Meowijuana By @caseyweldon Motion By TheGlitch @illusion911 Music By Cypress Hill 👌🏽

Written: 1•30•19

Soul Connected

I was looking for me But I found you While soul searching I found truth That everything was in my head I was so used to past abuse Little did I know How my soul searching Would bring me to you I searched for my soul But my soul searched for yours Soul searching opened so many doors It’s like we vibe better We know we can weather any storm Sex was always amazing But now it’s more than our flesh Our souls make love Why should they get second best So many walls broken through I’m so glad my soul found you In the process of it all We learned the true meaning of This union Has nothing to do with rings, Vows, papers, or the fate of Divorce loomin’

-Illustratum Paradoxon

Illustratum Paradoxon

Same. 😔

Here comes the days of hell...

(aka the peak of my PMDD)

Feelings include:

And the result is:

Conflict and tears. Me arguing with my family and me crying a lot.

I really f*cking hate this crap.

Self reminder: Stop wasting your time for someone else to actually care. Stop wasting your time for someone to empathize the same way that you do. Stop wasting your time thinking that someone is willing to sit in your pain with you. They won’t ever. You just have to accept that no one loves like you. No one feels like you. No one will ever understand you like you do. So next time they ask if you’re ok, just stick with “fine” and don’t waste your time.

- Illustratum Paradoxon

You become a master of your life when you learn how to control where your attention goes.

Value what you give your time and energy to!

Illustratum Paradoxon

With a calming atmosphere, “Harmony” by Cestica finds a perfect balance of night and day. Where would you fall in the divide? Night or day?

I ain’t no digital thug

But on the real

Some of ya need some digital hugs

I resonate with you truly I do

I just wish you knew how to resonate too.

We don’t have to agree

We don’t have to think the same

It’s doesn’t mean I hate

It doesn’t mean I’m lame

I just wish for things that are higher then this drama

Higher then the pain

The lives lost

Deteriorating mind frames

All at what cost?

Wake up

Return from the slumber

Stop sitting around

“I wonder, I wonder”

Can life truly be this hard?

It’s so simple

To me honestly

God said love others

Let’s start there

We’ll see

Let’s be fair

Put yourselves in someone else’s shoes

Quit playing victim

And live the life God dealt you

Live it to the fullest

Live it like a full house

Live it like an ace of spades

Stop playing fearful meek mouse

Fight for what’s right

And hop off the band wagons

Jesus coming soon ya better quit laggin.

I say this with so much love

Not because I’m perfect

Not because I judge

I just want you to make it home

So we can party up above.

-Illustratum Paradoxon

-Illustratum Paradoxon

Whyyy lmaooooo