Jungle-fae - Your Resident Romantic Ace

Pretending this was originally meant for day 5 and not day 3, shhhh it works, Bam always has faith in Khun’s risky gambles

Makes me think of the hug scene when Bam isn’t upset at Khun for taking the risk by helping White get his power back, but is only upset that Khun didn’t tell him

Xie Lian can thank his lucky stars (ironically) that Mu Qing didn’t wake up cause he would’ve murdered him on the spot (and then Hua Cheng would have subsequently murdered Mu Qing for hurting his hubby)

Whoops

Bear with me, it’s essay time because crying about beefleaf while rereading some parts of book 4 gave me a LOT of thoughts and emotions.

The more I think about it, the more I’m convinced that beefleaf were never going to get a happy ending, not because mxtx didn’t want to give them one, but because their dynamic literally makes it an impossibility. I don’t think it matters that He Xuan genuinely cared for SQX as Ming Yi because he is never going to be able to look at them without recalling what they took from him. Sure, he might not hate SQX, and he might actually wish them a happy life, but that life cannot be with him.

And this is taking into account a scenario in which He Xuan didn’t kill Shi Wudu, because even if he didn’t, I don’t think he himself could ever be truly happy with SQX. There is too much pain associated with them, and even though they were not the direct cause of that pain, I think it’s still fair for He Xuan not to want to be around that reminder. Is that fair to Qingxuan? Not necessarily, but neither was any of this fair to He Xuan.

I don’t think they could ever have a healthy relationship built upon a foundation filled with so much hurt, because they would only end up hurting each other more, whether intentionally or not. I think they both know this, and it’s why I personally believe that the ending mxtx gave them is the best we could have hoped for. In the end, I believe it’s clear that neither of them hates the other, but they do harbor a lot of complicated feelings on the matter that cannot be resolved with apology and forgiveness.

For Qingxuan’s part, I don’t think they blame He Xuan for their present situation. In fact, they are adamant in relaying to Xie Lian that He Xuan didn’t do anything to them after the events of the Black Water Arc. However, they also seem intent on moving forward with their mortal life. As for He Xuan, his dropping SQX off at the royal capital, as well as his willingness to give SQX his spiritual power and the fan (regardless of the dire circumstances) shows that there’s a part of him that still cares about them. He has no desire to interfere with Qingxuan’s chances at happiness in their new life, precisely because of that affection, but he also doesn’t want to be around to grieve over what could have been. Because every time He Xuan sees SQX, there will only be regret, both for his inability to see SQX without the attached pain and for the friend (or even lover) he could have had had their fates not been so maliciously intertwined.

Yes, I love beefleaf, but what I love more than the ship are the incredibly written individuals themselves. And I do firmly believe that, in canon at least, they would both be more at peace by letting go and moving on. Not necessarily happy, but at peace.

Now, in another universe, where these two met outside of these circumstances? Beefleaf most certainly sails.

Side note: In a weird way, writing this was actually kinda cathartic because it gave me peace with and acceptance of beefleaf’s canon ending, while still acknowledging that these two definitely had the potential to be lovers. That potential can be (and already has been) explored through everyone’s lovely fan creations.

I find it hilarious how in tgcf book 8, FengQing’s opinion of Hualian does a complete 180 turnaround from the cave of ten thousand gods, not because they like Hua Cheng any better but because Xie Lian is having the gayest moment of his life.

Straight up went from “Xie Lian don’t go near him he’s a psycho stalker!” to “somebody get this man his husband or he’s going to burn this entire world to the ground with us in it”

These are so good WTF

Color version of my Grand Prix Finalist portraits! <3 To my Filipino friends, I’ll be selling these prints in YOI event on march! You can contact/PM me in my FB page for reservations. LINEART: [LINK] YOI SKETCHES PART 2: [LINK]

ITS THE DAY AAAAAAAA IM SO HYPED, SOMEONE KEEP MY FANGIRLING IN CHECK CAUSE IM BOUTTA LOSE IT IM SO EXCITED

Tower of God Season 2 premiers today! Let’s celebrate! The long wait is over! Are you guys ready? 🎉🥳❤️🎇🎆

Victuuri adorable as always, but can we talk about how this acknowledges the strain figure skating at their level puts on their body and feet especially, similar to ballet I’d imagine

[Lvl 30 Patreon reward] This art is part of this great viktuuri fic Short Programs, by @neutronstarchild

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HOCKNEY APPRECIATION FINALLY I love him so much ty op for this beautiful artwork

hockney from tog bc i love him to BITS 😌🙏🙏🙏

also sorry it’s messy as balls ong 💀

Awww they’re so happy ❤️ and yes just look my way pulls at the heartstrings fr

Being silly!