What The Fuck Did I Do SO Wrong That I Have To Feel Like This For The Rest Of My Life

All I’ve wanted from a young age was to be necessary.

having BPD n DPD is rough..

I wish

Or maybe home is just two arms wrapped around you when you're at your worst.

I envy selfish people. Do you know how exhausting it is to always worry about other people and their feelings even if it’s at your own expense?

Remember that you do not have to honor your father.

Remember that if your father did not treat you with respect, then he does not deserve your respect.

Remember that you deserve a father who loves you, and it is neither your fault nor your shame if you don't have one.

People are only nice at the beginning. They would make you feel like you're the sweetest, most gorgeous human being in the world. Make you fall in love with them. But once they get complacent, they take you for granted and start neglecting you. Your heart starts breaking every day. It becomes constant. You get frustrated and disappointed. You start doubting then hating yourself. Then you start acting crazy and needy because they make you feel like shit. They blame everything on you. Like it's your fault they neglected you. From there, the relationship just becomes more and more poisonous to the both of you. You end up being traumatized.

tryna >:3 my way into getting other trans dudes to dominate me

BPD culture is "I'm not jealous but what do you mean you have other friends??? You're my only friend, that's not fair."

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Starry Eyed

Watercolor on Black Cotton Paper

2024, 22"x 30"

Myosotis, Forget Me Nots