Vessel X Reader (touch Me)

Trauma is an identity

I cry Lightly as tears run my face and to my dress my tears stain my dress as I feel a warm hand move over my shoulder, he moves down my arm taking my hand. I don’t look up but know who it is, he pulls me closer gently waltzing. The music plays lightly so lightly I didn’t notice him turn it on, the rain hits the large window as he gently hooks my hand and his other hand rests on my back, I rest my head on his chest not caring about the tears that stain his white shirt, I could see his tattoos through the fabric. I focus back on the music, the singer was in love deeply in love, he good to the moon just to dance with the girl he loves, he sings about her cherry lips and long black hair. She was the apple to his eye, his princess. But I’m quakity’s Queen. I keep crying but finally look up at him, he’s been my light in the darkness for years. When the darkness consumed me and told me to give up. He showed up, his beanie was the first thing I saw before he tripped. I laughed then my heart melted when he smiled. The feeling of love felt so foreign to me that I panicked and ran from him. He was perfect, the scar that ran down his face and through his now white eye was beautiful to me, I held no physical scars to show my pain. The first night I accepted him, he went above and beyond. I found my king. I’m pulled from my thoughts when he gently places kisses on my knuckles then moves closer kissing my soaked cheeks “ why must you cry my love” I place my hand on his shoulders as we still waltz in the large main room of the casino. “ I cry to help the pain darling “ he moves his hand up over my cheek, his rings are cold extremely cold on my hot tear stained skin. His eyes were filled with love,the way his brows scrunched in and he showed a bit of sadness. He would give me the world of I asked him too. Is weird to see the same man that burned a nation and killed so many it was weird to see him so gentle. He smiles sweetly as if he got a dangerous idea, my heart fluttered knowing he always found a way to heal a little bit of my heart without trying. He leads me to our shared room, he sits me on the bed and gently moves my straps off my shoulders lifting the dress off.he kisses my collar bones and shoulders whispering sweet words that make me want to cry again, I can feel the love radiating off of him. He moves to my bra gently taking it off and then my underwear, kissing my thighs and knees. He undresses and pulls me on top of him. On rough days or hard nights, we lay naked in silence. I see why human touch is important with in minutes I can’t even remember why I was crying. His arms hold me tightly, I rest my cheek on his chest and trace his tattoos with my index finger. He gently placed kisses on my head and covers us.

(Super short but I’m sad so whatever)

Techno x reader

(Warning:detailed birth)

You squat down as you feel your lower half burn, sweat and blood was all you could smell. You whimpered as techno holds you close, his chest bare and hair in a messy state. He holds one hand on your inner thigh as you rested your head on his chest and had your arms around his mind you, he’s 6,7 so your basically resting your head on his stomach. “ your doing so good” he kissed your head and back during the time you both waiting for the midwife . You cry lightly as you stay close to him and mumble “ if you ever get…” you groan “ if you ever get me pregnant again ima kill you” he chuckles lightly holding you closer and hums “ forgive me my love” your leg twitches slightly and you lean ur head back. When the midwife showed up she tried to get you to move but you glared and held onto Techno . He reads you like a book “ she’s fine like this please just supervise” the women nods and bows only moving to the side as techno speaks lightly and your child slowly moves. “It hurts “ you cry out, he rubs his fingers down your back checking down there “ I know, I know your almost there” as the hours passed techno becomes calm like calm. He was so gentle. He had pillows replace his spot as he placed a heated rags over your belly. He had a rag and water and gently cleaned your areas along with your legs. Many minutes later your father philza well known for helping with old ancient medicines and of course birth,he sends away the midwife. He walks in only making eye contact and bows. He comes closer “ how are you doing my dear” you could old muster a slight grin as your body racked with pain. He only called you that when he really cared. He looks to Techno who tells him everything. You watch him move through the room. Gently pressing on your womb or hips or places on your back which felt like heaven as he released the pressure on your body. Techno moves to your side and you finally get a break “ you would think I’m having twins with the way he’s acting” Techno chuckles “ don’t speak just rest” when the time was coming Philza sat between your legs. You look to your dad who tried to keep a brave face but you could tell it all broke him seeing his little girl in pain. He gently moves your legs and something in your mind clicks and you look to him and he smiles. He moves one finger stretching you a little more which hurt but you could feel the baby moving. You gasp gripping his arm “ t…t..their moving” both men smile at your words. Philz smiles “ now give them a push “ you breath deeply and then start to push as hard as you can ending with a scream as you breath heavy “ good girl y/n good girl” techno kisses your hand and smiles “ you got this” you breath and do as your father says again and again. Your father lets out a gasp just like Techno when the baby head comes through. You on the other hand scream feeling the pressure from their shoulders. Philz speaks softly glaring at Techno “ gently y/n gently. Their almost here” you push a little as Philz guides the baby out. You gasp falling into Techno arms as he and Philz laugh out in excitement “ THEIR HERE” you smile and see Philz holding the infant. You lay your head back and breath lightly as Philz moves the umbilical cord and clips it. He looks to Techno to cut the cord and he smiles moving to cut it. “ is it a boy or girl “ you meet Techno eyes and he smiles “ boy” Philz lays the infant on your chest and right on cue a wail is heard. Both Techno and Philz help dress you probably. Your father comes closer, they look at you in awe. You see your pastel pink hair thick on their head and floppy ears which made you laugh a little, their skin was so soft in a fur kinda way just like their father. You cried suddenly which made Techno. Philz smiled “ she’s overwhelmed with love, give her a moment “ you look to Techno who has an arm over you shoulder and smile at you. You pout “ this is our baby “ he kisses your head. That night they both stayed around you, you look over seeing the sky lighten up and smile “ it’s almost morning” everyone slept near you and you never felt more safe.

