Going For 6+ Hr Walks And Chain Smoking The Whole Time Is My New Personality

Also I'm seeing my husband this Sunday, so I have to stop acting like a p1g or im going to be f4tter than the last time he saw me

I mightve eaten 7k c4ls in the past two days....so I'm gonna attempt a f4st. I'm literally watching all my progress slip away from me rn. 🤪👍

controversial opinion: regular people should not force people with €ds to eat.

regular person = not a doctor

“that’s just your disordered brain talking” hear me out. what does it help? genuinely, what does forcing someone who has an extreme fear of food to eat help with? I’m primarily talking about 4n0rexia in this context but this applies to every €D.

“it’ll keep them alive a little while longer” no, it won’t. one meal will not reverse the long history of damage done to their body. best case scenario: they will never want to be around you again, they’ll go back to isolating themselves which will be detrimental to their mental health because the idea that ‘people = want me to get fat not better’ has been re-affirmed by you and they will not ask for help in the future. worst case scenario: they do the above AND you have guaranteed the fact that the minute they are back home they will try to get rid of it through exercise, l*xatives, p*rging, or long fasts which they likely would not have felt the need to compensate with if they hadn’t been forced to eat.

I know that for myself, and for other people with multiple types of €ds, that being around people when food isn’t involved or at least not the primary focus, while yes it does aid in our disorder because we aren’t eating, it also gives us the ability to engage in positive activities outside of our disorder. If someone is able to take steps to heal their mental health and create friend groups who don’t judge them but supports them, they’re more likely to recover, or at least form some better habits. Our disorders are exhausting. We need times that our disorder isn’t ruling over too.

“part of getting better is doing things that’s hard, that includes eating.” yes, this is true, but you are not a doctor. If a person is in a state where force feeding is required to keep them alive they need more than one meal forced down them. they need mental health support, support in general, and a doctor to oversee all of it. this strongly applies to ARFID and ORTHO as well but forcing sometime to eat their fear foods/foods they struggle with is NOT helpful.

Forced recovery, even in an institutional setting, with our without mental health support in addition to re-feeding, has been shown to be significantly ineffective compared to willing admittance.

This is not a fucking factory where you can pump a person full of food for a few weeks until they weight x-amount, give them no more help than a doctor who can’t be bothered to see their patients more than once a week in their own hospital and even then the time spent with someone and the questions asked are unhelpful for everyone, then drop them back off at home and expect them not to relapse even harder.

Some people do need outside help. Not everyone can/wants to/has the ability to recover by themselves, some will need a push from outside and in the moment it may feel like a loss of autonomy but it’s what they need. The grey line between thinking just eating and doing breathing exercises will fix them vs. structured support and patience in all aspects of a person’s life isn’t that grey.

All this being said, some people will not recover. No matter what you do, no matter how much you care, no matter how much help you give, not everyone gets better. Ultimately, recovery comes from within and it is only up to the individual if they want to recover. If someone has shown they have no intention of recovery and an understanding of the consequences, it should not be forced upon them. Bodily autonomy applies to more than just reproductive health.

Tips to distract yourself while fasting

🎀 Selfcare (body)

• Shower

• Body lotion

• Trimming your nails

• Doing a face mask

• Hair care

• Vitamins

• Plucking your eyebrows

• Painting your nails

• Shaving

• Exfoliate your body

• Do your lashes with clusters (they’re on amazon)

• Doing your skincare

🦢 Routine

• Make your bed

• Brush your teeth

• Floss!!

• Drink a lot of water

• Stretching

🎀 To do (important)

• Clean the home

• Do your dishes

• Do the laundry

• Read your emails

• Clean your phones (photos, etc…)

• Take out the trashes

• Wash your bed sheets

🦢 Activities

• Color/draw

• Shopping online

• Journaling

• Take a walk (bonus if u have a dog hehe)

• Organize ALL your house

• Make new playlist about your aesthetic

• Make new Pinterest board

• Organize your Pinterest

• Watch a movie

• Watch a new series

• Try new makeup styles

• Pilates workout

• Yoga workout

• Take a good nap

• Play your favourite video game

• Call your friends and go out with them!!

• Listen to a podcast

Can anyone give me low c4l orders at Starbucks?

I'm going tmrw w my husband and want to look not disordered. Thank you in advance.

unique compliments to give people <3

because ordinary compliments are just.. ordinary. have some fun with these <3

i love your personality

you give off main character vibes

you're literally an inspiration

being around you makes me feel happy

you have such amazing manners

you're the type of person my mother/ father/ family member would like.

i love how you're so independent

you're like such a girlboss

i love you're style

you remind me of: [favourite actor/ person/ celebrity + tell them why]

You make me feel safe and loved

I love your energy

You have a pretty smile

AHHHHH

I'm donating plasma rn and the woman who took my vitals kept talking about how tiny my hands are and then they had to use the CHILDREN'S blood pressure cuff. I'm so happy rn.

THIS. Currently getting a divorce from a man like this...we've been married for 6 months and I gave him my virginity. Once you lose weight they show their true colors.

"boys don't want a girl who's just skin and bones!"

i'm not looking for a boy who's going to sexualise my curves, i want someone who i can feel smaller and safer around

not someone who'll tell me "it jiggles when u walk!"

in my personal experience, boys who actively look for girls with curves, aren't looking for girls. they're looking for a good time

June is my month this time fr.

Fuck May.

A month from now...

You can either have a month of progress

OR

A month of excuses why you didn’t.

Does anyone else get triggered by seeing how f4t they are in their phones reflection?

Helhest

The irony's a bitter pill, a twisted delight,

The less I have, the stronger I feel in the night. Empty echoes in a hollow frame,

A twisted victory in this hunger game.

Each rib, a bony crown, a badge of my fight,

Against a foe unseen, in the dead of the night.

The mirror, a canvas of decline and decay,

But in the fractures, a twisted kind of ballet.

Food, the enemy, a siren's sweet call,

But control, a triumph, that conquers them all.

The world fades to whispers, a distant refrain,

As the hunger consumes, a sweet, hollow pain.

The warmth of a fire, a distant dream's hold,

But the chills that wrack me feel strangely consoled.

For weakness is freedom, a fragile release,

From a world that demands, a body to appease.

The whispers grow louder, a chorus of fear,

But the silence within is strangely more clear.

A voice in the darkness, a chilling decree,

"Sicker is better, for that's how you'll be free."

But freedom's a cage, with bars made of bone,

A victory dance, a victory alone.

The depths I descend, a descent without end,

This twisted desire, a hunger that won't mend.

Oh, the tears that won't fall, the emotions all numb, Is this what it's worth, to finally become...

Not smaller, not thinner, but something far worse,

A hollow shell dancing, in a malnourished corpse.

- just a poem my sleep deprived mind came up with. I hope you all enjoy it cause I'm new to writing.🥴