No Jonah You Can't Smoke Weed We Don't OWN Weed

I hate not being taken seriously only cause i'm trans and prone to delusions

I seriously need endos to fuck the hell off, what i go through daily isn't fun quirky little game you can decide to play, it is a fucking trauma response and i actually have to waste tons of my energy not to cause any more unreversible damage to the other alters. Having other people in your head isn't fucking funny, they're not just "friends you can have inside jokes with". It's tiring. It's debilitating. It's not knowing what will happen when you're not in front. Is having the others getting potentially exposed to danger and being unable to do anything to protect yourself and/or the body. It's others hating you for doing exactly what you were formed to do. The shame, the guilt, the self hate you constantly have to carry around that came after years and years of terrible trauma. It can sometimes be fun but the main point is it's a fucking disorder. I can't stand you guys fucking de-medicalising it so that you can enjoy a fake ass romanticised version of it. I hope my traumas hit you all at once. I hope you split a pre self-consciousness me. I wish all the worst to y'all

Remembers alcohol is a depressant and i'm on meds 🤸 oh well

The crisis has passed

Putting this here in case Forest decides to spy what i have to say again

Do not do any of the stuff i talk about guys

Pretending to be tougher than you really are won't shield you from the lack of love and affection you experience pretending you don't need it btw.

We are NOT splitting a guy about it

Alcohol is cool but have you ever had a feeling of control over yourself? Me neither, pass the bottle

Not sure how much longer i can keep on going

Is this what guilt feels like. Why. Why does it hurt so bad. Why does it feel like drowning