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Working on redoing my room. The new light set up helps

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An introduction

Hello!

Any good story (or in this case, blog) needs some sort of introduction. Could be anything from how the harsh War had inspired Grandma to make her casserole to console her little ones. Or the epic car chase a spy finds themselves in to get the first of many clues involving an elusive diamond. Even better could be the classic cliche of a brief moment from a nightmare where the writer snaps awake as the jaws of a bloodthirsty creature brushes against their neck.

However, I find it best to introduce myself by letting you down gently. One: I am not involved in any major wars. Two: I am not a super spy either. And finally three:.... that's debatable.

I am simply a depressed young adult who so dearly wants to be a writer despite the fact of the many, MANY stressors that happen in my life among all the other misfortunes.

I'm not going to David Copperfield you here and go on about the story of my birth. Instead, I will tell you about one of my many stories I have. The story of my internet name.

Looking at the word Vintage, you'd probably think, "Ohhhh so they must be one of THOSE people who love to collect old fahsion and antiques, huh?" As much as I do have a curiosity in such things, you would be incorrect. Among an old friend group of mine, another friend of mine and I shared the same name. Since I was the orginal memeber of the group they decided to call me Vintage.

And the word midnight (midnite) is simply because I appreciate the atmosphere of nighttime. 

As one of my professors taught me, the best way to start something is to just do it. So here we gooooooo!!!

I’m searching in the right places but I’m still dragging the wrong thing with me

I’m dead serious on this. I’m so pissed off today cuz I’ve come to realize just people who I think I care about will do this shit to me. I’m not gonna ignore the logic it was just a few seconds. I’ll just feel sad. But because you made me feel that way then why did you think it was good idea to do said thing in the first place without some kind of plan? That’s the thing. You had no plan. You just didn’t care I was gonna get the fuzzy end of the lollipop.

Real talk, but if you think people who get upset easily are too stupid to comprehend logical reasons behind actions then get tf out

Any opinion on worms?

They’re kinda like land starfish, just wriggly little guys you can scoop up in your hands. Just be careful with them— they are fragile

"Absolutely no one comes to save us but us."

Ismatu Gwendolyn, "you've been traumatized into hating reading (and it makes you easier to oppress)", from Threadings, on Substack [ID'd]

I do it for her~

Honestly I think one of the most empowering things you can do for yourself is to separate your negative qualities from your identity.

Instead of saying “I’m lazy,” saying “I’ve made a habit of not doing work unless it’s absolutely necessary.” Instead of saying “I’m a bad friend,” saying “I haven’t communicated as much as I should with the people I care about.”

By being specific about your problems, and by framing it as an action that you are consciously either working on or ignoring rather than an unchangeable part of who you are, you allow yourself to accept your mistakes and work constructively on them instead of pretending they didn’t happen or wallowing in blaming yourself.

Cover page of zine. Also just found out there’s a limit to how many brushstrokes you can make on canva 😬