Lost Really Said That Your Past Doesn’t Define You And That You Are Not Irredeemable. You Are Still

Bates Motel   ↳ “The Cord” (5.10) | April 24, 2017

This is how it ends, isn’t it?

i swear to god i had a post about pink floyd's the wall but now i can't find it. i feel like i'm going crazy ( i probably am! ) but anyway. been listening to this album on repeat, it is such a genuine banger, the story slaps and there is something genuinely so disturbing about it all. esp the second half of each side, anything past young lust actually ?? kills me??? and then in the flesh & beyond are just insanely fucked. ‘one of my turns’ and ‘don't leave me now’ are some of my favorite tracks on this album; they're so disturbing in their own right ( one of my turns going into an almost playful, sarcastic insinuation of violence -- while don't leave me now explicitly states the violence pink would like to commit against his wife, specifically ) and there's just! so much emotion and tension teeming in these songs. i love the slow build up in one of my turns, pink just completely snapping as he destroys everything in sight, this song just. ugh. UGH! his soft, melancholic voice growing into something frenzied and screaming, voice literally breaking and wavering with how unhinged he is. that screamed “oh no!” gets me EVERY TIME. it's so good. all of the emotion you can get from the singing alone is just.... truly insane. “in the suitcase on the left you'll find my favorite axe!” is my favorite line in this song because it's soooo. UGH THAT IMPLIED VIOLENCE !! like yes he's talking about a guitar but the word ‘axe’ is still used because pink has these fantasies of committing horrific violence against people. as we see in the next song, which.... i truly do love so much, the heavy breathing in the background accompanied by the deep piano, pink's heartbroken and angry voice..

obviously the threats of violence get a lot more explicit here; talking about putting his wife through the shredder, literally says he wants to beat her to a pulp on a saturday night. it's so horrific. shifting all of his blame on to her, his shaken and screaming “oh, babe” ?!?? god it's just phenomenal. the story is so fucked and you get all of these different emotions, not only from the character but from the instrumentals, the lyrics, you as the listener ... so many different factors combining together to create such a heart wrenching story on literally all sides. then pink smashes the shit out of a tv and screams in rage <3 this man and his violence. then he's like alright im isolating! bye! and obvs who doesn't love comfortably numb? but i think hearing it in the context of this album adds an entirely new layer to it, bc he's like... so fucked he's getting shot with a drug to go perform this concert, then he imagines himself turning into a neo-nazi and killing people for the next three songs. btw when i saw brit floyd they reenacted the scene from comfortably numb where pink is sitting basically lifeless in the chair and the doctor injects him to snap him out of it. it was SOOOOO GOOD. i'm like yes brit floyd this is why you're the best pf cover band ever. anyway. will probs have more thoughts on this amazing album tomorrow esp once the adderall kicks in wooo. might even try my hand at writing this insane man? who knows the world is my oyster

clearsight has a spooky vision

the urge to watch sneaky pete again… how it’s almost been a year since i rewatched it, i have no idea. but i miss u marius

You going to shoot me?! I’m not going to shoot you! I don’t want to shoot you!

Hold on. How did you get in the helicopter? What, you can fly a helicopter? Did you say helicopter? What the hell are you doing in a helicopter? Mission: Impossible (1996–)

ohhhh patrick jane / lost au. this was mentioned to me as an idea and now i can't stop thinking about it <3 i think patrick would in fact be despised by half the cast and tolerated by the other. maybe a few token admirers in between there. i can see a good amount of locke & patrick clashing over ideological differences of what the island is ... but i can also see patrick clashing heavily with jack! and the a team in general! yes, patrick is getting automatic b team treatment, not only because he's already made enemies out of jack, sayid, and kate ( patrick clocked pretty quickly that she was the fugitive! ) but also because this guy doesn't know how to even hold a gun. he's also very wary of sayid but, in typical patrick fashion, is super annoying about it. and hurley is all, “dude, you're a psychic,” then patrick is like .... hurley. there's no such thing as psychics. but hurley won't believe that for a SECOND. charlie is done with the guy but also finds him kinda cool to be around. sometimes. patrick has a soft spot for boone, and even shannon ... and finds desmond very intriguing, if not somewhat insane. he's been on an island alone for three years, after all! tho i think patrick would meet his match in ben. hm hm. anyway. rotating thoughts in my brain. wondering what patrick's test(s) would be. soooo many possibilities.

that post-high moment when you realize there’s no one else to talk about bjm with, it’s not the 90s anymore, you’ll never get a cassette of the original pol-pot’s pleasure penthouse, “fade” will most likely forever be a lost track, and dig! is an 18 year old documentary on a band that no one cares about. why do i always do this lol. i think dead/obscure fandoms just call to me. perhaps it is the universe’s way of punishing me. what did i do in my past life to deserve this

I wished with all my heart that we could just leave this world behind. Rise like two angels in the night and magically disappear.

Mysterious Skin (2004) dir. Gregg Araki