Me After My Mind Tries To Convince Me That Everything That Goes Against My Morals Is Something That I

nevermind im mad at her again

i need to hug my mother and cry into her neck because i miss the warm embrace of her womb and this bed is too cold for me; i just wish she held me. i just want her to care for me forever, no matter how bitter and painful loving me is

i wish i could end everything but im a coward

:Dhehehe

meeee

i wish i had an older person to take care of me forever. someone who'll kiss me and care for me and tell me that everything will be alright. someone that will tell me what to wear and what to eat so my mind will remain clear and i don't have to worry about anything other than suffocating in their smell and their warmth and i can just follow them and do what they want because the thought of following my own mind scares me and i am worried i'm going to be the reason for my own demise because i am evil. i want a heroine to sleep with me forever and kiss my neck so i can remain sane. is that codependency

yeah it hurts when u lose people but it hurts more when they just drift away from u. then it feels like an act of fate that cant be controlled and not because of either of u. its just because thats how things are and u cant stop the fact u've outgrown each other or the fact u aren't their person anymore

me after screaming at everyone i know and isolating myself from my family and locking myself in my room because i think no one likes me or cares about me and the voice in my head said so and it practically runs my self esteem

It’s rotten work but only if it’s you. When I do it for other people it’s fine, enjoyable even.

and i care so much and ill probably care always but i need to change and grow and care about everything else because it is too much to be alive and i need to bear my sorrows elsewhere. i care, i care too much, i care always and anyways because im a carer, but i need to care about myself more right now

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