Yotsuba Makes An Important Decision

painting garbage

finally got a dollar for being gay this week

losers who suck at talking to people representation 💥💥💥

zira you will always be famous...

hair studies for my next project

The meaning and symbolism for this artwork (by me):

(TW brief discussion of disassociation)

The ants:

* The main inspiration for this artwork was ant spirals, (this is where ants get stuck in a loop following each other until they die).

* I wanted to relate this imagery to my current life and the up and down cycle of my mental health

* The phrase "this time will be different" is something I think to myself whenever there is a change in my life

* In this artwork the wording strongly contradicts the images of a never ending spiral. It's a false mantra- and holds no weight compared to the impending reality.

The raspberries:

* This part is pretty personal, so I won't be going into too much depth, but to summarise: the raspberries symbolise my childhood and things l've lost to the past. My grandparents had raspberry and blackberry bushes in their garden. I remember picking them with my brother and cousins. A lot has changed since then, so it's a time I wish I could go back to.

* I gave it the white border to represent a stamp/ postcard as if it is a location I could travel to.

* The setting of a large field gives the option of going in any direction but the figure cannot move forwards by being trapped in the past

The string:

* "How long is a piece of string?" I decided to add the string to show the uncertainty of how long the spiraling feeling will last. There is no real answer.

The human figure:

* A representation of me. I often have feelings of not being real. Like I forget I'm a real person that people can perceive. This lasts for various lengths of time- sometimes hours, sometimes months. It can be really jarring when you snap back to reality or feel yourself fading away again.

* I chose a male figure (despite me being female) to further emphasise the disconnect I feel with myself in these moments.

* The head of the figure is a different colour to the body to show that it is completely empty. The body is there but the mind is not.

Overall, I wanted this artwork to convey across the feelings of helplessness and disconnect I feel when stuck in a self made cycle. The phrase "this time will be different" is intended by me to be desperate and pessimistic. However, it can definitely be viewed as hopeful and a way to break the downward spiral. It’s up to the viewers interpretation.

silly ad i made for my fav teas

togachako request 👩‍❤️‍💋‍👩

I feel like this was kiana’s mindset when creating this series

me telling my siblings that tiktok just went down

huh? you see two giant floating fish swimming around the castle over there? uhhh,,, hm. sure. yeah sure, that's normal! no need to worry about anything ^_^