A bond is a nation

(Request: Just after L'manburg started she started to see how Wilbur neglected their little family spending all of his time on making his nation she saw the passion in his eyes and she knew that L'manburg had changed Wilbur so she confronts him and they get into a fight and she decides that she is going to leave with her kids but Fundy refuses saying he wanted to be like his father and didn't want leave him basically he simply refuses to his dad so she and her daughter (fundy's twin) leaves and after wilbur's Fundy tries to find you since u where his only family)

You and Wilbur were young and wild and impulsive but deeply in love, nobody could break your bond with. As years went on you both married and Wilbur and was excited and decided that building a nation would protect him and his friends. You were completely on with the idea and loved but you find out months into it, you were pregnant with a set of twins which made Wilbur work harder. You knew this was his dream to have a nation so you said nothing when he started to stay out later or not talk to you as much. But it became so much you just snapped one night. he walk into the house you sit on a chair not to fair “ you’re late” he looks over seeing your swollen womb and you flip through a book not even looking up, he hums walking towards the room, it made you angry and you got up “ Wilbur” he turns, his hairs a mess and the glasses that usually rest on his nose were gone, you look up at him “ your never home “ he comes closer “ darling this is for our family” you glare at him “ it stopped being for family when you stopped having dinner with me and look at me, I’m having twins ALONE” He’s face becomes sad then you look into his eyes not seeing the man you loved, you start to cry and he gently pulls you closer kissing the top of your head “we’re almost done I promise” his promise was fulfilled and on the day the nation was finished your beautiful twins were born in the walls of the new nation. You gasp gripping your husband hand as he gently kissed your forehead and smiled “ your doing so well my love” you smile weakly and scrunch your eyes shut tight screaming out as you feel them move out your womb “ baby I can’t do this, I can’t do this” he grips your hand “ yes you can yes you can” you scream out then hear a small cry you smile seeing the little fox ears and tail made you giggle lightly then another contraction rips through you causing you to move up and your head back. Wilbur smiles “ your so close darling come on “ you give it all you got and your meet with a little burnet with pale skin, her skin was like scales but had a pear like apprentice. She cries out causing your son to wail, you cry lightly looking to your husband “ their beautiful “ he cries lightly as the nurses rests them on your chest. You breath lightly “ we need names beloved” Wilbur sits close moving his fingers over your sins little fox ears and they wiggle away and he whimpers “ he will be funny and she will be Anna” he chuckles seeing her elf like ears. You laugh feeling at peace everything felt right, your husband was your husband again, when you both went home he was so infested in his son and daughter that you simply forgot all that happened before then when the twins turned two it was like his emotions went away, people from other nations came. It was a simple dispute until they threatened war. You and your twins where near the pond in the middle of the nation you called home. You daughter moved above the water swimming around as your son held onto you while you were in the water. “ mommy look” your daughter swims up flipping, you laugh “ good job Anna”she laughed as fundy paddled around messing with little Lilly. Bit was a sunny day a beautiful sunny day one you’ll never forget. You hear a loud boom. Moving to grab the twins and run, a firework lands right next to you sending you flying with the twins. You scream getting back up and hiding with them in your arms, they cry and shiver that night you and Wilbur are at each other’s throats “ their trying to take our nation “ you glare at him “ a nation that was supposed to protect your family but no, I ALMOST GOT BLOWN UP WITH OUR CHILDREN IN MY ARMS “ he starts to ramble on and on about the nation. You clench your fist “ I’m leaving, you don’t even see this nation has consumed you “ you open the doors to the office and look to the twins “ go pack were leaving “ Wilbur comes out “ no your not “ you turn glaring “ yes.I.am” your son starts to cry once you guys get back you daughter hung on your leg as you son hugged his dad “ I want to stay mommy” it broke your heart seeing him so distressed but you

