I was birthed from the torn stomach of night,
drenched not in milk,
but in the black bile of forgotten prayers.
The world spat me out
as a creature too ruined to be loved,
a wound with legs,
a scream with teeth.
Hope;
was a bone thrown to a starving dog.
I gnawed it until my mouth filled with splinters,
bled until my tongue knew only the taste
of broken promises.
I grew eating hunger,
drinking the venom of people's hate,
wearing the bruises of their disgust
like a second, rotting skin.
The colour of my flesh...
an open invitation to cruelty,
a crime I could never peel from my bones.
And when I crawled through the sewage of my years,
a thing barely breathing,
I thought love would be the knife to cut me free.
Instead,
it was another dagger...
this one twisted slowly into my throat
while I watched her eyes,
soft and shining,
for someone else.
Tell me, God,
what is more merciful:
to be born blind to love,
or to be shown its light
only to have it ripped from your hands
by fingers colder than the grave?
If there is a God of agony,
He carved His name into my ribs with rusted nails,
He strung my tendons into a lyre
so He could pluck songs of suffering
from my every step.
At night, I lie rotting,
a feast for the worms of memory,
as my dreams decompose around me,
the stench of what might have been,
thick enough to choke a corpse.
I feel decay threading through my blood,
I hear my hope
crackling like dry leaves under the boots
of things that never loved me.
My soul,
no, not even a soul,
a shattered lantern,
spilling its last flicker into a pit
where even maggots refuse to crawl.
And still,
some putrid, twitching part of me
reaches out,
fingers broken and blackened,
begging the silent stars
for something,
anything,
that does not end
in rot.
-Cyrus K.
so soft it hurts
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There are great selfless people in our world.
She rests in the arms
of a man who cannot feel her storm,
while I drown
in the flood she left behind.
I feel like a spider,
strung with longing,
spin webs from torn ribs
to catch the ghost of her smile.
Her laugh...
a blade I swallow each morning,
thanking it
for the pain.
I would tear the stars
from the throat of the heavens
just to watch her eyes
glimmer one more time.
My love is not gentle,
it is blood and bone and burning rope.
It is sleepless nights
stitched with screams
no one hears.
This is love,
where I am the pyre
and she,
the flame
that never stays
but never dies.
-Cyrus K.
We scroll past
starving children
to buy shoes we don’t need
and call it life.
Babies are born
with lungs full of poison,
their bodies warped
by toxins we dumped for profit.
Mothers wrap sons
in flags
like it softens
the sound of a coffin closing.
We skin the earth
for gold and oil
and hang it on our necks
while forests burn
and oceans bleed.
We worship Gods
but not Their creation.
Pray louder
than we love.
Animals scream in silence.
Children rot in camps.
Water is sold.
Air is dying.
Truth is filtered.
Kindness forgotten.
We kill over dirt
though we are made of stars.
We hoard
while others die thirsty.
This is not a world,
it is a graveyard
we are still digging
with our eyes wide open.
-Cyrus K.
I am not trapped.
I am abandoned.
There is no fight left in my limbs
no fire left in my chest
Only the heavy, sinking knowledge
that I have lived too long
in a body that was never mine to keep.
I do not recognize this face
these hands,
this voice that cracks like old pavement
every time I try to speak
I used to scream for help.
Now I don’t even bother whispering
No one listens to a woman
who dug her own grave.
The flowers inside of me are withering,
Blues, pinks, and purples—
All fading away.
Where did the time go?
I’ve watered the garden within me,
Ive been vigilant.
So why?
Tell me why the colors are vanishing,
Tell me why I am fading away,
And listen before I go.
Tell me of the times I was vibrant inside,
Remind me of my favorite songs,
And all I used to be infatuated with.
Plant a new garden inside of me,
This time, you can have the seeds
And the watering can.
For I do not trust myself with them anymore.
I wish for bluebells
And lilac petals this last time around,
Then I will finally be able to rest.
its so hard to believe someone could love me. im always always too much or too little. never enough.
I loved a girl
like the earth loves the rain,
knowing she’d never stay,
but needing her just the same.
She cried once in my arms
and I caught her tears
as if they were stars
fallen just for me...
but she wept for him.
I bandaged wounds
carved by another man’s hands,
whispering lullabies
to a heart that beat for someone else.
Every time she broke,
I shattered more quietly.
She kissed me...
like a door half-open,
warmth lingering on the threshold,
but her soul still pacing
somewhere far inside a house
I was never invited to live in.
And still,
I gave her my all,
a love without borders,
a fire without fuel,
a sea willing to drown
just to hold her reflection
for one more second.
Is this not the cruel poetry of love?
To give,
not for return,
but because you were born
with hands that only know how to hold,
even when holding means breaking.
They say unrequited love
is the purest kind.
Perhaps because it never has the chance
to rot with reality.
It stays eternal;
not because it lives,
but because it dies
beautifully.
To love like this
is to bleed in silence
and call it devotion.
To smile through heartbreak
because her happiness,
even in someone else's arms...
still feels holier
than my own.
- Cyrus K.