I Want His Blood In S Necklace And I Want Him To Have My Blood In A Necklace

tired

For the past few days I’ve been in pain coughing immensely the allergies and pollen triggered my asthma I was using expired medication but I went to the clinic today so I should be getting them tomorrow, I hated it I had to use my pump. and asthma machine multiple times per day I was scared I would have a asthma attack it’s so scary not being able to breathe :(

Maybe you prefer if I was in pain? Do you like to see me cry? I know you do, you love it when I’m hurting which is why you kept doing it :)

I want him to hug me so hard that my bones crack, I want him to love me so hard his heart is in pain when I’m away from him, when he kisses me I hope my lungs are in agony from being out of breath

I hope he hugs me so tight his nails dig into my skin and make me bleed

maybe I am meant to be alone maybe I’m unlikable maybe I’m unlovable i don’t know anymore everyday I have to fight off delusions on wether people actually like me or not I have to fight off isolation

I’ll make a list of songs I feel relate to schizotypal personality disorder

Blood Bath 🩸🩸🩸

Oc

I’m going to name this character Cassie she’s a tattoo artist, I would say she’s a poly lesbian, she’s a Virgo, 24 years old. Likes cats and hates cigarettes. (I use ai since I can’t draw)

I want to return to mother