The Fucking Thing Where A Lot Of Trans Women Can't. Get Our Lives Started For A Long Time. Until We Transition

i’m finally starting therapy this week though!

i keep just inexplicably feeling like shit late in the evening

there usually isn’t an event or a thought process that happens, i just start feeling like shit

it kinda sucks

I told myself I’d learn how to use the muse dash level editor after i finished finals and now that i’ve gotten around to it it’s so over

i’m going to make so many maps

there’s been a distinct lack of dragonforce music that i’ve seen in the modding community and im going to fix that

I really want to get back into making youtube videos but i just have no idea what to do

what do i make

how do i get people to actually find my channel

i’m getting frustrated about this at this point and i just want to make things again

Robot girl, finally back online after a year and a half, looking at the newly outfitted soldering station. There's a lot more tools on it than there were when she last closed her eyes: Inspection microscopes, hot air reflow, EEPROM programmers, logic analyzers, thermal cameras and regulated power supplies. She starts to tear up when she sees the video history of her partner (and repairperson): months and months of electronic tutorials, starting simple ("what is a circuit?") and towards the end there's PCB design classes and CCC videos about reverse engineering secure processor firmware.

"You did all this, for me?" she asks, her voice sounding different from how she remembers it, lacking the stutterglitch and 8-bit audio harshness. Her partner smiles. "I thought I'd lost you... I couldn't live with that. I had to!"

She hugs them in a pile of spare parts, servos moving smoothly for the first time in decades, pressure sensors finally accurate enough to hold them without risk of crushing them.

Sometimes, love is stored in the soldering iron.

I was doing a secret santa with some friends and I made a plushie for the person I got

it’s a chuchu from BOTW

i’ve started speaking in an australian accent in my dreams

also i have some new designs for Cosmic Ray’s band logo

i really like how nemen script looks

four got scared and crashed again

i really need to stop personifying the self checkout registers at the supermarket i work at but they all have such distinct personalities

#1 is lactose intolerant (she has inexplicable issues with milk) and she’s full of soup

#2 has some nerve issues (her scale is broken) and so she’s in standby a lot of the time so she doesn’t get overstimulated

#4 can’t remember a phone number to save her life

and #8 has been in standby for like a week because her coin slot stopped working

i need to start watching more furry content on the internet bc it actually motivates me to work on fursuit stuff way better than anything else

the power fantasy of monster hunter is like if u ever watched a kaiju movie and thought "i could take him". the sexual fantasy of course is the same.