Gloria De Lima Edits. // Mutuals May Reblog Representation Of Physical Grief, Exhaustion, Vulnerability

his  voice  scrapes  at  something  in  her  chest  —  a  familiar  ache  she  pretends  she  doesn't  recognize.  ❛  mad?  ❜  she  repeats,  a  dry  laugh  hitching  in  her  throat,  it's  more  breath  than  sound.

she  turns  finally,  slowly,  deliberately.  her  eyes  roam,  as  though  searching  for  hidden  pains.  the  split  lip,  the  bruises  blooming  under  his  jaw,  the  stubborn  tilt  of  his  mouth  that  makes  her  want  to  shake  him  and  kiss  him  in  the  same  goddamn  breath.  ❛  i'm  not  mad  but  fuck  —  bradley...  ❜  voice  low  and  splintered  at  the  edges.

she  steps  more  into  his  space.  clinical  precision  fades  in  the  gentle  brush  of  knuckles  to  the  side  of  his  face  that  made  it  out  unscathed.  ❛  you  can't  make  me  keep  watching  you  destroy  yourself.  ❜

Bradley would like to be kind to himself and say this is a novel situation, blood dripping after a drink in some dusty bar. It doesn't matter how justified, the sting after, the come down, still fucking sucks.

"It's okay," he shrugs, wincing, breath whistling past swollen lips. "Not my finest hour." Still, Bradley would do this again. He knows he would.

"You mad," he dares to ask, hating that Gloria's still got her back turned. Her voice says enough, but it's her eyes that Bradley wants to see.

she  watches  him,  watches  the  way  his  hand  doesn’t  reach.  how  it  lingers  in  the  air  like  an  OFFERING,  not  a  DEMAND.  that’s  it,  isn’t  it?  he  doesn’t  take.  he  waits.

❛   funny  thing  about  wounds.  ❜  voice  low  and  measured.  each  word  turning  over  in  her  chest  before  it  makes  its  way  to  her  lips.  ❛   they  don’t  scare  me  when  they’re  fresh.  that’s  the  clean  part,  body’s  in  shock,  adrenaline’s  high—you  just  move.  ❜  her  hand  finds  his  with  the  sureness  of  a  decision  she  won’t  unmake,  even  if  it  ruins  her.  grasped  too  eagerly,  entwined  too  tightly.

a  flash  of  recognition.  in  the  same  way  those  horrors  play  on  a  loop  when  her  body  wants  to  find  rest,  shiny  snippets  of  lived-in  carnage.  ❛ it’s  what  happens  after  that  haunts  you.  when  you  start  making  room  for  the  pain  and  working  around  it...pretending  it's  not  shaping  every  goddamn  step  you  take.  ❜

his  invading  scent  almost  clouds  every  rational  instinct.  now,  it  mingles  with  warmth  and  the  taste  of  floral  amber  on  her  skin.  honey  and  irreparable  damage  hasn't  left  his  gaze,  but  she  smiles  like  a  ghost  looking  down  on  a  life  she  couldn't  have.  gloria  has  forgotten  how  to  want  anything  for  herself.  it's  too  selfish,  too  indulgent.  she  shrugs  and  it  brings  her  even  closer.  watching  his  lips,  his  jaw,  their  tanged  hands,  anything  else  to  lessen  the  blow  of  unravelling  parts  of  herself  she'd  hardly  admitted  to  the  mirror.

❛ i  was  just  made  to  hold  other  people's  damage  like  it  was  mine.  that's  it,  billy,  the  job.  ❜  THAT  IS  HER  WORTH.

❛ you  say  you  trust  me  when  i’m  trying  not  to  bleed  but  i  don't  know  how  to  do  anything  else.  ❜  she's  quieter  now,  words  flaying  her  open  piece  by  piece.  ❛ i  don’t  know  what  to  do  with  that.  i  don’t  know  how  to  carry  this  kind  of  want  without  running  from  it.  ❜

her  thumb  moves  gently  along  the  line  of  his  palm.  ❛  because  if  or  when  i  love  someone,  i'm  a  walking  wound  that  won't  stitch  shut.  ❜

    ❝ nah. ❞ the word land irrevocably soft. an unabashed verdict handed down between partners instead of a jury. ❝ i trust you most when you're trying not to. ❞

his hand doesn't reach for her own, but it does hover as a palpable presence. if she wanted this contact, she'd find. billy's learned not to ask.

