“I Want Him But I’m Frightened To Want Him. I Don’t Want My Happiness To Be Entirely Dependent

I know he’s not good for me but I can’t decide if walking away will hurt more than staying one more night.

-A.d.c

i never knew you were such a snake…

that you had poison in your bite.

there was still so much that was at stake

yet you thought saying that was right?

you hurt me, yes

But in staying you healed all the pain before it could get worse

Saving me from the worst of it.

thank you?

I will not wait for you

to regret losing me.

Does the sun wait for

the earth to regret turning?

Does the moon wait for

the night to regret ending?

The sun remains the sun,

and the moon remains the moon.

I will remain myself

with or without

your acknowledge of my value.

Do I ever cross your mind?

The truth is that you are not with me anymore. I do believe that you are my soul mate. You were sent to do a job and accomplished it in the end to bring self confidence and happiness in my life. Thanks to you I now know what both of those emotions feel like together. You are so special to me, and I know that I will love you forever. But lately I haven’t been able to sleep because I know that it’s over between us. I’m not bitter anymore because I know that what we had was real. And one day in the future, when both of us are spiritually ready, my eyes will meet yours again. I refuse to believe that the one person who was every hope i’ve ever had in human form, is gone for good.

- I talk to God about you

Excerpts of a book I’ll never write