, not ahead of the curve, you are the curve. self-awareness is second to self-egos; pampered and bruised. tossed to wolves and torn apart all for the sake of an outstanding academic reputation. the next day, it will begin again.

it’s a repetitive cycle, the slate is never clean, it’s darkened with blood and sweat and tears jina never cries because her eyes are bloodshot and her smile is strained. but she raises her hand high, shoulder brush, maybe a little too passive-aggressively against another’s. she doesn’t spare the slightest glance backwards as her name is spoken like a spell, like it’s obvious that she would be the first to come up with the answer. 

like it’s expected, because she was kwak jina. 

this was her reputation. untainted by her mother’s crimes, unhindered by the legacies her sisters unravel: no -- kwak jina is unlike her sisters before her. she is not serious, she is not fun personified; she’s not a breath of fresh air nor does she excel at escapism. 

she’s haughty, possessive, temperamental and withers at the lack of attention. above all, she is an egoist. she wants to be the best, second in line had never been her frame of work nor would she bow down to someone like -- she blinks, smile ripe against bright teeth -- someone like yuanlan. the name rolls off her tongue as she stares at the list of students, written off by examination scores and paired like cattle for their latest DADA practicum. unlike last time, perhaps the advantage had been lost.

because right next to yuanlan’s was her own -- she bites back a groan, heavily feeling her eyes roll to the back of her head as she turns to stare the other down, arms crossed before she makes up her mind and makes the first move. “it appears,” she breathes through her nose, trying to calm the flares of annoyance already prickling at the back of her neck. “the professor thought it was wise to pair us up for today’s practicum.” her tone is flat, a declaration of if you fuck this up -- i’ll fuck you up whispered between unwritten lines. 

u alrdy kno we need all of the txts sis 💖

    ●   a morning text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:43  ›   good morning 언니💕💕💕⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:43  ›   i hope you get some sleep⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:40  ›   i’m sorry me and junsu kept you up all night⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  06:55  ›   i made sure to leave you some food on the table to eat and some advil just in case⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  07:00  ›   have a good day 언니💕

    ●   a angry text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   @mmjunsu​ IS SUCH A FUCKING IDIOT 언니 🤬😡😤😠⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   he just came and fucking blamed me for his pink uniform⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   i’d never rat you out unnie so you’re safe⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   BUT WHAT THE FUCK JUNSU IS SUCH AN ASSHOLE⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›  🤬🤬🤬⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   he’s such a little bitch ⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  18:23  ›   I HATE HIM

    ●   a drunk text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   언니 언니 언니 언니 언니 언니⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   itsj soooooooooooooooooooh muc h fun !!! drikknling⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   I FEEEEEEEL SO FREKJIKY⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   fuckk kwak ji daazm⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   fuckk @mmjihye​⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   1000000% fuckkkkfa em bijches⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   ps dnon t blame @mmchoa​

   ●   a vague text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:00  ›   why does nothing ever go right

    ●   a worried text     ━━━   ・

⁺  📞  ›  ( 28 ) OUTGOING CALL   ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  VOICEMAIL.

                                           ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  05:05  ›   i know you’re working on a very important case but you didn’t come home last night⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  05:06  ›   PLEASE CALL ME 언니⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  05:06  ›   언니, please don’t be dead in a ditch somewhere, come home

    ●   a text not meant for you     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:00  ›   @mmdaeil​ is such a loser⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:01  ›    I’M GOING TO MAKE HIM PAY FOR BREAKING UP WITH 언니⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:05  ›   how?⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:06  ›   well obviously i’m going to mass text his phone with death threats until he a ) leaves the country b ) changes his number c ) dies d ) makes a public apology because how dare he break up with THE kwak jungmi

    ●   a sassy text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:02  ›   언니, it’s 3 in the morning⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:03  ›   i know you don’t sleep at night⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:02  ›   but some of us need sleep to function as proper humans in this lifetime

    ●   a long-winded confession text    ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:49  ›   ever since jihye 언니​ left i always had a feeling you’d leave me too and i wouldn’t blame you⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:51  ›   i know it’s so hard to deal with me i fucking know⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:53  ›   you put up with so much and me and junsu don’t make it easier⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:54  ›   so thank you so much, 언니, for still being here⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:55  ›   i love you so much and i really don’t know what i’d do if you were to ever leave⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:55  ›   everything seems to fall apart when i do things but you always make it all better you do so much and all i do is create messes for you to clean up⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:57  ›   can you come to my room i don’t want to sleep alone tonight⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:59  ›   i can’t stop crying 언니 they won’t stop⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:59  ›   you’re my favorite person in the whole world 언니

    ●   a misguided advice text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  13:08  ›   i say kick him in the balls, not like he’ll be needing them in the future

    ●   a  desperate text     ━━━   ・

⁺  📞  ›  ( 10 ) OUTGOING CALL   ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  VOICEMAIL.