knew leaving was the right choice you step forward only to have Wilbur step back with his son “ he’s made up his mind” you kiss your son goodbye and leave never knowing that a few days away would turn into years. You and Anna are sitting in front of your little cabin, you hear horses and you both look up not recognizing the strangers. You get up wiping your hands and they stop on their horses. You move towards Anna to protect her” who are you” they remove their hoods, you gasp seeing your son grown up and your husband covered in scars and his hair is slight white.they both look sad, you come closer and they drop their heads about to speak but you just pull them close hugging them, you cry lightly. Fundy looks up “your not mad” you wipe your tears as wilbur keeps his arm around your waist “ I forgive your father but I was never mad at you, it was your choice to stay, I’m just so glad your both back” that day the twins regrew their bond and Wilbur brought the wedding ring you left and asked for forgiveness and for you to be his again. You kiss him deeply and smile “ is that a yes “ you laugh and nod “ yes yes yes” he picks you up spinning “ I love you” you smile big “I love you more”

@abovenyx - I didn’t forget you, I hope you like it

(Artist: Sen @sennhah on Twitter)

Sapnap x pregnant reader

You and Sapnap were a thing for a little bit nothing official and nothing public. But with things like that is was impossible for one person not to catch feelings and guess who caught feelings you did but you were a little to late to confess it to him and a year later he announced his proposal and soon to be partners to the world, you could even describe how you felt. Sick, sad but couldn’t feel betrayed. You guys were never a thing so you decided since he was completely invested in his partners that you should just leave or your feelings would ruin everything, but months after you completely disappeared your sitting in a doctors room with paper saying your four months pregnant and you knew exactly who the father was, you cried for days not knowing what to do, with your new home you didn’t know a lot of people. Months passes and your walking through the town cupping your swollen belly as you turn to the corner you bump into someone and catch yourself before you fall rubbing ur head “ hey I’m sorry I wasn’t” before you finish your sentence you make eye contact with the very man you were trying to avoid all together, he looks at you then you belly. Out of panic you turn away then hear foot steps as you get down the trail. “ Y/N “ you hear ur name and try ur hardest to just ignore him, you cup ur swollen belly and feel ur feet starting to swell, he runs In front of you making you stop dropping ur head “ Sapnap please just go please “ you try and walk around him but he blocked you, you step back stepping on ur dress and start to loose ur balance, he moves forward catch you picking you up “ y/n please “ you sigh starting to feel overwhelmed “ fine,fine “ you lead him to ur house, he walks in sitting you down and rests on his knees looking at your stomach “ is it mine “ you bite ur lip nodding and don’t look at him, he gently moves his hand over ur stomach the baby moves and you suck in air and look at him, he’s smiling big at your swollen stomach. He look up then his smile fades “ why didn’t you tell me y/n “ you felt tears fill ur eyes “ we weren’t a thing and you proposed so I thought it be better to stay quiet and move away, it didn’t feel right to come out of no where claiming to have your baby ” tear run down your face “ I didn’t want to ruin your relationship “ I look away “ where’s your partners “ he looks down “ a war broke out their both out of it. I don’t think they feel the same anymore” he looks up into my eyes “ doesn’t matter what I do, it’s still my baby y/n. You still could of told me” I cry lightly and hum “ it’s not that simple” he tilts his head “ what do you mean y/n “ you wipe your cheek “ I love you, I’ve loved you since the beginning and I wanted to tell you but you went and proposed even tho you still came back to me “ you couldn’t tell if it was from the hormones or from the fact that you are realizing what he did was wrong but you got angry pushing him away from you, he looks up shocked “ did you not feel anything or was I just that to you” he looks up “ I don’t know y/n “ you get up and he grabs your arm “ don’t give me that, the nights we spent together and you felt nothing just leave “ tears run down your face “ please y/n please let me make it all up to you, I’m sorry” you look at him and hum “no,no,NO. I’m pregnant with your baby and all you say is I don’t know seriously, I was a fool once I will” he hugs you and rubs your back “ I know y/n, I know what I did was disgusting and wrong. I’m sorry I put you through all this “ he look into your eyes and cupping your cheeks “ I’ll do anything y/n,you know me better then anybody, please let me make this up to you” you cry and hum “ I dont know” he falls to his knees gently touching your swollen womb “if not just please let me be apart of the babies life please” you sigh sitting down “o…o..only one chance mess it up, I never want to see you again “ he smiles big and hugs you “ thank you thank you”. After that day sapnap wanted to prove he wanted you back and was fully invested, he come early in the morning and do extra stuff to help you, you liked

