Mikayuumouse - Mikayuumouse

YOU FOOL. AWAY WITH YOU YOU FUCKING FOOL.

the way his eyes widen... ohh waking up from amnesia beacause of remembering your own death and how you said the same shit to your mortal enemy... this is peak fucking romance

i didnt think i could get more absolutely hyperfixated on this ship.. but never mind!!! haha.... hahaa......

i have my head in my hands. geniunely CANNOT do this anymore.

i just wanna talk a lil about the first panel... god atsushi looks stunning. the lidded eyes, the smirk/small smile............. how FOND he looks, how tired.. i literally need it tattooed on my soul. he knew it was a gamble, being cut down by amenogozen- but he still fucking did it for akutagawa, for the ada.. GOD I LOVE ATSUSHI

this is genuinely such a violently romantic-platonic gesture which is pretty on track for these fucking idiots.. but yeah excuse me while i go tweak out!!!!

Sskk reunion sskk reunion but seriously sskk reunion. They've been separated so long. Last time they met, Akutagawa died to allow Atsushi to survive. And then all the airport mess, and Akutagawa subjugating Jouno, and Atsushi being trapped by Teruko; and then they meet again, but it's not really them, Akutagawa is a vampire, he doesn't recognize Atsushi. They are in the same place, but they're not reunited. Then, Fukuchi dies, Dostoyevsky gets reincarnated in Bram, the airport is turned to rubble; Akutagawa is finally back, but he's still not here. Atsushi is still unrecognizable for Akutagawa. They're still separated. He fights Ame-no-Gozen, he loses, and Atsushi dies for him in turn. He dies for him, because Akutagawa's life is worth dying for even if he doesn't remember him. He dies for him, and Akutagawa gets his memories back, but it's a split second too late, Atsushi is gone already. They're torn apart again.

And it's softly excruciating? Two men being so intertwined and complementary, who only make sense as halves of a same whole, who can only know themselves when they are together, being violently taken apart for so long. Always on the verge of meeting, but unable to touch each other. It must be agonizing, unbearable.

Until Atsushi gets out of the fourth dimension. And he's immediately attacked by Ame-no-Gozen, and Akutagawa saves him. And Atsushi knew that Akutagawa was there, but he doesn't know– he doesn't know that Akutagawa is truly back this time. He tells him “Just the two of us?”, and doesn't know what to expect, doesn't know what he's allowed to hope for. And it's only when Akutagawa delivers the only right answer there there is to it, that Atsushi gets it: he's back. They're back. And he smiles!!!!!!! And he knows nothing else matters!!!!!!! They can face everything together!!!!!!! They faced death twice and they're still there fighting side by side. Isn't!! That!! Insane!!!!!!!!!!

Absolutely gutwrenching choice they made when they showed us Akutagawa coming to the conclusion that he had to kill Atsushi, only to have that realization be directly followed by the most mournful and regretful expression Akutagawa can show. The authors of this manga love sskk so freaking much

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Little akutagawa-chan😔

Random quickly drawn Akutagawa doodle inspired by, you guessed it, chapter 121.5

The panel where his eyes grow lighter and lighter as he realizes who he is, who Atsushi is, and how much Atsushi means to him just as Atsushi dies to save him, is honestly magical

Specifically talking about this panel, okay one, I really hope Bones doesn't fuck this whole scene up. Atsushi better "die" as graceful as hell, they messed up so badly with Akutagawa's death 😭

But also I'm excited to see what the eventual season six brings with this scene (although season six is like more than a year away) because hearing this scene and watching it move is going to amaze me all over again

Also, Akutagawa has said that he doesn't hate Atsushi (source: 55 Minutes), and then there's this. The gayest cherry on top in existence and I love it. He's worried and concerned about Atsushi, he's *desperate*

This panel shows how Akutagawa truly is on the inside. He's not a vampire, he's not a killer, he's not a knight at this moment. He's simply Akutagawa Ryuunosuke and he's watching the boy he loves die for him. He's being hit with all of his emotions and memories at once while making a new memory; one that will live with him forever even if Atsushi comes back

It's just

So insane to see Akutagawa like this for once

God this chapter is amazing

I'm screaming crying and throwing up for the millionth time since 121.5 dropped because Akutagawa *cares* about Atsushi. Atsushi, the person who sees him for who he is, the person who understands him without words, the person who makes him feel like he's worth something. He cares about him.

Look at his face. Look at his sorrow

The absolute most solemn look I've seen on Akutagawa, where he realizes Atsushi wasn't just some beast he could kill. Atsushi wasn't just an obstacle or a test, because Atsushi is human

Akutagawa sees that in him

I have no idea how Asagiri is gonna handle the end of the six months deal, knowing him it's going to be what literally no one could've expected, but the premise really interests me now. It always did beforehand, but still, now we know more about how Akutagawa feels about Atsushi. And Akutagawa doesn't know it yet, but Atsushi witnessed his past and trauma. They're bonded, connected and understand each other on yet another level now

And genuinely, I don't think Akutagawa can kill Atsushi

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