Success doesn’t care how you feel right now.
(Not my photo)
i have more hunger for thinness then i do for food.
Thinspo
i feel respectless to call myself anorexic. Even atypical anorexic.
I'm just someone who wants to lose weight, but eats normally and only sometimes has the control to restrict.
I know it's not a weight disorder but why the fck do i feel so invalid?!
Anyone else find the bruising to be oddly encouraging?
coffee…light of my life, fire of my loins ♡
And starving yourself can make you feel euphoric, like a drug addict or an alcoholic. What you crave is the numbing of the things you don’t wanna feel
I don't know when to start and I don't know when to stop
My current affirmation^
I love talking to “@na” in my head like we’re besties. she’s cool . like today our convo was about how she’s just here as a cosmetic thing and compared herself to makeup. It makes a lot of sense, makeup is inherently unhealthy but we all wear it for fun to feel pretty and accepted. Everyone just kind of sweeps under the rug how bad it actually is lol. Maybe in the future it will be looked down upon as much as @na is, but just some f00d for thought???
Sometimes I imagine myself skinny, like flat stomach, small thighs and legs, small arms, small chest and there's this deep yearning that I feel lol 😭