the fact he didn’t hover over you. He brought you flowers and food and different gifts, he was completely invested and didn’t care what it took. One night you lay in bed but hear a knock getting up waddling to the door “ who is it “ I peek the door seeing sapnap “ can I come in “ I open the door “ you okay “ he nods and looks at you “ I couldn’t sleep, I was worried about you “ I raise an eyebrow smiling “worried?, why” he hums “ I mean who wouldn’t be your pregnant home alone and in the woods if that doesn’t worry anybody then their crazy” he Looks up seeing you cup your belly and sits down “ can I please touch you please “ you hum nodding, he moves forward gently moving his hand over your womb letting a small smile rest on his face and rests his cheek on your knee “ have you thought of names “ you smile shaking your head “ have you” he nods and smiles “ yes but is a girl or boy “ you hum “ I wanted to wait till the birth” he smiles “ then I’ll tell you then”.

Midnight tales

It’s the middle of the night and you go to roll over closer to your husband just to find the bed empty and light whimpers coming from the other room, you yawn getting up, you hear your husbands voice is low and gently, you peek into the room seeing him leaned over his son, he kisses his little cheeks and moves his thumb gently over his head as he whispers to him “ when I meet your mother” he told his son about how you both meet and how he fought wars and promised his son protection and love. He gently lifts the his son holding his head and bottom gently as the little piglet moves his arms letting small cries escape his mouth” ooo no no” he rocks his son lightly as you stand in the door way smiling at him, his long pink hair is out over his shoulders as the moon runs through the room over the walls and floor. The snow falls calmly as if it is watching your husband interact with his son. Tech ears perked up having him glare toward the door then he relaxes seeing you, he smiles as you walk closer kissing him softly then rubbing your sons head and giggle “ you heard what the doctor said he’s only a couple months we can’t spoil him by holding him” techno lowly groans and hums “ he won’t always be this little beloved, I understand the task but he was upset tonight” you kiss your sons head lightly “ just admit your wrapped around his little fingers” techno chuckles and looks down “ it is so wrong tho, he is our first born beloved” you laugh leaning your head in his shoulder and hum “ fine just tonight” you kiss him and your son goodnight but can’t help but stay up and listen to techno tell his son of ancient warriors. It’s funny to believe the same man months before cried to me about how he feared the baby would hate him for who he was, he was scared the baby would hate his pink hair and piglet features now techno wiggles his ears at the infant teaching him how to move them and he speaks pigmen to him only to have the piglet respond in his own babbling mess of words. Techno now adored everything about his son. For a man that used to be cold and blunt and ruthless it was odd to see such a small being lay in his once bloodied hands and just sleep their. The next morning you wake up to an empty bed again, groaning you go to get up but stop looking over finding techno in the rocking chair he made in your shared room, his head was leaned back his hair messy along with his son on his bare chest, making little noises fast asleep, you giggle lightly coming closer “ beloved” techno looks over and groans at the pain in his neck, you laugh going to take your son only to have techno pull back “ no no, he’s asleep” you laugh “ would you like to lay in bed while I make breakfast “ he only nods tiredly moving to the bed. You laugh coming back an hour later finding your son wide awake as techno lays on his side, your son rests on his arm and your son looks over giggling lightly and touches technos face, making you question if he senses are at their peek. You set the trey down and smile “ beloved your son is calling” techno groans pulling his son closer kissing his cheek lightly and groans “ I hear him love”, after that their was no hope in getting your son or getting your husband up.

