This Has Been Me The Past Week Whenever I Tried To Draw 😭

finally got around to making an inprnt! put some of my recent stuff there already but if there's a specific piece you're interested in lmk and I'll see what I can do :')

ty fr any support !

The maths and logic part of sewing confuses me.... and for some reason it's the most important one...😭

Okay this random soul eater rewatch while I'm sick turned out to be wireder than I expected.... I remember having to ignore a lot of oversexualised stuff but some scenes almost physically hurt now that I watch them years later....

I just wanted to know if the cool world building and character interactions held up and I think I remember it getting better as the anime went on...but damn..... that really makes it harder to watch than I hoped....

It's november, the weather is getting colder, the leaves are on the ground and it's time again for my annual re-read of this fic ....

I had this great plan to take a break, a real break, and only worry about my fall semester art class for several weeks.... but

1) the neighbor is once again being a fucking bully about and hinting at legal action over the trees on the property and stressing me out so badly I needed a distraction,

2) the weather is finally looking and feeling more like fall which always triggers my hunger for non-drama kishotenketsu-style modern AUs,

3) I can't draw/post anything related to NaNo without spoiling everything but I wanna doodle dinluke??? how does this hyperfocused hyperfixated-on-one-AU-at-a-time asshole doodle dinluke without SPOILERS????

4) I wrote a 2.5 page plot treatment for a non-drama kishotenketsu-style modern AU in an all-human setting where Nevarro City sits toward the edge of the New Republic border, Chandrila and Coruscant and Naboo are either major cities or counties/territories within the New Republic, and Mandalore is a whole ass country,

5) what if I wrote TWO MORE FICS to close out the year????

6) please won't someone tell my brain to shut the fuck up how are we on our bullshit again it's been almost a year wHERE ARE YOU GETTING ALL THIS CREATIVE ENERGY FROM OMIGOD

So, y'know. Din Djarin works for Greef Karga's... *handwaves* company in Nevarro City but has a side gig doing food deliveries for Mythrol Deliveries because he adopted a kid out of a very complicated situation who named himself Grogu and kids are expensive af, and for 2 months he's been dropping off food from Tatooine Grill at the teeny tiny brownstone of a Phd student named Luke at unreasonable hours.

*whispers* This whole thing starts when Din notices the order he's picking up has two hot chocolates, and when he drops off the food Luke stops him and offers him the other hot chocolate as an apology of sorts.

Future doodles may involve Grogu in a froggie hoodie because that's what you do amirite.

I see Megumi smile I have to draw him. I don't make the rules. (I mean I could but oh well....)

3b. Gege and Gojo's Answer to Conservatism: 'Changing the System from the Inside' Doesn't Work

Overall thesis for this project: Godzilla and Mothra create the cultural context of creatives using powerful monsters (or kaiju) to disrupt Japanese bureaucracy and society, usually to make some larger criticism.

Manga spoilers below!

More than anything, Gojo hates a conservative government. Gege argues that only a monster can destroy the (conservative) bureaucratic system; that destruction takes both immense power, and the resolve to wield it. Maki, Gojo, and Sukuna perform massacres against the system after having to overcome systemic hurdles before they achieve their goal. Maki was first killed by the patriarchal powers of the system. Sukuna's power was suppressed by the sloppy, but effective tactics of the Higher-Ups to keep his fingers separate. Gojo played by the system's rules and became a teacher, but was ultimately betrayed by the Higher-Ups after being sealed; they branded him as a traitor and tried to turn his students against him. Gojo fought for years as a teacher to change the system from the inside. He held onto the belief that he would be enough to change the system that hurt his friends in the past, but not even his power could effectively defeat the conservative powers without getting his hands dirty. With all his strength, Gojo was forced to make the hard decision to destroy the system, much like Maki. For Gege, a monster, or kaiju, uses their immense power to disrupt the rigid systems set by the conservative bureaucrats afraid of change.

When I think of Gojo, I think of the students he fought to protect and nurture. Yuta was a cursed child who the Higher-Ups and Geto wanted to kill. Hakari was an outcast unable to use normal cursed techniques like anyone else. Maki was an estranged Zenin without cursed energy or a technique. Megumi was an abandoned child with no one but the Zenin to go to. Yuji was another kid with nowhere to go, and was constantly targeted by the Higher-Ups.

Gojo protected all of the previously mentioned students while teaching them to defend themselves. He taught as a teacher with the sole purpose of his students some day surpassing him and changing the system. His hope for his students to surpass him could beread as an indication of Gojo seeing his own shortcomings as an effective apparatus for change from within the system. Here, "the system" means jujutsu society, and Japan at large.

Gojo tries and fails to change the system from the inside. He plays by the system's rules and hopes that with all his power, he can protect his students, but the Higher-Ups prove him wrong. Despite all the power he wields, he can't protect Yuji from the powers-that-be. Both Sukuna and the Higher-Ups manage to kill Yuji at least once.

Gojo stretches himself thin trying to fill in all the gaps that the Higher-Ups create, save as many lives as possible, while also swearing to change the system from the inside out. Maybe by raising a new generation that goes beyond the boundaries set by the Higher-Ups, Gojo thought he would finally change the world.

For the teacher that relies on his students to be the means in which they make a difference (be it to the system, or the world), the students become their greatest weakness. The Higher-Ups use the system to weaken his students, and ultimately Gojo as well. Imagine the difference someone like Hakari might have made in Shibuya if he hadn’t been discouraged from seeking an education? Gojo sending Yuta away could be read as his attempt to save his student from the bureaucrats’ meddling. Comparatively, Gojo hid that Yuji was alive from everyone to train him in secret, away from the eyes of the Higher-Ups; when Yuji did return, the Higher-Ups proved Gojo right by immediately trying to have Gakuganji’s students kill him again.

Gojo's fight was less about the force of his strength, but more so his ability to protect his students from the systems of power threatening their lives. That's the thing about Infinity: Gojo might be untouchable, but his students don't have that luxury. Even worse, what happens when the infallible teacher makes a mistake? The students have to step up and finally fly on their own. Yuta, Maki, Hakari, and Yuji's trusted with carrying on Gojo's fight, but only after he finally makes the tough decision to get rid of the Higher-Ups. For Gojo, killing the Higher-Ups, dismantling that conservative system, was a necessary step for his students to have their freedom.

Notes:

Did not know this would be split into two(?) parts but okay lol. I needed to set some groundwork for my personal reading of Gojo because I don't see anyone talking about Gojo like I have in this post. No one ever focuses on his role as a teacher being the most important aspect of his character, so I felt that really needed it's own space first and foremost. Next part will be more about the kaiju reading and Gojo's anti-bureaucracy. I'm really interested in looking into Japan's teachers' education movements against the ministry of education. I feel like Gojo would be a valuable comparison at the very least.

Hope you guys enjoy this one

man i hate when i get an art idea but i have neither the time nor the art skills to execute it

Did I spend all this time writing this again and again to just cover it up with colored pencils now?

Apparently yes....

Will I spend another eternity writing it again for a second time?

Probably....

Yay! The semester started for me and so have my sports courses.....so many long bus rides home with a lot of time to catch up with your stories!

omg i just realized hockey au hit 50k today. insane number and i'm just getting into the good stuff........this is gonna be way longer than i expected

I also did some panel redraws again!