    ❝ don't be silly. i don’t need to make you bleed to trust you, gloria. ❞ his voice dips lower, but it's not tender—just stripped bare, the way cold nights can feel honest when the war's silenced itself for a breath. ❝ i just need to see how you hold the wound. ❞

he grins foxishly—wolf-mouthed in the dark.

    ❝ i know you've seen plenty of people hold a wound wrong. ❞ there's a deep glimmer of memories behind his eyes now—sordid, too close, close-quarters horror folded under surgical instinct gone frantic. he blinks then. the visuals and their effects shut down and thrown behind the doors in the dark recesses of his mind.

❝ what happened when you saw it? they panic, right? they clamp down. they tear it open wider. now you got tragedy all over the floor. ❞

he tsk'd, sucking his teeth. he shakes his head.

    ❝ but you?—❞ he leans in, just enough for her to catch the green apple and vanilla of his cologne, the salt of aftershock in his sweat. ❝ nobody can't tell you shit. you know how to press. how to breathe through it. how to keep your hands steady with someone else's life inside 'em. ❞

    ❝ that’s how i know. so, if i haven't made myself clear before, I'll say it plainly now: ❞ his voice radiates, warm steel. ❝ i don't want you bleeding, sweetheart. i want to see what you do after. ❞

@medicbled

Breeding Kink?

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❛ you’re a fucking nightmare. kiss me. ❜ / dex @weaponid

it  doesn’t  sound  like  desire,  it  sounds  like  a  dare.  gloria  stands  there,  breath  tight  in  her  chest,  jaw  working  like  she's  chewing  down  a  scream.  maybe,  once  upon  a  time,  she  would've  flinched.  denied  it.  tried  to  scrub  the  blood  off  her  hands  and  weigh  the  scales  of  morality,  not  anymore.  it  isn't  something  she  can  just  outrun.  it  wouldn't  matter  how  many  lives  she  saved;  she  still  took  without  mercy  when  the  orders  were  given.  never  hesitated,  never  uttered  the  realization  that  she  liked  it.  gloria  laughs,  and  it's  a  caustic  thing.  like  she's  clinging  to  the  last  fragments  of  dignity  before  she  inevitably  begs  him  to  dish  out  pain  as  personal  penance.  ❛  aw,  am  i  keeping  you  up  at  night,  dex?  ❜

it’s  been  a  long  time  since  anyone’s  looked  at  her  like  she’s  something  real.  not  a  saviour  or  a  soldier.  something  he  doesn’t  want  to  fix,  maybe  even  something  he  wants.  her  hand  finds  his  jaw,  fingers  rough  from  the  violence  of  trying  to  hold  onto  softness.  from  too  many  nights  spent  stitching  other  people’s  wounds  while  ignoring  her  own,  she  tilts  his  face  down  and  meets  his  eyes  with  something  broken  and  burning.  her  thumb  brushes  his  cheek  with  the  barest  touch  of  reverence—or—warning.  it's  a  slow  melt  into  him,  but  not  an  ounce  of  hesitation.  gifting  him  the  taste  of  something  sweet  before  her  fingers  curl  roughly  into  his  hair,  and  teeth  graze  his  bottom  lip.  a  fucking  nightmare  made  flesh  if  he  wanted  it.