Baby techno

(Warning: pregnancy, mention of child birth)

To say the pregnancy was planned would be a flat out lie to anybody who asked. You and techno happily married for three years and everyone knew you guys were on constant adventures and so happy together not very many asked about kids but here you are nine months along and techno piglet instincts are on lvl one-thousand. He has become extremely protective since the news and refuses to let anybody or anything near me the only person that can freely come in is Philz bc he genuinely is excited about his grandson and was planning to help with the labor and everything was planned out perfectly, the house was set up and you didn’t go very far from the house but one thing you didn’t prepare for is out of all the days techno finally lets you stay home alone bc Philz has to go deal with whatever he needs. You water breaks one hour after everyone is gone. You gasp gripping the counter and a slight panic fills you, you go to the door and scream as loud as you can “TECHNO HELP” you knew his hearing was unbeaten. That was all you could at before closing the door, a contraction goes through your body causing you to pause and lean down breathing lightly “ stay calm y/n, stay calm. He’s coming it’s okay” you finally make it up stairs after a few contractions stop you. You get to the bathroom knowing how everything going to go, you fill the tub and lean on the side of the tub breathing deeply “ come on techno come on”. In the distance Techno ears rise up as He hear a faint scream, his heart stops as He turn around heading back to the cabin. You slowly take ur pants and cry lightly as the pressure in your pelvis gets worse. You hear the door open and smile lightly hearing your name, techno comes in “ Y/N”. He rushes over and you lift your head up “ I guess they wanted to scare us a little “ he chuckles lightly lift you up into the tub gently, the warm water soothes your muscles but the contractions rip through you. He goes putting his stuff away and returns with everything. He hold your hand and gently rubs your lower back and stomach gently “ your doing so good my love” you groan lightly moving onto your knees, he checks every once and awhile “ am I there yet “ he rubs my back checking “ couple more cm darling” Philz shows up later and is extremely excited but extremely helpful. Techno takes you out the tub when time gets closer you rest your back on his chest and he holds your legs gently lifting you up more, they cover your waist down with a towel. Six hours pass and unknowingly to you techno brothers were waiting in the living room. You scream out when you feel the baby move “ their coming techno, their coming “ Philz moves as you grip technos arm as he kisses you head and rubs your thighs “ then push! love push! “ you lean your head back screaming out as a contractions follows and you push sucking in air and close your eyes tightly. Techno kisses ur neck and hums lightly “ there you go darling, your doing so good” you breath heavy leaning ur head back more screams at philza “ GET IT OUT”. You push and push and finally a loud cry is heard. Techno looks down and kisses my head softly “ you did omg you did it” tears run down his face and Philz wraps the little pink piglet in a white sheet moving them to rest on your chest, you cry light. Philz smile “ a boy” you smile up at techno and kiss the top of your sons head gently seeing his light pink hair and giggle lightly “ look at him techno” techno was just in awe of his son, he lay you back on the bed and lean down gently moving his fingers over his sons cheek, his son whimpers lightly and moves causing techno to pull his hand away. “ he’s okay beloved “ you let techno hold him and do to the fact he was half human your son was in the 6,7 piglets palm on his back he whimpered lightly and made a little piglet noises, techno looked up at you kissing you lightly “ thank you, thank you” you kiss him back weakly and lay ur head back smiling. Techno gets closer smelling his sons scent and smile looking at his feature, light pink skin and pink hair how he loved his son. His son moves his arms

