Leidermester | COLT

I wish I was getting drunk listening to some hard techno on a abandoned facility in the middle of nowhere

Tom Chase got me inspired

Ion know it feels like I’m always searching for something bc I never felt the way I wanted like I still think abt opioids and other drugs bc I never achieved the high I wanted and bc of that it keeps me craving to do it in order to fulfill this search and this goes beyond drugs, I feel like I’m always too excited to go out and walk around the city and pick up a lot of drinks in the middle of the walk bc I never done this, I never felt that feeling of “That was awesome” after doing something

Moving out my faith to the bad news

Only being good ‘cause I have to

If these walls could talk they’d tell me to leave

So young, so much to fear

Are you there god? save me I hate it here

Just please don’t forget about me

3rd time trying to leave twitter for my own mental health let’s see how it goes this time it feels more real bc Im truly going thru some dissociative/identity crisis