                                          ・    ・    ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  09:59  ›   언니 !!! 언니 !!! 언니 !!!!!⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  10:00  ›   please tell me you’re still home⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  10:03  ›   help me, everyone said they weren’t going to vote for me for class rep⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  10:05  ›   i can’t lose this too 언니

    ●   a congratulatory text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  21:59  ›   congratulations 언니  🥳⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  22:01  ›   i know it’s no witch weekly spread⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  03:02  ›   but a playboy exert is nothing to be ashamed of

    ●   a  text that should have never been sent   ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  짱미 언니💕.  ›  00:01  ›   everyone hates me, you hate me a little, too 헐

REPERCUSSIONS

an unintended consequence occurring after an event, especially an unwelcome one. see also: jina and @mmjunsu amidst one of jina’s blind rages.

𝐒𝐇𝐄’𝐒 𝐒𝐄𝐄𝐓𝐇𝐈𝐍𝐆. jina’s all but slamming doors: dressed in devastation, anger and all the things in between that make her see red; that cause shadows to carve out streaks into her cheek from the tears she had hastily brushed away. vulnerability was a skin she wore well, but hostility fit her like a glove.

wood braces against wood as she crosses each and every threshold they owned, with no sign of the person she was searching high and low for. whether he was hiding very well or he truly wasn’t here. it was like a game of hide and seek, pursuing the hidden in the depths of their condo was frustrating and the longer it took to find junsu, the angrier she grew.

jina was furious, and self-righteously so. 

if her temperament could be akin to temperature, she was sure she’d be boiling over -- red in the face, steam comically filtered from her ears. but no, this wasn’t some comical fantasy land with happy endings and shallow life stories. no, this was real life and surely, at this moment, jina could only see the negatives in it.

starting with the fact that junsu -- oh, junsu -- had committed one of the most heinous crimes against her. 

a crime he would pay for right now: the scene opens up, a door unlocked and fingers curling around the knob. her frame, while small in comparison, towers threatening in the doorway as she stares at him head-on. a glower, of the sorts, marked onto his profile; bared teeth and all, jina was pissed.

and if looks could kill, junsu would quite permanently be dead right now. 

LMFAO like an idiot ,, i made a mistake ... jina is already 19 and she should be turning 20 this year bc ... Guess who forgot the rp is in 2020 ,,,, but anyways i’ve gotten to all my msgs and i’ll be sending out messages to those who’ve liked this post !! 

hi guys !! i’m ume (21+, pst!) and this is another one of kwak jidam’s unfortunate children !!! ( i’m kidding but rly not their whole family is a lit revolt and we LOVE it ) aka kwak jina, she’s the second to last child and she’s turning 19 in lit 3 days so we going for Legal Turn ups in a quick sec! there’s more info under the cut as well as plots but pls like and i’ll definitely jump into your dms for some quick one on one 🤪🤪🤪

Keep reading

I’d still do it even if we were cursed Won’t you be my problem it’s okay with me if it hurts…

all txts that apply thank u

  ●   a morning text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  05:43  ›   죽을래?

  ●   a angry text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  20:18  ›   WHO DO YOU FUCKING THINK YOU ARE⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  20:18  ›   변태 새끼! ⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  20:18  ›   IF YOU THINK YOU CAN JUST USE MY 언니 AND GET AWAY WITH IT⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  20:18  ›   better fucking think again⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  20:18  ›   sleep with both eyes open⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  20:18  ›   개새끼야!

  ●   a drunk text     ━━━   ・  

⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  02:01  ›   yjuo betder wash your fuckinads kneees!!!!⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  02:10  ›   by tomroow THES’RE GOWNE

  ●   a text not meant for you     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  12:46  ›    i’m going to tell him to fuck off⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  12:49  ›    o ….⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  12:50  ›    fuck off 개새끼

  ●   a sassy text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  03:02  ›   nice to know your face is good for something⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  03:03  ›   target practice

  ●   a congratulatory text     ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  16:27  ›   congratulations 좆  🥳⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  16:27  ›   didn’t know how useless someone could be until i saw you at student council⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  16:27  ›   you’ll never live up to @mmhyejin 선배님 greatness

  ●   a  text that should have never been sent ━━━   ・

⁺  💬  ›  🚫대일 씹새끼🚫.  ›  23:01  ›   you didn’t deserve her at all

You are lashing out because you’re too sensitive. Yes, I was narrow-minded for a short while. Get over it.