yawning and rests his head more on technos thumb. You look over just seeing the most genuine smile on techno face the last time you saw this smile was on your wedding day or during special “stuff”(😉) but he was just so in love with his first son. “We need a name honey” techno looks up “Eric which means ruler, he going to be strong” your heart warmed hearing ur husband words. That night you feel asleep with Eric on your chest and your husband right next to you.

Sapnap x son reader

Sapnap (teen father) x son reader

Sapnap was in class when he got the news of his son at first he thought it was a sick joke until, the girl brought you in. He was so angry, He knew zip about babies but the way you were being held and treated pissed him off, the mother’s parents didn’t want nothing to do with you and the way you looked broke him. he didn’t even think before taking you away from them. his parents were livid and he got kicked out but dreams family was extremely supportive and helpful to him. The first time he held you, he just was so amazed by you, you were so tiny but definitely him, your hair was like his and the little noises you made always made him and dream “awe” at you but it broke his heart seeing your conditions, he had to save tons of money and ask dreams parents to help get you to doctors appointments and medicines, you were extremely skinny and your color was sickly, he feared going to bed at night in fear of you not being alive the next day but after a month you got your color back and we’re chubby like all babies should be, he fell in love with you all over again but around that time He still went to school but dropped other activities hoping to be able to take care of you so he started working even tho dreams parents insisted he should just focus on school and he worked hard for you. At night he would have you in his arms, after a long day of work and just kiss your little cheek and rub your little belly as you smiled at him and cooed at your dad, rolling over which made him laugh as you pull at the strings on his hoodie, he smiles pulling them away “ aww come on bud, you can’t eat that” you pout as he gently lifts you up, moving to the door. He opens it moving to the kitchen to find you a bottle, he gently laid you on his chest as he moves grabbing a bottle, you giggled seeing dreams. Sapnap laughs at your giggle “ what did I do bud, why you laughing” you focus back on your dad and pull at his ear and lip “ come on buddy, I need those” he shakes the bottle as dream walks in, you smile big at the blond. Dream was like your second father, he loved you so much and cared for you like you were his own, him a sapnap have been friends for years so adding you to the equation wasn’t a big impacted, dream even started working. They wanted you to have a good life no matter what. He turns your body lifting the bottle to your lips “ come on” you grab ahold of the bottle as dream smiles “ he keeping you up “ sapnap lightly rocks you and hums “ a little but he slept the whole day your mom told me” sapnap glares at dream, dream holds up his hands “ he looked so relaxed this afternoon can you blame me” sapnap hums “ your such a sucker for him “ dream laughs “ coming from his dad, I beg to differ” you look between the two and grip sapnap shirt, getting his attention “ don’t listen to him y/n, he’s bluffing” dream laughs moving forward holding your little hand, moving his thumb over your little knuckles “ goodnight y/n” he smiles walking off. Sapnap cleans the bottle and leads you to the room, he gently grabs your orange blanket putting it to the side, he lays you down gently “ let’s take a bath bud, maybe you’ll sleep better with one” he goes to the bathroom filling the tub, his back ached and his feet hurt but he knew he was working towards something good for you and him. He comes back finding you sitting up holing you little blanket close, sapnap smiles lifting you up places blueberries on your cheek and tummy, you scream out and laugh causing him to loose it,moving you to the tub with him, you lay on his bear chest as he leans his head back, gently rubbing your back and hums “ I love you y/n” he brings you up more kissing your chubby cheek and kisses your tummy and laughs when your little legs wiggle. He gently pours the water over your back messaging body wash into your soft skin and you let out a little noise relaxing on his chest “ it that good y/n” he smiles to himself, he could believe it your only one and he just graduated high school, but out of everything you were the best gift life could of given him. He adored you and only you.

