When is the last time
That i thought
For myself?
My mechanical brain
Made of gears and gold
Robotic and cold
I do what im told
And nothing exceeding
What was programed
In my bones
The forget-me-nots aren't blooming.
They wither on the sill
No amount of water
Could ressurect them still.
The sunlight shines enough for them,
But all I think to do
Is to let them die right there
Like my relationship with you.
There was so much more
That i should have said
So i look at the sky
And scream to the stars
The words that would've
Made you stay
Let me stain your face
With kisses
And your heart with my love
So that my color
Will blend with yours
To become a painted sky
I dreamt of a candle in pale hands
With a crimson flame burning down down down
Wax dripping on soft skin
Too gentle for it's heat
But there was no flinch or falter
Until it melted down to nothing
Leaving only a curl of smoke and scalded flesh
As its legacy
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Day 1/14
I look tenderly at the bluebells
For the first time in a while
I hope they know how well they are doing
How fast they are growing
And how beautiful they've become.
Snowflakes fell like nimble dancers
Landing softly
Upon your freckled nose
As our laughter fogged
In crisp air
We ran
And nearly slipped
Like a foolish man
Might fall in love
During the wintertime
An amber tinted room
Grey with clouds of smoke
That make my head spin
Like a vinyl record
Spiraling down
Until all i know
Are your violet eyes
And our desperate howls
Beneath the crimson moon
Am i a glass half emtpy
Or am i nearly full?
Or am i somehow
A shattered glass
Never to be filled at all
A No.2 pencil and a dream can take you anywhere.
Joyce Meyer
You make me strong. Not because you are my other half, but in fact because you were not. You broke my heart- you broke me- so I had no choice but to grow stronger. I had to make sure that nobody would ever hurt me again the way you did. You were my weakness, and now without you I am the best version of myself.
So yes, you make me strong. But it is only through your weakness that I had ever achieved it.