Lies

Him

The way he talks,

The way he laughs

Is like music to my ears

The way he says my name,

The way he smiles

Take away all my fears

But as I think,

And fall asleep

While wiping away my tears

I know that I’ve fallen

For a man

Who won’t ever hold me near.

-jileeza

Guest

I've swallowed my pride and spat my feelings out

Told you things no one cares to know about

You knocked down my walls and I stripped my armor

Opened the windows, welcomed you to my doors

We were happy, explored the rooms together

Built new ones, through the gardens we wander

Yet as I offer you a permanent place, you refuse

You're my story but I'm not your muse

Told me you were only having fun and passing through

A temporary shelter, until you find someplace better suited for you.

Deceitful Arrows

People say love would either save or destroy

I thought I have a choice, to hurt or to enjoy

But I met you and I experienced both

You opened my eyes, yet you never kept your oath

You saved me from drowning in the endless sea

But when I fell, you weren't there to catch me

So now, I'm lying with my broken pieces in the ground

Wishing you've let me stay lost, never to be found

People also say that when love is true

It will give you hope for something new

Yet my heart breaks every time it beats for you

Tell me, have you lied to me too?

Suddenly, I've realized that I'm plainly stupid

To let myself be stricken by mythical cupid

Now, my heart will always have a void, a remembrance from you

I have only loved once and you never even knew.

- D.G. Gir// 03/26/2018

Cursed

I'd close my eyes and I'll still see you

Behind my eyelids, in the places only we knew

I want to run to you, but I am frozen

How you could not see that I am broken?

And I know, I know you still love me

But you long to set yourself free

And though I wish to be your answer

You'd always be the fire I doused with water

And our fingers might touch, but our hands will never fit

We're fated to be strangers, walking in different sides of street.

Ruthless

My heart aches as you walk near

You, who've once taken everything I held dear

You have some nerve to come to me

When you made certain to ruin who I could be

Are you here to gloat, parade your victory?

I want to go, but you won't set me free

And I'm tired, I have nothing left to give

I wish you wouldn't come back once you leave.

I know that I'm healing when I realized that I don't want to die anymore. I realized that there are still things I wanna do, feelings I want to experience, adventures I want to go to, though I still have no motivation for it. But I'll get there. I believe it.

Defeated

I was running when you found me

With my heart filled of thorns and your head crowned with daisies

In the field of dandelions we met

Your tired eyes looked at mine with regret

With petals in my hands, and yours filled with blood

We part ways, losing what we never have.

She left me in November,

And I cried for the whole December

I begged for her in January,

But by February, I lost her completely