(I hope you like it)

Gentle

I lay on his chest breathing heavily and cry into his shirt, he rests his arm on my back keeping me close. Gently moving his fingers over my side. His lips gently kiss my shoulder as I sob and shake. He kisses my head rubbing my side and back gently whispering sweet words that made me cry more not out of sadness but out of pity. I don’t deserve this. I never deserved this. He brings me closer and rubs my wet cheeks as he kisses my forehead, he holds me as if I’m young again. My mind drifts to memories I wish I never had. I sit in a corner of a somewhat empty room crying alone as my world falls apart, I was so little and alone. He pulls me from my thoughts holding me tighter, I feel his chest and arms shake. I feel the wet drops on my head,it’s as if he can feel my pain as if he went into my mind too. As if he sat next to me and cried. He chokes out a sob while I continue to cry into his chest. My sob become more pained. I’m hurting him, I’m hurting him. I grip his shirt and mumble his name begging him to not cry, this pain is my own, they hurt me not him. He saved me. The nights I laid in bed wishing hoping for my death, the dark hole that I laid in. He reach in pulling me out, I still hate myself and life but he makes it all bare able. To feel his body shake as if he’s in pain scares me, i look up at him to see his beautiful eyes glossy, his brows rest downwards and his forehead wrinkles slightly as his sobs rack his body, he speaks lowly. Telling me that he wanted to save me and take this pain away, his grip became desperate as if letting me go would end his life or I would fade away, he was scared. I told him I wanted to die, i told him I’m in pain constantly, i told him I feel dead inside, I’m not me. Theses words broke him to his core, he rubs his fingers through my hair pulling me closer begging me to hang on and that he would help. I feel my head start to pound as he keeps me close,he cries more not caring about how he sounds or looks. This beautiful man sits before me letting the pain for his beloved flood out. He wanted to scream. He loved me and only me.He places soft kisses on my head and face, he moves to my lip kissing me in a way that couldn’t be Described as hunger or lust or passion. It was a kiss of promise, he was my angel sent from heaven, he was meant to be in my life, he was willing to die just to make sure i woke up the next morning. just to make sure i didn’t look in the mirror and hate myself. Just to make sure i didn’t think of constant death. He pulls away breathing lightly, his tears hit my cheeks running down them chasing my own, even tho his eyes were slightly red and his cheeks were slight red, he still gave me a smile. The very smile that made me think maybe life wasn’t so pointless, maybe I do deserve love or a friend. He’s soft gentle hands rub my cheekbones taking my tears with them. His eyes look into my soul, no words or writing could explain the look in his eyes. It wasn’t possessive or desire or need. It was a plead or promise. He had this power to speak without even opening his mouth, he was true to his words even if the words weren’t on his tongue or fell from his lips. His actions were so loud like when he bring me a flower or gazes at me. He is selfless and beautiful no other person could describe him in a way I could, no scientific facts or author or song writer. Not even ancient Scholars could predict or summon a man like him. I rest my forehead on his closing my eyes but hold him tight as if he would slip away. He leans back resting me on his chest as he gently rubs my back. He whispers a sweet “I love you” before I’m consumed by sleep.