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rushed and desperate, messy on the couch because they were too impatient to even make it to the bedroom. / frank @weaponid

an  echo  of  the  lock  snapped  shut,  no  measure  of  time  between  a  wordless  greeting  and  their  bodies  tangled  together.  his  mouth  was  on  hers,  rougher  at  the  edges,  soaked  in  silence  and  too  much  time  apart,  every  hunger  of  his  met  with  her  own.  she  doesn't  ask  where  he’s  been,  doesn’t  ask  what  he’s  done.  his  hands  could  be  drenched  in  saintly  blood,  and  she'd  still  lick  them  clean.  the  couch  creaks  beneath  them,  a  mess  of  tangled  limbs  and  desperate  friction.  she  claws  at  him,  at  the  layers  between  them.  there’s  no  finesse,  no  slow  unravel.  just  the  brutal  honesty  of  two  people  who’ve  bled  together,  burned  into  one  another's  souls  by  the  tangle  of  carnage  and  war.

his  hands  are  always  firm,  pressing  down  and  claiming  curves  with  a  bruising  grip.  he  smells  like  gunpowder  and  warmth,  like  something  feral  that’s  been  living  in  the  dark  too  long,  and  she  breathes  him  in  like  he's  her  only  source  of  life.  her  shirt  caught,  torn  and  bunched  at  her  waist.  mouth  breaks  against  his  when  he  drives  into  her;  no  warning,  no  preamble,  just  every  breath  knocked  from  her  lungs.  ❛ missed  you  so  fucking  much.  ❜  it  burns  in  her  throat,  strangled  by  the  raw  truth  of  her  words.  the  weight  of  him,  the  feel  of  him  is  more  familiar  than  her  own  reflection.  greed  of  her hips  slithered  up,  thighs  wrapped  around  a wall  of  muscle.  ❛ harder,  frank.  that  can't  be  it,  common.  ❜  she  tugs  a  fistful  of  dark  hair,  biting  down  on  his  bottom  lip  hard  enough  to  taste  copper.  something  to  coax  every  violent  thought  in  his  head  to  the  surface  so  she  can  swallow  it  whole.

her  jaw  tightens  with  the  kind  of  tension  that  comes  from  holding  too  much  in.  too  much  blood,  too  much  memory,  too  much  of  that  awful,  helpless  ache  that  comes  when  it’s  a  kid  on  the  table  and  the  universe  dares  to  keep  spinning.

at  the  sound  of  mel's  voice,  she  turns  to  face  her.  there’s  always  the  undertone  of  something  haunted  in  her  gaze,  but  it  doesn’t  waver.  not,  when  the  junior  staff  are  looking  at  her  like  she’s  supposed  to  make  it  make  sense.

❛  yes,  doctor  king,  please,  ask.  ❜

Mel doesn't like this. She doesn't like when it's kids; she doesn't like when there are parents, and siblings, just a few steps away.

Eyes daring between Dr. Robby's still frame and the boy on the gurney, Mel wonders what's keeping their boss from sharing a few words of guidance. Whether it's a reassurance or next steps, she'd like to hear it.

But Robby remains silent.

"Uh, Dr. De Lima," Mel tilts her head to the hallway. "Can I ask a question?"

I just wanted to make a bit of a tiny psa; in that, there’s many instances where, if I’m shipping with someone, I don’t want to write with or ship with duplicates ( pending ppl using the same fc for multiple characters cause all interpretations are different). I have no interest in writing with the same face claims over and over, it’s not authentic to my brain. Nor is it authentic to what I’m building, canons are different, yes but there can be major associations with how someone plays them. if we’ve discussed it, then I have no issue practicing exclusively, especially with face claim association. for example, I will only ever write with one frank castle and billy russo because I have no desire to write with any others based on dynamics built. Face claim wise, I will not write with any others based Oliver Jackson-cohen face claims or honestly Jensen ackles because they’re associated with characters from partners I like writing with. But if we don’t have any conversation about these things, I won’t know. I’ll still prioritize your character if I’m not writing with any other canons or ocs with their face but I’m not tied to exclusivity unless we talk about it. But this psa is also me saying NO I DO NOT EXPECT THE SAME MANNER OF THINKING FROM OTHERS. and again unless the conversation is there, it’s business as usual.

Did this make any sense cause I feel like an asshole trying to explain my brain and I know I should put the list in my pinned and carrd but anyways.

GOOD MORNING !!! Going to tidy up and finish organizing my house then get on my blogs to get things going cause spice is coming a day late friends. ALSO , welcome the newest member of my blog roll and latest mistake @enduredshe

blows u a kis

*catches it and eats it* 😘