Tears for the man I love

*mid afternoon I felt a sense of sadness for my love,he has been experiencing chest pain and pain In his arm. As I sit on the bed I look out the window and cry softly and I do not notice him standing there until he reaches out his hand, I welp out in fear and turn with tears in my eyes and the pain I see in his eyes breaks my heart my body just goes weak and I sob and grip his shirt and he slowly rubs my back and mumbles lightly * what is it my sweet girl? Why are you upset? I’m here shhh....* he hums lightly and kiss the top of my head. I sob and feel his arms wrap safely around me * talk to me * he says in a worried tone, I look up and breath heavy * you have been in pain and I’m scared * he realizes and tilts his head * you know I take medicine to help it baby don’t worry * I cry * b..b..but to see you laying there in pain just crushes me, I want to help you * he kiss me lightly * as long as you hold my hand it will help me through it all please understand that, don’t cry please * he moves his thumb to wipe my tears and kiss my forehead * I love you please just stay with me *i look up and rest my hand on his leg * I love you too, I’m not going anywhere I want you and only you please *he looks down and gives me the most caring smile ever my heart melts and all my worry is washed away in secs and I whisper * I love you techno” he lean forward and kisses me deeply, rubbing my back and holds my leg up. I giggle and he wipes my face gently “ come on darling, you know what I always say” he gets close to my ear and whisper in his deep velvet voice “technoblade never dies” i laugh lightly and groan hiding my face in his chest “ this is seriously beloved” he chuckles leaning his head back, his long pink hair moves over his shoulders and out of his face as he laughs “ I’m being serious beloved, have faith in the blood god “ I look up at him in awe at the very man who is suffering not only mental but physical how could be still be so confident and loving and brave. I love him more then anything and not even illness could kill a man like him. He notices my stare and puts his hand behind my neck and rests his forehead on mine, his beautiful hair tickles my cheeks as his electric red eyes stare into my soul “ we’ve been through hell y/n, we’ve fought wars and built a nation along with burn a nation, I’m not giving up so why should you my love” I close my eyes feeling ashamed for doubt my love “ I worry beloved, i fear loosing you” he cups my cheek bringing me closer “ we live in peace beloved our moments will be together and whatever destiny decides. We will be together “ he brings my hand up showing our rings and he kisses my ring “ till death do us part beloved” I feel tears fill my eyes and I wrap my arms around his neck and cry lightly “ till death do us part my love” he gently rubs my back pulling me closer and kisses my head as the sun stars to fall. That night the stars shine a bit brighter. Techno took me outside the cabin we sit on the stairs and I lean on his shoulders as he points and tells me about the Constellations and old Greek gods. I look over seeing a sparkle in his eyes, in his soul. He was beyond a man and I feared nothing. Faith is all we needed. I smile getting closer to him “ I love you techno “ he laughs lightly “ I love you most beloved”.

Mini crown

Your around three and a complete busy body but nobody nobody loved you more then daddy techno. You crawl over holding your little toy in your mouth and sit down Looking way up at the 6,7 piglet and let out a happy giggle pulling technos attention to you “ hi little one, aren’t you busy today” he bends down picking you up with no problems and you laugh loudly when he blows blueberries into your neck and tickles your little stomach a laugh rumbles through his chest as you grip his hair and lean your head back “ no baba” you scream. He laughs kissing your little cheek as you drop your toy and place your small hand on his face and nose complete infested in your dads face. Then a loud bang and yelling comes from outside “ TECHNOBLADE SURRENDER NOW OR DIE” techno rushes upstairs giving you a bottle and hides you “ shh shh my love I’ll be back I promise “ he kisses your head as you whimper reaching for him “ baba” your eyes water as you try to crawl out the basket then you hear the door close and know he left, you sit down holding your toy and cry out “ BABA”. A couple minutes pass and you whimper and then hear the door open and meet your distress grandfather philza picks you up gently rocking you “ it’s okay I’m sorry “ he holds you close and you grip his shirt and whimpering “ baba, baba “ you cry out and he rubs your back gently “ he’s coming it’s okay he’s coming”. Philza stays with you, he puts you down and you crawl towards the door and whimper “ baba” philza heart breaks seeing you so upset. Hours passed and you lay down on the couch as philza reads to you the door opens and techno looks around frantically then looks at you he sighs in relief, blood rests on his cloths and face. He picks you up crying lightly placing kisses all over your face, you scream wrapping your arms around his neck “BABA” he smiles and looks to philza “ thank you” philza smiles patting his back “ anytime mate “ philza leaves and techno holds you close taking you upstairs and you whimper holding onto him tightly as he kisses your cheek and head “ I’m here, I’m here “ you look up with watery eyes and he’s heart just melts seeing his little girl miss him, he fills the tub and you rests on his chest as he gets into the tub rubbing your back lightly putting soap on you and placing small kisses in your face and one on your nose “ I know love I’m sorry” you whimper not letting go at all. After the bath, he gets you in your little night gown and brushes you hair and smile looking at the mirror up at your father “baba” he looks to the mirror smiling big seeing your face light up “ you ready for bed, you giggle lightly as he picks you up and walks towards the bed, he lifts the covers having you crawl to the side, he lays down and you crawl over resting on his chest “ good night my sweet girl”.